So its like you moved to the rarity while preserving the fluttershy element in yourself right? For me, it was a direct conversion. I had the elements in me already. And i used to think about such stuff all the time before watching mlp. And when i watched mlp, it was fluttershy who had the first effect on me. I found it impossible to be mean anymore. I kinda became weak, but a better person at the same time. And then when i watched the first episode and saw rarity cut her tail off, my mind was blown. That was a real turning point for me. It hit me the strongest, Rarity's geneosity. But overall, each of my elements of harmony were strengthened all of a sudden. Mlp became more to me than a show.