It has been pretty uneventful since my last entry but I really wanted to write my feelings out today.
I feel very lost and confused right now, I feel like I barely know anyone, even my own family, everything seems so distant and yet close. Whats more I dont think I am feeling very well. I think I am causing myself to be sick, something might be weighing in on my subconscious, but I cant pinpoint what it is. Its just out of reach.
On a cool note I had a wickedly awesome dream. In it I was at pax or some con of sorts and I was waiting in line to meet Markiplier and Jacksepticeye and when I met Mark I was blushy and embarrassed and gave him a present I made for him and then I asked if I could have a hug. When it happened it felt like time stopped and we just kinda looked at each other and he got all embarrassed as well and Jack was nudging him and stuff and I waved and went to play some games. Then he showed up again and asked my name and stuff and we just talked and he asked if he could play with me and we played till he had to go to a panel and asked if I wanted to go and I did and then we met up with Jack and the Game Grumps and a few others for dinner and we were talking and getting along and he asked for my number and stuff. When it was all done and he walked me to my hotel room he said he wanted to know me more and he leaned down to kiss me but I woke up. I was so upset that I woke up on the good part man >< but I have been having these types of dreams as of late and idk it makes me all flustered
Well I guess that's it for now I suppose, gonna eat my dinner and watch Blue Exorcist now.