Clawdeen

Sadly working I was going to take today off but low and behold I can't because someone scheduled a meeting

47 muffins

Sure. Would you date someone who spells every word they write or type wrong? What in the world is this question...

44 cupcakes

Yeah 40+ messages all from the same person in the same day in a row 💀 I think it could be caused by a few things different things. While I’m not entirely sure on the root cause of my behavior I am aware that I do it. As for sharing something with somebody…maybe I don’t know really 😅 It’s hard when it’s easier and also used to being more vague. Certainly some things for me to reflect on definitely

Yeah and just think once fall hits hopefully I can give you the gift of leaves being thrown at you 🍂 If they add that reaction back that is lol

I’m always down for friends I have stuff in common with to talk about. I’m also however seeking people I can talk to about myself fully and what I’ve got going on. To counter act the free therapy sessions I seem to be giving with my family and some individuals on my discord list. Before anyone asks, thinks or even tries to witch hunt this individual I’m about to refer to I know from school. I check my discord daily. I got 40 unread ones from her in a row. Last night I had 21 from her. Thats just one of them. Plus in my role at work now I can’t have bad days with people even when I want to. I’ve got an image. Even though on the inside everything could be on fire. I’m known as the person who can handle anything. I had that mentioned to me as recently as last week during a meeting in front of people. How flustered they get when things come up but how calm I am about things. It has me like yeah. That’s because you don’t know what’s going on on the inside right now 💀 However here’s where the kicker comes in with wanting this though. Which this is 100% on me.Its a me thing. I don’t feel comfortable really letting people get that close to me to know what I’ve got going on. Actually give details. When people start to get that close here’s a wall. Now I’m going to go do mental gymnastics and drive the conversation away from me or walk away from the conversation for a bit.

It’s not. I’m doing well

Amped up. It’s impulsive potentially bad decision time

Probably still be talking with a friend

I ate some mac n cheese

I’m in an Elton John mood tonight

“Squidward I used your clarinet to unclog my toilet“

Yes Do you own a tarantula?

I have but it’s been ages since I’ve played monopoly

It’s still this lol

Nothing like a cup of boiling hot water to start the day lol

Here lately my main focus has been vinyl records

Invest in a big company? Ew 💅 I’d spend that money lol

Funeral For A Friend/Love Lies Bleeding - Elton John

Well.I at least can work a double shift in my own home for a week vs flying out and being forced to work a double shift. I guess there’s that Not looking forward to working a double shift again. Not done that in years.

Yeah it made me upset. Me wandering around alone in a completely different country having never been on a plane before for like 8 hours. For strictly work. No sightseeing nothing. On a completely different timezone to not just work 8 hours in their timezone but also working my normal 8 hour shift on salary mind you. So no paid overtime.

Haaaah you people are insane if you think I’m flying out to Germany for work stuff.

Oh boy poisoned fruit my favorite