Mint_Melody

Hasn't taken a bath in two years.

Wishes he was a kangaroo baby. (Yay I checked the gender this time!)

Then my lie has reached new bounds of greatness!!! (seriously I am so sorry, I refer to almost everyone as female if I don't know them. My bad )

Lol I find it funny how most people don't know the extent to which human beings judge things and other humans subconsciously. We judge people on how they look, what they wear, and what they say. It's completely natural and quite necessary, even now days. I generally judge people on whether or not they are going to be a threat to me. That is my first priority. Not just like are they a stabby murderer threat, but I mean mentally or emotionally. I can usually tell the signs of someone who is going to drain you emotionally or take advantage of your weaknesses. It's really mean to say but I judge people a lot on how emotional they are. Crying really freaks me out, and I don't like people that whine unless it's rarely and for a good reason. I'm not a very polished person on a personal level, I swear and can be kind of rough and blunt. In order to avoid people's feelings by being stuck in a situation I'll be inclined to tell them to "suck it up", I judge them on how emotional they are and make a decision on whether or not I should spend more time with them. I guess the last major thing I judge on is if they fit into a certain stereo type. If they fit in with that group because they're really trying to, that'll probably sour my judgement of them fast. I don't care if you fall into a stereo type but have good reasons for being there, but I draw the line at just doing something because it's cool. All that being said I genuinely try to like people for who they are and place a high value on forgiveness. I try to remind myself that just because I can make a certain judgement about how someone is today, doesn't mean they'll always be that way. Hell, I have more flaws than I can shake a stick at, so I really don't have a high horse to sit on.

Likes to rub cheese on her feet and then smell it

Does it have to be cartoons? MLP is just about the only cartoon I watch. Ummm this isn't in any particular order. 1. Jade from Victorious 2. Sesshomaru from Inuyasha 3. Dr. Spencer Reid from Criminal Minds 4. Jeremy Wade from River Monsters! (he may not be a 'character' but my love for him is true!) 5. Abby and Ziva from NCIS 6. Shawn and Gus from Psych (Juliet USED to be on this list before she turned into a boogerwad!) 7. Miles,and Charlie Mathason from Revolution 8. Juliet and Ben from Lost 9. Bakura and Kaiba from Yugioh (I was obsessed with that show as a teen) 10. Any character that Elizabeth Gillies will play, ever.

I love it when people quote or mention me, it usually means we're having a discussion! I love to analyze and pick apart details with other people and hear their opinions!

I think about how far away my sleeping pills are. Usually the answer is down stairs, and I sit there and think about how stupid I'm being until I drift off. It is a stupid and vicious cycle. lol

Oddly enough the thing that ruined my day today also made it. I decided to take my dog to a huge park/old fort near by that has tons of walking trails way back in the woods. For some reason, while off in my blissful, la la land, Daring Doo state of mind, I let my dog take the lead. What was supposed to be a 3 mile hike turned into a seven mile hike into the middle of the woods where I'm pretty sure they shoot every 'woods murder' in Criminal Minds. For some reason, they thought it would be an awesome idea to STOP marking the trail at one point, so I began to freak out, thinking I was lost. Eventually I took this weird dirt road thing that I think is meant for maintenance and not hiking. For some reason they had put down a bunch of loose dirt over this trail and it had just rained, so I got to walk through the mud, up hill for pretty much half a life time. Oh and did I mention we live near the mountains? So it was all super up hill and super down hill. But even with a pulled muscle and a pair of aching legs I had fun. I got to spend some great time with my dog and hike somewhere new. Aside from some minor physical/emotional trauma it was a blast.

1) I'm ashamed that I have a temper and that I have very badly manipulated and used people in the past. As a teenager I chose to lash out violently because that's just how I was raised. While this did mean less people picked on me, I realized it was out fear and that I was being like my father. I do what I can every day do stop this, it is a work in progress but I no longer go after other people (physically or emotionally) when I'm upset. Also as a teenager I found out how to get friends, particularly online ones and manipulate them. I could make them sad or happy or whatever I wanted because they weren't people to me, they were toys and that disgusts me. 2) I'm proud to not be a quitter and that I've found a way to love myself. I know I'm worth it now and it may take a lot of effort to do certain things to reach a goal, but I can do it. I no longer need the approval of others to make me happy with myself. I don't feel desperate for people to like me, or like my art, or want to date me because I'm very secure in who I am and I'm not willing to change that. My morals have been set for the most part, and I do not intend on wavering. 3) I'm proud I am NOT an abuser. I was badly abused myself as a preteen by a girlfriend/friend of mine and for a while I began to see myself doing things that she did to me. I never hurt people to the extent she hurt me, but my behavior was inexcusable. I learned to recognize that and change. I've become everything she said I'd never be and more, and with much effort I've retrained my mind to think of people differently than I used to. I may be a bit of a grouch still, but I do my best to help people as much as I can and treat them with integrity.

Omg. There are a LOT of them but a few bad ones always stick out in my mind. When I was a teenager teaching kids church this little boy drew a picture of me. It had a head, two arms, two legs, and two big circles over my whole body. I was so surprised that I swore under my breath and took it from him. His parents never brought him back. It's not like I could help it! I was in a T-shit for goodness sake! Well, as a college kid, I still live with my parents. Mostly because they refuse to let me move out and be left with my 13 pets while I party in a dorm.. I don't blame them. I'm an adult and pretty used to... amorous activity among adults but one night I went to knock on my mother's door and it flew straight open to.... yeah. They said they were 'hugging'... I was 19 at the time. They must have thought I was a moron if they expected me to believe them. I made the mistake of reading a Sammy Key's book in elementary school entitled, "Mary Mustache"... my name is Mary, all the kids in school saw me read it. I was mustache Mary for the next year and a half. Most recently, and possibly the most horrible of all. Two women drove up to me in a car while I was coming out of the bookshop. One was African American and one was white. This isn't something that means anything to me, personally racism as a concept baffles me. The African American driver asked, "Do you know where a Victoria's Secret is around here?" Now understand, here I am, a bisexual woman, walking down the street and these two pretty girls pull up and ask me where an underwear shop is. I was extremely flustered and said, "Sure go um, right down to the stop sign, turn right, go through the stop light and it's right black there." I froze. I knew what I'd just said and so did she. I was completely mortified and unsure if I should explain myself or if that would only make me seem more racist. She gave me a forced smile and drove off, and I wanted to crawl under a rock.

I love holidays! I just hate how I have to celebrate them. Holidays strike me a beautiful for the most part. They get special colors and people become excited. It seems like the country wide, if not the global population is thinking about one thing. I love the look of Christmas and the idea of shining tinsel and warm fires with pretty wrapped things under a tree and your entire house decked out in the most horrendously gaudy/beautiful display. I love to give gifts to the people in my life, for some reason it just makes me happy. Oh and I get to bake! I love to give baked gifts that let people know I've put time and effort into doing something for them. Those that know me are familiar to know I do not do those kinds of things unless I feel like it. No holiday in the world can force me to give a gift. I always get a light up or dancing hat for myself at Christmas and wear it to all of the parties. It's nice to get things, I won't lie about that. Even if they're things I don't really like, it means someone thought about me or at least put me on their list and bought something generic. My favorite things are those given to me by the kids I teach, drawings and such they've made themselves. I'm such a sap for them. I think the saddest thing about Christmas is its the time people give most to charity, which I feel is something that should be stressed year round and not on a holiday. We should always want to help others. Most other holidays are fun for me too. I have my own mini farm with my lovely pet ducks and hand raised Ebden geese, so I take the goose eggs and blow them out, then paint them or ask my friends to paint them. Then I'm left with a bunch of beautiful eggs and memories of my friends. The only holidays I'm not wild about are New Years and Valentines Day. It is horrible to admit but I can never seem to restrain myself on new years eve and always end up doing something I regret. I once kissed my ex girlfriend on New Years not long after an extremely icky break up. To this day I don't know what possessed me to do something so stupid. Valentines day I don't like because I'm very, how should I say this... particular about romance and love. Intimacy with your partner over even with a friend is something I think is very private. I always get this nagging feeling on Valentines day that my privacy is being infringed on and that if I'm spending it with a partner, it isn't really special. It's one thing to be happy on a holiday but to be in love on one just because society tells you to is... very disturbing for me. Most of the holidays I have a spent with family, which is the down side to all of that. I love my family, but they are seriously all out of their minds and use the holidays as a time to be very loud and to get into a lot of arguments. In the spaces where we do neither of those things, we all sit around bored to tears until someone picks a fight again. Also with my grandmother passing this year, holidays are going to be very hard. She made everything exceptional and special and just... better. But life will go on. It isn't the holiday's fault and I plan to embrace them like my grandmother did, with enthusiasm and optimism. Holidays add a sense of magic and mysticism to the world in my opinion. I don't care who's religion made them (which anyone that believes Easter and Christmas are still Christian holidays and avoids them because of that are foolish in my opinion) or why they're there. If I think they're fun and beautiful I'm going to participate, I'm going to teach them. Culture is a beautiful part of this world and I love it when I have the chance to embrace it!

Ugh, for some reason everyone loved these two movies and they were the weirdest things I've seen to this day. Has anyone see The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus and not know what the hell was going on? I haven't seen it in a really long time, but I remember I turned it off part way through and mourned the hour and a half of my life I'd just wasted. I was so confused and when I wasn't confused I was depressed. Also I thought Pans Labyrinth was super weird. Of course, I watched it when I was like 13 and when I got it from the movie rental place I didn't have a clue what it was about. I thought it would be something akin to Alice in Wonderland. So I sat in my living room, trying to read this Spanish film and figure out what was happening. If I got distracted from the words for two minutes I was completely lost. I've never gone back to watch it again, now that I'm older it may not be so strange... but Idk.

Omg so I'm not the only person that movie traumatized! Did the flying monkeys freak anyone else out? Monkeys are bad enough without bat wings thank you very much! I had nightmares for a month

All hair aside from eyebrow and head hair freaks the shit outta me. I remember this guy I dated (the last male I dated) asked me if I shaved my legs every day to which I replied "Usually" and I kid you not he said, "Well could you try to get stricter about that because it's kind of gross." Then when I asked HIM to shave his beard, chest, and legs he said that was weird.... ugh I do NOT like hair.