So, to be frank:
- I have depression.
-I have PTSD.
-I have anxiety and panic attacks.
- I also dealt with suicidal thoughts and nearly gave in as a teen. Yes, I did cut myself.
Now, did I ever get TheoryPy for any of this? No.
Have I sought it? Yes.
Did it work? No.
Why? Given the mental breakdown, and because I tend to be labeled as lower class" or, well, a typical American, we tend to get sidelined unless you have money. The sad thing is, a lot of lower class Americans are seen as more than just a number in the system that can be replaced by the next walk-in-the-door hire a lot of the time.
Now, thankfully for me, and I'm lucky I've got these once-in-a-lifetime type of friends who are my family. Also, the example my grandmother set for me in her life and what she taught me. I also have a partner who, even in his darkest hour, will go out of his way to be there for me, listen, and, well, be there for me. I try to do the same, given how much we are both going through right now. Yet it's also my own will, strength, and just not letting this "dark" cloud over me take over my life and finding the will to fight!
You don't ever get rid of the "cloud," and yes, it's hard as heck, but I'm also taking steps to change and take hold of life. I think living with this takes a type of strength a lot of people have but think they lack, and sometimes it takes someone to point it out or you to say enough.