CocoCody

This song has particular meaning and gravity in my life.

Oh yes, i really enjoyed playing Red dead redemption 2! Lmao now i am imagining *Twilight Sparkle is confused by Arthur Morgan* "What's going on, where am i?" *He hands her a book* "Easy now girl~"

Will this ear ache ever let up today (x_x(\

Feeling slightly toasted on both sides of the bread tonight.

Hey there @Silverspark184~ Welcome to the community!

A whole pepperoni pizza from dominoes and a banana.

I have learned personally that i cannot "lower" my stress without on some level trying to escape it. Your emotions will always be there until you feel it to its fullest extent, emotions want to be felt. Stress is stressful for a reason and we don't want to be stressed, but yet we are constantly being sent signals through out our minds and body's to listen to it, we try to distract ourselves with media or we think about the past and the future, troubled to be the moment because those stressful feelings are waiting for us there, wanting us to finally pause and feel the emotions we are going through. We may not all know how to handle our feelings or are able tolerate them without reacting to them, but we can always pause and breath, focus on our breathing. Like listening to a friend, its easier to be patient with other people then it is for ourselves. If i know one thing for sure, pausing to sit completely still for 5 to 15 minutes, letting go of the mental chatter of how i am feeling, consciously being aware on the bodily sensations of emotion in my body, and focusing on my breathing has really helped me. I have severe difficulties being in the moment, i constantly ruminate with my thoughts and its hard to be grounded with constant pain, i get overwhelmed with intense emotions, anger, fear, lust, jealously, insecurity, selfishness, guilt, obsession, panic. What is a severe pitfall is denying that i feel that way, i cannot make those feelings go away, i cannot manifest myself into something i am not experiencing, it is only when i stop to feel to those feelings is when i can walk past the control they would have over me if denied myself the right to feel something that is natural as breathing, something that is natural and beautiful as if it was wave gliding over sand on a beach. It is very painful to feel those emotions but once we register it, it opens us up to all the other feelings we have in our life's and once that is fulfilled you can see the beauty in feeling stressed because its apart of you asking yourself to accept your feelings.

Had a nap that i was day dreaming about ponies, only to wake up and find out that i was dreaming, and then i proceeded to think about ponies lol.

I haven't willingly drank soda in 3 years. Its tempting, its thrown around at parties a bunch, i hear it calling my name every time i walk pass the grocery isle, but the amount i was consuming was becoming rather problematic for me so i cut it out. I was drowning in soda.

I am currently on Mlp Fim season 7 Episode 22 "Once upon a zeppelin" The Star Tracker episode lol

Finally getting out of bed and then sitting right back down on a recliner.

Oh that's exciting news! <3 I wish you a meaningful time at HarmonyCon Savygriffs!

Lol i am watching jaws right now, I'm picturing in my mind Starlight saying that after seeing pinkie pie as the shark, and backing away slowly. XD

I am saddened to hear that you are suffering with that right now, i can relate with you on having unpleasant prolonged sicknesses. I hope that you get better real soon CloudMistDragon.

I'm thinking we're going to need a bigger boat.

@Princess Silky No worries silky, take all the time you need and more. I look forward too. @ZiggWheelsManningOh thank you, i appreciate that! <3

I bought a Nintendo Virtual Boy and a H.P. Love Craft horror game for it called "Inns mouth no yakata" 900$ well spent Lol.

*Nervously shuffles myself here* Well, Ill throw my hat into the ring! I have a deep affinity for an early 2000s CGI anime character named Neko zombie and i have a few Pony town OC designs that are inspired around him. Coco is an earth pony that resides in the realm of dreams in his mind, his head is in the clouds but his heart is grounded. He is a very empathic pony that has a hard time hiding the nature of his pain despite his care for the well being of others. Like Neko Zombie, his character represents a heart that's been torn and sewn back together, he represents the stubborn nature of the heart that refuses change after being hurt. He has an easier time helping others fulfill there own happiness then to be able to realize his own propensity to create his own suffering. Buuuuuut- He is also a wild silly goose that likes dressing up as a golden buddha, it his alter ego that he uses to spread the wisdom and positive joy that he feels, and dreams up in his mind, He also hosts edgy cyber goth dance offs under local highway bridges and lives as a wanderer, traveling by bus with his imaginary guitar, he also try's funding his Dojo Casino dreams by offering Air guitar etiquette seminars and cha cha lessons to mixed results. Lol mood whiplash! He a serious, silly, caring pony. I am hoping to get some feedback on his design and how to further evolve him, maybe in the center of his body in particular to distinguish him more away from the neko zombie influences. I have really grown on to this character and would like to establish a non pony town illustration of him one day.

I am incredibly moved by such an unexpectedly warm welcome, i have had very heartwarming and intimate conversations from multiple people here that i just met since i signed up a day ago. I am filled with such jubilation at the love that i am feeling and the love that i can beam outward to others here. I guess i picked a hell of a day join your community because you guys are some genuinely special ponies, even if i haven't met you yet.