mega thread How are you feeling?

[ExplosionMare 18,060]

Doing good right now.

[Rosy Moonlight 369]

Feeling bittersweet, if you understand what I mean.

[They call me Loyalty 1,948]

I was suffering. Nothing wrong with willing suffering. In fact, I tend to find that we are often of our own worst enemies. So, whom better to struggle with, in order to keep me in good shape, than my own "self". If I fight against the world, I can earn material possessions in this meaningless race, a materiality which is only there to detract from the only thing that will matter in the end.
So, I suffer by my own volition. Sounds, crazy, eh? But perhaps, being "crazy" in this kind of world. Is actually wise. Especially, with what most people consider "normal". Insanity.

Imagine a world that pushes each individual into building a systematic self-image that is the very antithesis of the human soul. Ingenious. A world system that professes being the solution to the very sickness it causes. It is like using money to solve poverty. Sure, use the vehicle of poverty to solve the poverty you are creating because of using money. That collective complicity.

So, yeah. I struggle a lot with myself over this world. Not different from those times I would see an orderly line of cars moving like a conveyor belt towards nowhere. And then, I would also see a homeless person, struggling against itself, filthy, hungry, alone, and our eyes will meet and there will be this instant moment of mutual recognition that requires no words. Because the sharpened soul can speak. Because that seemingly ruined human being has been tempering the only thing that matters, like you would with iron. How is it possible to have lost everything, and yet win in the end?

The king in the beggar, and the beggar in the king.

Edited July 7, 2022 by They call me Loyalty

[Savy 5,075]

Doing good at the moment.

[ExplosionMare 18,060]

I feel strange. It is a feeling of being in a familiar place yet the place in question feeling unfamiliar.

[SweetieDreams 84]

This pegasus is feeling a bit under the weather today, pun intended. 

I’ve got a sore throat that didn’t stop hurting even after I took some ibuprofen. 

On the bright side, it’s the perfect excuse to lay in bed all day! Normally I would beat myself up over being lazy, but it doesn’t count as being lazy if you’re sick! 

[ExplosionMare 18,060]

Have a mix of feelings, could be due to the weather

[Savy 5,075]

Very tired, been up since 7 getting stuff ready for vacation.

[Wingnut 6,966]

Hobbling around with sore, taped-up toes is getting old.  

[ExplosionMare 18,060]

Very excited from too much sugar 

 

[ZiggWheelsManning 9,794]

Feeling quite crazy after finishing my shower  

[ExplosionMare 18,060]

A bit annoyed that I have to get up so early today

[SweetieDreams 84]

Awkward. Nothing worse (in a social situation) than telling a “hilarious” joke that nobody laughs at  Tough crowd

No wonder my family discouraged me from doing stand-up comedy

[ExplosionMare 18,060]

A bit annoyed that the internet is being slow, but otherwise, fine 

[Sparklefan1234 169,474]

I'm (feeling) curious to find out what @ExplosionMare's next Artist Training Ground artwork will look like. 

[ExplosionMare 18,060]

2 hours ago, Sparklefan1234 said:

I'm (feeling) curious to find out what @ExplosionMare's next Artist Training Ground artwork will look like. 

Thanks for that reminder to post it!  

I'm feeling good at the moment

[They call me Loyalty 1,948]

Some concern. I am surprised by the availability of this world to traumatize and abuse anyone with true emotional cognition, as if it was to perpetuate a generation abusers and victims in a dissociative state of trauma, that supports the compulsive consumerism of the world-wide capitalist model. It is like a machine, this world. It is like a machine.

And generational trauma is massive across, world-wide. And I am worried. Because people do not seem to have the same degree of awareness. And I do not understand what kind world is this, considering it is an enclosed plane. I am worried about this. I had been researching some years ago, and someone nailed a bullet in the center of the door that gave to my balcony. And it was worrisome, to put it politely.

The entire world is kept dependant on a system that creates more poverty and abuse of life. I do not believe in scripture, because the context of this situation is heinous. Especially, when I read some of the free-masonic records in my family. Where it speaks how the polio was engineered to cause autistic disorder in the next generations, to keep them traumatized and docile. And it was the same with the most recent pandemic, with much trauma being caused world-wide because of that "vaccine". People I know seeing others being injected and immediatly having a seizure. And I look at the people in the street. And it is like they are sleeping. This is their reality. This is not okay. I do not think there is a god. Or at least a benign one. Because either I am crazy, or the world is. And how could you call normal a world, where the very estate causes generational trauma to ensure dependancy upon the system that is killing them? It was no different with 9/11. This place is monstrous. But people are so cognitively impaired that they just let it skip by. It was all a "game". What is going on? Everyone is constantly kept on a state of survival and dependacy with media, politic and currency that they have become animalistic and selfish. De-humanized. But not because they are "evil", but rather because the world is intended on traumatizing the population. It is everywhere. But people do not respond. It is like trying to talk to livestock. "Hey, reality is not what it seems!!!". Nothing. And every time I go to buy, or walk around. There is always a group of men following me around with shaded glasses. And it was the same since childhood. "The man in the car". What is going on in this plane? Because it is more like an experiment than anything else. But nope. The line is dead. People is to worried surviving to realize they are being killed anyway. I am just worried. That is all.

Edited July 8, 2022 by They call me Loyalty

[Sparklefan1234 169,474]

24 minutes ago, ExplosionMare said:

Thanks for that reminder to post it!  

 

You're Welcome, Bestie! 

I'm feeling happy because I was helpful. 

[SweetieDreams 84]

Ughh I feel like I’ve been run over by a truck  I’ve definitely got some type of sickness going on. No specific symptoms besides just feeling very tired, chills, body aches, headaches, etc. I can barely formulate thoughts on social media, thinking feels like too much effort. Maybe I should just log out of everything for the day and go watch anime or YouTube or something… 

[Sparklefan1234 169,474]

I'm feeling VERY sad right now. 

Edited July 9, 2022 by Sparklefan1234

[Splashee 28,560]

2 hours ago, Sparklefan1234 said:

I'm feeling VERY sad right now. 

Me too

[TheRockASaurus Rex 50,576]

2 hours ago, Sparklefan1234 said:

I'm feeling VERY sad right now. 

Same here, Spark.

[Sparklefan1234 169,474]

3 hours ago, Sparklefan1234 said:

I'm feeling VERY sad right now. 

 

I'm feeling a bit happier now because I had the opportunity to say goodbye to my Bestie @ExplodedMare one on one. 

I hope you all get the chance to, too. 

[They call me Loyalty 1,948]

I was feeling like a desperate animal forced against the gruelling nature of a reality that was out to devour me. Worse even, starved out and dead inside. But not anymore. I am feeling soulfull. As if spirit had been visited upon me, to calm my afflictions and soothe my pain. While a couple of hours ago, I was experiencing a massive pain in my chest and spine, at the height of my shoulder blades, as if someone was about to break me in half. I could barely stand, beause this invisible burden on my back was so heavy. But now I feel in peace. And there is this gentle ringing in my right ear that is comforting.

It felt so utterly hopeless. But I am better know.

[Jackleberry 1,921]

Overall I'd say I'm feeling a bit more confident than usual, though it's balanced out by slightly sharper swings in the opposite direction.