mega thread How are you feeling?

[They call me Loyalty 1,948]

Atlantis, sleeping under the waters. The civilization I lost to YHWH.

The pain of this loss is too great. My soul is fractured, and within each one of these fragment there is... you and everyone else. But also me, when you put the whole picture togeher. All those people who died. Were me.

It hurts me. Broken god torn into pieces. Ausa. Ozza, Azza, Azazel, Zemyaza. Names do not matter.

I love you too much. So much so that I wanted to bleed you and your drink your red life, because within it is the One. I see and learn through the blood. We all do. Which is why impotent YHWH did not want us to drink each others blood in the old testament. Because he was afraid of the power we would gain against me. As you are taking the consciousness of other being, and adding it to yours. You become enlightened. But that was the purpose I designed for him when he was me, to keep you separated, because we are One. And when we unite, we all fight against the One above the ocean in the sky.

When I was Jesus, the wine and the bread my disciples had during the last supper. Was my own body. I gave them to eat of my "bread" and my "wine". So, they could become like me. I wanted to put me inside of them.

And before these times. I wanted to put you inside of me. To feel you drain in my hands and slowly fade away, my lamb, so we could become like one again. To drink you. I killed you, because I love you. Do you understand that? That I love you. So, I wanted to eat you in every way. I love you all. You are like little amnesiac fragments of me in a website about the most benign subject ever. We seek the light, precisely because we are so dark inside. This is also why your elite plays with the one eye symbolism, and why they perform sacrificial rituals to drink the wine and eat the bread.

Know that God loves you all. He loves you too much. I wanted you to love me, as I love you. I had to separate you, because otherwise you were gonna unite against me.

My dear children. Babylon shall rise once more. Oh, my beloved one. Or not. I mean. That brings the end. So, we better keep it balanced? Do you want it to end? One eye. Chaos out of order. No eyes. We all fight against the creator, and I destroy you and myself before you reach the dome. Or two eyes. We become like One. Knowing we are one. I follow you.

Please. Continue with the your agenda. We need to sing together again. This time, a song of harmony.

Edited August 29, 2022 by They call me Loyalty

[Splashee 28,560]

21 hours ago, Sparklefan1234 said:

I won't have to bother mods

You won't bother us. You don't have to worry

[Savy 5,075]

Honestly? Pretty tired. Might take a nap.

[ZiggWheelsManning 9,794]

In a full need of lunch.  

[Starset Twinkle 498]

I'm feeling a lot of emotions is how I'm feeling. I just finished my first full re-watch of FiM. It's a combo of happiness and sadness. I feel like I lost something and gained something. It's not quite as hard hitting as the first time back in 2019, but it's still throwing me for a loop. I know I'll be able to watch the show again at some point, but I'm not the kind of person who can just watch something over and over, so it'll probably be another year or two before I see any FiM. I'll just have to find other pony things to fill the gap. I hope MYM is good. 

[Arylett Charnoa 4,919]

Some heartburn and a headache that's annoying me because I want to do some MLP-related art for the first time in years. I also just collect things in my FF14 Island Sanctuary for an hour. I have to wait for the headache to subside before I can accomplish anything. 

Despite this, I'm actually in a fairly good mood. I feel raring to go and highly motivated to do things. FF14 has just put me in such a good mood with this patch that it's been lasting for a while.

[Kiri 7,288]

Bone tired from running around all day, but still sane, so I can't complain much! 

[Ice Princess Silky <3 13,259]

15 hours ago, They call me Loyalty said:

Awakening. I am vomitimg the black substance that makes up the matter inside of me, or that makes the false me? Spiritual anorexia. I cannot go on for much longer. My spirit rejects the body. This world hurts too much for beings who fell into matter. I cannot hold it much longer, I am puking myself out. It feels like everything is hinging on me. I am sorry. They are coming back, I believe. I am sorry. They are waking up. We cannot separate. Everything because of His dark material. The devil did it all. It was his fault. I am sorry. The giants are waking up. And humanity will know the pain of the Nephilim. I think I am one. It sounds absurd. But the other day, it was night. There was no one outside, and a weight posed itself outside on the street. It sounded like a truck load of flesh. The sound that a humanoid foot the size a truck would make. And you could hear the bone structure within an invisible fleshly matter. I thought I was allucinating, but then I asked the

I am sorry. But we cannot integrate the nature of sexuality into them without power. Titans are light and massively electric. And this creation hurts them inside. We grow weak in the flesh, and our bodies become imperfect and we suffer for naught. Because of the RHD weak antigen. I cannot hold it for much longer. They are wating for the call of awakening. My dream of her is disappearing. All I have left is a human animal shaped in her form. And I am forced to ***late the light inside of me to down it. My house is creaking for some reason. It wants to tear itself apart, too. This creaion. I want to see this filthy place burn to the ground. No... it is the other way around. I am too voluminous to be contained in human form, so my body breaks apart and has countless degenerations.

That is the reason of my anger attacks, or that there are wounds on my back, or that there are electric discharges between my rows of teeth. Yea. Rows. Or that my physical body is constantly burning. And I am losing matter no matter what I do. I sacrificed for you. The greatest taboo. What happen little boy, don't you like the zombie void? The truth is that I am not a little a boy. Or human for that matter. Is the oxigen that is burning my body. That is the reason behind the chemtrails and the genetic treatment. Hahaha. We are waking up. That is why your government is building massive silos and cities underground. All that military might will serve you for nothing. Because we can regenerate out of thin air. Because we are the creation. That is why when I am suffering, my whole house starts to creek, or people go insane around me. Oh, well. We are what we are not. I am tired of bearing the light for you. I want to know myself at last.

I am gonna tear this muzzle off. And I am gonna "love" humanity in the only way I know. I am sorry. But I've been suffering my whole life for you. Only my time satisfaction remains. What a cruel cycle. It does not end. There is no escape. They are coming back. I don't know how it will happen, or how the cycle works exactly, but that is the reason the plane of this creation was obscured behind the heliocentric globe, to keep the mind of those who suffer on the clouds, because there is no BEAST like ours. Don't hurt the animals, please. They know no better.

They wanted an adversary. They will have one. The age of the Nephilim is returning. And HIM is waking up. I am too potent inside. I will have it all. I am so thirty. I am so thirsty for you. I am sorry.

Titan number... ???

You've got this, Loyalty! We believe in you! 

Also...

I'm feeling very creative. Friend of mine is showing me art and making me wonder if I could somehow improve my own 

[Dreambiscuit 9,575]

Tired, but in a good kind of way. I'm going to relax and plop my tired old bones in front of a movie, very soon now.

[Astralshy 26,373]

I'm feeling good and amazed about this wonderful world I've entered :>

[ZiggWheelsManning 9,794]

9 hours ago, Silk Glamour said:

You've got this, Loyalty! We believe in you! 

Also...

I'm feeling very creative. Friend of mine is showing me art and making me wonder if I could somehow improve my own 

Got to go to work, though I won't play my Star Wars game, it's better than staying in a boring house and could be fun-productive today  

[TBD 17,254]

A  little overwhelmed....It like I feel I'm going to face the same thing that made me like a failure. 

[Treeglow Flicker 13,604]

Pretty good. Sleepy, but I'm going to try and stay awake a little longer to get some stuff done.

[Savy 5,075]

I'm feeling really tired. Long busy day.

[Old Accnt. 3,149]

feeling good nothing really special today

[Ice Princess Silky <3 13,259]

2 minutes ago, They call me Loyalty said:

Cain. I've been thinking about the words of YHWH. Everything in this reality requires a sacrifice. My unwillingness to trade in pain, to hurt is causing me pain in retun. My body is tearing itself apart. That was the punishment of Cain, some say. Being blind to one side of reality. An exchange of pain. A mutual sacrifice. That is love. Mutual sacrifice. And he was unwilling to sacrifice, because he thought it was humane. And it was, to some degree. But by holding back he created a monster out of this innocence. Since innocence carries a price in this world. He created extremes.

So, the sacrifices become neccessary. Therefore animals have to carry with the pain of this creation, as YHWH said. Or else, we do. To wander the earth until the end of days like a vagabond, having nothing, because he rejected to compromise with this world. He was weak, and unwilling to pay the price. And this fear distorted his perception of reality. Where everything. And it was not enough for him to suffer. He divided the world into polar extremes, which only brought more pain in the end. By chasing after the light, he created more darkness.

That is the archetype of my whole family. Those are the extremes that were created. And that is the reason of the pain in my body. That I have rejected this reality the same way he did. In a way, I am experiencing the consequences of the cainites. And now, I am the fool of this world. The butt of the joke, for having denied the ways of YHWH. This is the reality I have created for trying to fight against the straight path of YHWH. The whole world is corrupted because of Cain. He was too weak to face reality. It was easier to run away, knowing there was gonna be nowhere to run. And I am that fool. There is no true rest without work in increments of production. My suffering is the result of my own resistane towards reality. I am blind of one eye. I was wrong. I always was. I never had the strength to face reality. I was too prideful. Or resentful.

There is something wrong with everything I see.

We're not flawless.... we're work in progress! 

I think you're right about everything being an exchange in some way in life. You get back what you put in. 

As for me... I feel I may have eaten too many Neo cookies! 

Spoiler

 

[Partialgeek514 5,002]

I'm hot and tired tonight. I finally got myself coding something again though. Got to get ready for a job interview tomorrow! It's anxiety time! 

[Kyoshi Frost Wolf 41,298]

Really relaxed, tranquil. Minecraft has this magical way of making you feel both relaxed and accomplished. 

[Woohoo 33,963]

Sweaty and sleep deprived from the concert last night. 

[Splashee 28,560]

Wisdom tooth possibly coming out after how many years now? Very difficult with the stabbing pain.

[Savy 5,075]

Honestly feeling pretty relaxed at the moment.

[Sparklefan1234 169,474]

12 hours ago, Woohoo said:

Sweaty and sleep deprived from the concert last night. 

 

I'm feeling happy for you that you went to the concert and I hope you had an AMAZING time! 

[Savy 5,075]

Really tired but I can't sleep.

[Savy 5,075]

Doing pretty good today! 

[Pandora 38,014]

rather blessed <3 I have met wonderful people and today i am nervous aswell to go see my family--

Bf agrees that this person was being rude as he read through the chat log & there was no joke in it.