Betrayal

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I'm sure this is something we've all been through at some point or points in our lives. Severity is one thing that can influence how someone responds to it and a person's circumstances being another. Quoting my friend @Winterbass, "Results vary from being annoyed to even suicide. Because, what use is it to live when even someone you trust so much breaks your trust?" 

 

Of course, when I say "betrayal", I'm basically talking about pretty much anything that challenges if not totally shatters a person's emotional investment in something; be it a pact, a person, a belief or even a community. That's assuming that trusting someone and emotionally investing in them are the same thing. Maybe it isn't but I don't really know at this point.

 

So, how have you experienced and how has that particular event shaped or affect you to this day?

 

One point where I experienced it very bad was during my transition from Christian to atheist but I'll avoid opening up that can of worms. Not only that, I got something that was much more painful to go through and still I feel the pain to this day. When I was part of that other pony forums, I used to feel secure there. People treated me well and appeared to be appreciative but that's all it turned out to be; appearances. When I proposed an idea that didn't work out, suddenly it's like all the fish turned into piranhas. Despite the heat, I did my best to stay civil all the way through even up until the thread's lock. Confused, I talked to someone I was friends with at the time. He revealed to me that people have been intimidated into silence all along because off of my points tend to be "backed up and fortified." For me, the implication was clear; people may have respected me but that wasn't out of genuine care but instead out of fear. What I realized is that the life as this senior member who has been accepted and appreciated was but a big fat lie. Never have I felt so betrayed and deceived, ever. The major upset eventually led to my ban there. To this day, the memory of which weighs me down in friendships both already established and new ones that formed since. It makes it especially hard to trust at a community level.

 

[PlunderSteed 1,252]

So...you're basically saying that all of your friends were so intimidated with your wit and insight that they just couldn't handle it?

 

Do you happen to own a fedora?