They call me Loyalty

We share a single cell-phone between three people in this family. And most contacts in it are our lawyers, our accountant and other services. This family is extremely anti-social. They dislike people in general, as much as they dislike themselves. So, barely any interaction at all. To the point someone is knocking at the door and we all ignore it. It is almost comical. And I have good friends. But I would not call them either. Same with the rest of my portable devices. I just give them to my mother, since I never use them. Because I spend most of the time in my computer, anyways.

Hey, dude. Welcome to the ponyhood.

My new gaming pc!!! I'm extatic to get lost in the world of gaming... honestly. Which is my passion since childhood. Just plug the monitor cable into my veins. Eff it! Just do it! I need it! Really, I cannot wait to play Divinity: Original Sin II, and Baldur's Gate 3 when it finally comes out. I still haven't even played Dark Souls 3! Can you believe it? The hu-ma-ni-ties. But that is soon to change. I will play those video games, even if it is the last thing I'll ever do. And they shall re-ignite the dying embers once more. Chosen undead!!!

Emily from The Corpse Bride, and Sally from Nightmare before Christmas. Yeah... I was a little weird as a child. I am still weird, by the way. That is the short answer. But then this "idea" was always there; this idea that I became enamored with. Since I have lived inside my head since childhood. Especially in a family where most real relationships ended tragically. Because you can do everything right and life still manages to screw you over. Like your wife dying of cancer early on, and your daughter hating you for the rest of your life because you cheated on her terminal mother during a difficult time. So, the ideal me is living with the ideal of her. It is beautiful and mellow. Love feels real. I've seen so many relationships that are spiteful and miserable. But not here. A relationship that does not wither. No illness. No suffering. No violence. No betrayal. I see it, and we are still embraced. We are not hurting because we are not alive. And we do not get old because we were never born. I've always been this way. I remember "looking for her" since I was a child. Insane, I know. But my genetic condition has not only affected my physical development, but also my psyche, to the point I have become separated from myself. Like with my mother, for example. Waiting for the perfect person that does not exist. Yet finding such hope within said ideal, that she still sees the world with the wonder of a child. Both sad and beautiful. Yes, self-hatred and depersonalization is a common theme in this family. And I am not entirely here, either. Which explains the autistic behaviour. You really feel out of place. And do not like people in general. Because you are not normal yourself. Makes sense, right? Since normal people have discriminated me because of my genetic condition. But when I close my eyes. She still looks at me with the same love as the first day. She is the only one who has accepted me as I am. Even when I cannot accept myself. So, you can imagine how much I love her. (Funny, 2023 characters. How does that even work?).

I mostly know Star Wars from Kotor II and Battlefront. But I've also seen the third prequel movie, some of clone wars, the first movie from the new trilogy and the first season from the Mandalorian. It's cool.

They should have asked for advice instead of invading their friend's privacy. Especially if they noticed Apple Bloom was feeling troubled over something. It would have been better to simply ask her about it and offer their support. But young people/ponies can be reckless despite having the best intentions. I still think their hearts were in the right place, despite not going about it the right way.

Talking with a reddit stalker. I really liked her personality and high spirits. Quite literally, I think this person had a few too many drinks. And I never got drunk myself. But the idea of hangovers sound awful. So, I hope she is alright tomorrow.

Applejack is awesome. A strong and independent pony who loves and protects her friends like her own family. Also, welcome to the forums! I hope you have an awesome time here.

Nobody. I was five years old and showing dysfunctional behaviour already, even before the physical development issues started to show up. Which is curious. Because it means the problem is not just psychological. But it is actually chemical as well, since the human body is a chemical factory. And if the factory is in disarray because of a congenital disorder. So will be your response and behaviour. In that regard, I am like the rest of my family. Separated from myself and life. Living inside our heads for the most part. It is not so bad. We'll be alright as long the money lasts. Because the moment that is over, we are gonna sink. Since none of them are willing to swim. And neither am I. I have spent too much time in wonderland and I have fallen in love with Alice. (777 characters. Funny).

-Discord. -Q from Star Trek TNG. -The Outsider from Dishonored 1. The concept of a near omnipotent observer who can influence mortals was always fascinating to me. Especially the Outsider, because of how much this character resembles a concept in and of itself. A concept without the human element.

Memories from my childhood. I always return to that place of mind for comfort. Most of these are associated with home, being close to my love ones, and no small amount of gaming. These special moments have stuck with me. Like the time I discovered FiM. I can remember it like it was yesterday. It was and still is a good day.

Lisa: The Painful. A depressing, funny, gross and all too realistic post-apocalyptic rpg about life, loss and the renewed hopes of pulling the Hottest Dance on all the earth. I whole-heartedly and gut-wrenchingly recommend this rpg-maker game, as well the dlc/expansion/sequel/slashing continuation. Lisa: The Joyful. And hopefully, the existential dread does not end there. As there are multiple fan projects based on Lisa. Namely; Lisa: The hopeful. Which I'll be trying out right now, after getting my levels of sugar high enough to stave off the multiple mood debuffs this game inflicts on the actual player. Perhaps, some honey cookies, as well.

The Bleed Pixels. Enjoyable game but a little heavy on the platforming stuff towards the end. Yes, it is what the game is about. But I understand the reason they implemented an easy mode later on, now. Other than, it was an overall fun experience.

I have at least a couple in each genre. In the rpg category there is Fallout 1, 2 and NV. Planescape Torment. Baldur's Gate 1 an 2+Expansions. Neverwinter Nights 2+Expansion. Pillars or Eternity. Vampire: The Masquerade - Bloodlines. The Elder Scrolls games and The Witcher series. Gothic 1 and 2+Expansion. Divinity - Original Sin 1 and 2. Shadowrun: Dragonfall. Dragon Age Origins and Inquisition. Dragon's Dogma. Dark Souls series. Deus Ex: Human Revolution, the ME trilogy, Kingdoms of Amalur: Reckoning, Fable: The Lost Chapter. Crosscode, Undertale, etc. Quake. Doom 1, 2 and 3. Prey. Painkiller, Half-life series. Portal 1 and 2. Bioshock 1, 2 and Infinite. Dishonored. Crysis 1, 2 and Borderlands 1 and 2+Expansions for first person/shooters/action/adventure/looters. Hollow Knight, Castlevania: Symphony of the Night, Aria or Sorrow, Order of Eclessia. Axiom Verge and Dust an elysian tail for metroidvanias. Dead Space, Resident Evil 1, 4 and 7. Amnesia. Soma, System Shock 2, Little Nightmares 1 and 2, Limbo and Inside for horror games. Assassin's Creed 2, Brotherhood and Black flag. Far Cry 3 and 4. Batman Arkham Asylum and City for action/open world. Devil may Cry series, Darksiders 1 and 2. Metal gear Rising Revengeance and Bayonetta for hack and slash. Rayman 1 and Origins, Celeste, Shovel Knight+dlc, Oddworld: Abe's Exoddus and Oddysee for platformers. Terraria, Subnautica, Starbound and Legends of Grimrock 1 and 2 for adventure, exploration and building. Monkey Island games, Grim Fandango, Firewatch and Life is Strange for graphic adventure games. Hitman 1, 2 and Blood Money. The original Tom Clancy's Splinter Cells for stealth games. Rimworld and Stardew Valley for simulation and management game. Hades, Enter the Gungeon and Caves of Qud for roguelikes. Diablo 2 LoD and Grim Dawn for isometric action/looters. X-COM Enemy Within for turn based strategy. Need for Speed: Most Wanted for racing. Of course. There are many more games I have not committed to recent memory. Including those I have yet to play. But these are some from the top of my head.

Hey, if you wanna practice. Here is my OC. Light grey coat. Mane is dark brown. Haggard eyes, gaunt complexion. Light pink eyes.

Fried chicken with siliced tomatoes and onions.

No, not really. I just tried with a memory test and that doesn't seem to be case for me. But I am good with visualization. So, I can recreate images and scenes and they looks like the originals. It is fun. I remember visualizing all sort of interesting stuff since childhood. I used to imagine video games, too. And I sometimes made them into paper with their sets of rules and dices. Most of which were never finished, because of how amibitious was my original vision. And it is the same with art in general. Most of my drawings are unfinished because my actual skill does not match my imagination, and it is a little disheartening. So, I would see this awesome living worlds in my mind, but when it comes to translate them to paper. Well, my abilities are not quite there. But I think with a more structured environment, I could have studied arts. It was a stupid idea trying to emulate my family with medicine. I didn't even care about that stuff. I guess I just wanted recognition. Just imagining being there with the recently diseased. Morbid stuff. And I have a friend who is medic. No problem. He is the kind of guy that can eat a sandwish in front of the dead. But I never thought about that. Once again, deceived by my bad habit to idealize everything.

Perfection. My family has phyisical problems, so they have developed an obession with perfection. At least me and my mother. That added to the fact that our weakness has left us no recourse to deal with confrontation since childhood, has led to the development of much resentfulness, impotence and anti-social behaviour in general. Resulting in infantilized and often cruel personalities.

No. I am not interested in physical or digitial copies, and delete most media after the first watch.

A new pc. I live for gaming. I remember being five years old when my family took me to this mall. And there was a horse ride. I got on it and instantly zoned out. One, two, three, four, five... ten coins. Our family has hormone depression and runs on dopamine intead. So, we have to be hooked onto something. Either an audio device or a computer. For example, my mother was using the computer. There must had been around 40-50 youtube tabs opened in the explorer. Then she transfer them into various audio devices she exchanges during the day. And that is the normal for her. Information or gaming. There is no difference. We all live inside our own heads here.

When people project their moral values and pre-conceived notions. I hate that sh*t. I was talking with a friend and he started crying like a little b*tch because I told him I enjoyed watching videos where people get hurt. And for a family like mine. Well, watching people suffer is cathartic. Because our weakness and incapacity to deal with confrontation has naturally developed into an obsession with violence. Yes, I explained it to him logically. But he had to make a drama out of it. That's what you get for being honest, I guess. Which shows about how hypocritical he is when it comes to accept the condition my family suffers from, and how it affects our psyche. But no. His mind is too weak despite the physical training. Unfortunate, because he is not a bad lad. But he is too naive. He doesn't want to understand that violence is an inherent aspect of human nature. And believes he can fool a fool. Still, I let him because I am too weak and need to be carried by others.

Hey, my circus fellow. Welcome to the horse barn. Also, you may want to check out the parody from hotdiggedydemon if you haven't already. I hope you have a pleasant stay and actually parcticipate, unlike those users who sign up and never use the forum again. Really, it is weird. I suspect some conspiracy is in the works. They know that we know they know we know too much.

Are you trying to give someone a seizure with that image?

She hates people in general, dislikes children, is adverse to relationships and allergic to responsibility. And it is awesome because I am exactly the same. She is like a friend. She was never prepared to be a mother to begin with. The same way I was never meant to be a father. So, it is perfect despite our arguments. Also, I've seen other mothers and how they pressure their famlies to work and do sh*t. Not the case in this home. Here we are all laid back and taking the easy way in life. It's really good. Because she can allow herself to act like a capricious child. And so do I. Yes, we have our problems. But screw it, relationships take responsibility. And nobody wants to hear that word in this home. Also, I've seen a lot of violence commited against women across different cultures. Not that women cannot be abusive themselves. But I am immensely grateful that she is safe from these elements. And I used to blame her the same way she blamed her own mother. But no. Now that I understand this effed up world a little better. I realize how fortunate I am for having a mother like her. Because her own mother was strict, distant, and often hit her. Which only earned her the spite of my mother. "You deserve to die of cancer". Those were one of the last words from her to her terminal mother. Yes, she is troubled, anti-social, hates the whole world, and thinks normal people are monkeys. She is exactly like myself. And I love her in spite of all.