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I dreamed about being back in middle school in my private school and I was solving this difficult math problem. I actually got it all hammered down and was feeling proud of myself that I was able to figure out the problems myself. Just when you was about to finish it and turned them in, my teacher interrupted me. He told me that I need to go and see the principal immediately because I was in big trouble. He said it right in front of everyone and all eyes was on me. The students snickered and I heard them saying “oh that’s so typical of TBD getting in trouble again”. I didn’t really remember doing what I was accused of and tried to explain to my teacher that it wasn’t me and I don’t even know what he was talking about. He didn’t bother to listen to me and demanded me to go to the principal office to serve a week of suspension. Funny that I probably do remember what I did but didn’t thought it would be this bad. I tried to explain again but he won’t have it. So I just walk out of the classroom feeling ashamed and angry. It’s was kinda a bit traumatic eventful dream.

Do you select your friends? Friends comes by unexpectedly for me since I only choose who I feel will be best fit as my acquaintance if they could benefits me. Yes I admit, I use people at first- but when we got this friendship going on, I would feel bad. But then again friendship doesn’t usually last for my case and often left me disappointed. Thus the cycle continues. I choose my ‘friends’ if they benefits me aside from my loyalty. It goes both ways- I benefited from you and you benefited from me for my loyalty. But I suppose that’s why I’m always left feeling disappointed. Probably well deserved. 2. Do you accept if someone wants to be your friend even if you didn't like him before? hm I rather not. Like I said, “We don't have to talk We don't have to dance We don't have to smile We don't have to make friends It's so nice to meet you Let's never meet again.” Does internet friendship differ from IRL friendship? It hard to stay since not all stick around longer anyway.. but I can be more of myself and open when being around my online friends.

Technically I act pretty much the same as I am in real life. The only difference is online, I have more freedom to share my thoughts than I could in person. But that’s pretty much it. The stigma stayed the same for both real life and online- treat me how you wanted to be treated. Act like a dick and I will be coming in like an asshole to you. Respect me and you will be treated the same.

(this is personal I would appreciate it that the person I replied too, are the only one allowed to read this.)

I would like to add this. Whatever these fictional characters are smoking and they’re still on that same one stick because it never reach to the end- I would like that. It would have save me a lot of money. Also I wish workplaces could make a smoker’s room like some places like Japan. It’s such drag just to walk outside far at the back of my job at my 30-15 mins break.

Ideally, going to a nice orchestra/opera concert or a jazz concert at a nice lounge. But if anything else going to the mall. I don’t mind doing shopping as a date since I love shopping. I’m sure my “one-day”partner (whoever that will be) would love that idea too.

Well what do you know a year after I made that post, 2018 was when I actually picked up on smoking. I used to smoke two-three a day and trying to break a habit of it now by cutting down two a week. I hate using nicotine gum so going on cold turkey. It’s definitely not a walk in a park but I drink too to help. That wasn’t a good idea either but if anything else I drink coffee to calm my carvings. I did set a tight strict mindset for my consumption limitation. I smoke on marlboro blend No. 27. Since the taste is moderate and it’s light.

Hello @AnimeaSPrin!! Welcome to the RP section! I appreciate your enthusiasm for RP!! To get a better audience and more ideas stirring, I moved your post over to RP discussion threads. This will help you and the person discuss and plan for your RP out of character. This section here is to start your RP once you’ve done all the planning and discussion . Also we do have a fun original character system where you can make your Oc and add her as part of the RP! Here, https://mlpforums.com/characters/ PM me if you need any help doing that or any questions regarding to RP. Or post your questions here.

If I got $20 on me either a pack of cigarettes and/or alcohols. I tend not to tempt myself to buy these too often. So that’s why I set a price bar on it.

Well you know what they say, “Life is trash and I’m here on a dumpster diving.”

Are you sure that my “smile” is nothing but mere facade?

K-6th public school which was fun despite of having to learn and do school work. Since it’s just your typical public school. Getting in trouble and spending most of the time in detention. Love it for the most part. Middle school was the good o time despite of being a ‘bad school’. But a guy like me I don’t mind getting some excitement here and there. And then there’s 7th-12th grade. Oh boy… private catholic school. It was definitely hard for me fitting in. The huge difference between public to private. But I got around it at high school and kinda wished I could’ve enjoy it more while it last.

I’m definitely going to see it in theater for my b-day as my Halloween treat!!!

Hearing people saying college is a waste of time especially ones who graduated with a degree just downright upset me. I wasted my college time going by what my parents want because they think it for best and you know it didn’t come out as planned. They want biology and Chemistry and yes I love Chemistry but not enough to major on it. I blamed my professors on this too. But I wanted to go for History and Criminology. Should have gone to business instead too. But now I’m stuck without a degree. Of all the people who complained it’s a waste especially one with a degree should be damn right grateful. And those who complained it’s a waste of time without even bothering trying it first shouldn’t have any say about calling it a “waste of time”. its like you’d have one half with a opportunity out in the opening but failed to use and then on the other half, those who gained an opportunity, but are unappreciated. I have to scoff since for these people out there who are like me, never started with a such opportunity but rather start with a predetermined path being made for them. All I’m saying is don’t waste it when you have it. You’re all probably thinking “why should I listen to some guy who hated school anyway?”. Well if you don’t want to end up feeling like shit everyday, I would heed my own words for it.

It does have limits- if you’re talking about helping financing for another country to the point it’s draining one’s own economy dry leading a possibility of another Great Depression, I’d resent against that. That’s way we have the idea of loan, To put a limitation on this so called “charity”. I never like the idea giving away my money willy nilly for some cause and strangers... for free of course.

Nice! How’s she working out for your team? dang that’s actually a good frost team despite of the lack of gears!! Have you gotten any of three at A3 or any matrices on them? I got Tain with Crow and Samir. I need Rubilia to replace crow. Tain is really good! He may take a lot of HP but his self healing made up for it. You should try getting him in the team! However I want nemesis to replace my Samir from the free SSr box… but Im far behind the story and I hardly play that much anymore :’).. im tempted to play the Honkai impact star rail but any more gacha games downloaded on my phone I would be broke as ever I’m trying to hold off on spending money on app games. Plus I’m not a fan of the gameplay.. I probably going to wait on Zen Zenless Zero instead. You?

Did I made the right choice? Or did I fuck it up again? I bet the second thought.

Hm as a kid I ate almost half of the buffet but only to barf it all out at the end. Ever since I never wanted to stuff myself again and only eat moderately.

Despite of being an introverted person in my younger days I never been the quiet shy person. I was very open and a bit ‘wild’ not caring what people thinks or say about me and my rebellious side. As I gotten older I become more and more insecure due to getting restricted due to these structured societies we live in. Save the lecture about rules/laws and why they exist. Like everyday is like walking on broken glass in a large stage for people to see and waiting for me to fall off from the script. I grow up within a very uptight strict family- my time at school and outside family was the only way to take a breather from that. But now when I step outside that door from my family- it’s just the same. Don’t get me wrong, I have nothing negative against with my family and the society… but every now and then reserving myself because of it suffocates me. “People say that’s what being adult is about.” If that was the only case, I wonder why bother living?

@Princess Silky don’t think I ever gave you a proper congratulations, but here it is! I’m so proud of you Silky, how far you have gotten and how successful you are here right now to help the form and lead the team! I remember when you first come to me and wanted to help me with the book scavenger hunt event during the Twilight Sparkle day. Times has really files! You have helped so many people and I can go on and on how you’re the best fit for this position! Thank you Silky for everything and keep on thriving to lead the mlpf toward positivity! And don’t forget to have fun;)! I’m very honored to work alongside with you and will continue to do so.

Quite… dysfunctional.

Lots of things happened. I had one part where this white figure comes to me and told me not to head or go near Babylon. Telling me Babylon is a very horrible and torturous place beyond description. I walked to see what they mean. There on the other side was the city of Babylon. It’s was chaotic and the shouts of burning witches and such. I didn’t cross it yet but watched from afar. The community gathered around this one boar and it was to be tortured and killed along with this one woman who was accused of witchcraft. They told me to stick around and watch the show. I stood there like I was trying to force myself to watch. Just when they’re about to start, I ran far away from it because I wouldn’t bear the sight of witnessing torture. Sadly I can hear the awful same scream in the back. That same scream I kept hearing from my previous dream. Then I came upon this aquarium with many strange fishes and it was quite peaceful but at the same time I was feeling a bit exhausted from that last episode to enjoy the sight of it. Then my dream shifted over to me being this worn out soldier- I believe my rank was high- feels like it has been a long year serving. I was packing up my stuff because it was time to go. I don’t remember why but I believe it was taken place again during WW 2 because I remembered hearing from my radio there’s a mention about Stalin winning over the German. Two supposedly a lawyer come by and helped me pack my things. My last thought was retirement without knowing where this will take me. That was the end of my dream. I woke up and as everyone know me but I always like looking deeper into my dream and what it’s trying to tell me. The city of Babylon represented the rejection of God. A city where people seeks wealth and power over everyone and everything. Boar represents success in your life and the challenges I will have face to meet that goal with the right ambition. To kill a boar means I have overcome difficulties and become successful. But at what cost? The aquarium represents isolation and being limited. I have two choices; choose the high ground but suffer from the sacrifice and doing something I won’t feel comfortable because I would have to do as I was told in order to achieve my goal and become successful. Hence the crowd forces me to watch the boar getting tortured. The consequences of being a leader. Or chose to run away from the responsibility, power, and the losses just to be confined, restricted, and isolated. (aquarium). In my dream, I chose that path feeling relief but wonder if I made the right choice. The last part about the soldier, is just sigma I’ve fighting against. To be chained. At the end, I figured I don’t want either of these two paths because no matter what I choose I will still feel chained. The feeling of just wanting to break out and be free.