Complain About Something

[Feather Spiral 1,892]

This past year or so, my sister musta gotten tired of her usual years-old ramblings.

Because she decided to dig out DECADES-old ones, from the rotten depths of my toddler years. And one of those, brings forth a traumatic memory that -I- would rather not fucking remember.

Imagine you live your life with this vicious, vindictive, on occasion manipulative, much bigger person. You were conditioned to see every wrong as an honest mistake, learn to forgive the worst shit she does. YOUR wrongs, on the other hand, were obviously on purpose and you clearly fucking MEANT for her to be upset.

Then it dawns on you that her behavior was abusive, so you stop taking her shit and begin telling her off. Of course it doesn't work, she's too used to unleashing her rage on you and blaming everybody else for intentionally hurting her.

All because she was told "no" this ONE TIME in the 90's, when she was a hormone-enraged, spoiled and bitchy little adolescent.

Then all of her bitching ends up FORCING YOU to remember that TRAUMATIC shit she did to you, and you scream back at her. After a dozen such outbursts, she FINALLY gets the message and moves on to other fake complaints... until she goes back to the same fucking one.

Spend your existence with a stronger person, who keeps warping facts to suit her own desires, who daily harasses and regularly assaults you and the people you love... then just as you start to put your foot down, cries and bawls about "not HAVING BEEN allowed to love a boy" DECADES AGO.

How would you feel?

I want to know, because I'm too deep in the real thing to actually put a name on it.

[O-78 28,605]

I'm so sick of getting into a pointless shouting match with my mom every two or three weeks. I can't wait to move out and break free of all this.

[The Kaeya Simp 13,988]

15 minutes ago, LyraLover 💚 said:

I'm so sick of getting into a pointless shouting match with my mom every two or three weeks. I can't wait to move out and break free of all this.

for me it's pretty much every week with either my mum or step-dad, though I can't wait till I'm able to move out

[DubWolf 17,258]

I don’t have enough roasted red pepper soup in my life  .

[Stardust 641]

On 10/16/2020 at 5:42 PM, LyraLover 💚 said:

I'm so sick of getting into a pointless shouting match with my mom every two or three weeks. I can't wait to move out and break free of all this.

Yeah I can relate 

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I feel like since Corona parents have been acting so bad which never even happened before. So much shouting and even getting hit like not properly but like physical. It got to points where i was crying so much and I felt hopelesss like there wais no point to anything and I don't know nobody wanted to even support me and say I'm there for you or everything is gonna be okay. Even if that feeling of the most terribleness only lasts a few hours or half a day (I can recover alright) it's still bad. And I hate how other people think its okay to brush it off, I obvs don't want pressure on ppl nor fish for advice i'm very aware of that but i guess most ppl aren't very great at supporting others either :p even if all I want is a few virtual hugs and worse most other people at this time seem to have their own issues. 

My dad is way too clingy to me and Idk when and if I can even move out and moving out is already scary as it is, it's like my dad is like no point moving out unless ur gonna get married like wot. He supports me getting a house tho. This whole experience over corona has only made me want to leave more. B4 back at uni I lived away and had some bad experiences with abuse but still I wanna move out. I tried to have these discussion but Idk how to take it further and im so stressed now. 

Okay recently it's been mildly better but I still have pent up stress from before building up over the months and months especially since i hurt my foot so I cant even walk as much as b4, I feel kinda blegh and I just don't feel happy at home. Like things have stabilised now but it's a challenge and then its also lonely. Yet and some ppl I know are still going out getting screwed and all. And a lot of ppl have used this time to get more distant from me. What annoys me the most is ppl still expecting you to meet them as normal when this is not normal.

Things really haven't been the same since March. Just as I thought I was getting more social and pushing more boundaries by going out more. Tho I guess corona did do some good by giving me a break from routine it also just put more and more stress into my life I just wanted an excuse to be out and get more independent not just have to be stuck here. 

 

[Sonic Shimmer 4,132]

I’m turning 30 next month. I don’t want to say goodbye to my 20s 

[AppleButt 8,675]

I’m tired of seeing videos online of someone struggling, or something embarrassing happening to someone else where the person filming could have easily interfered and helped them, but instead they filmed the person to get likes and laughs online. 

[Usager 433]

I dont have enough free days 

[TBD 17,254]

I’m getting  to the point where I’m tired of my online “friends”. (Not here, else where)..

[TBD 17,254]

I’m so fucking tried of these people getting mad at me over the stupidest little things that I didn’t do! Let alone, getting jealous over. I already have to deal with one person and now another person?! This getting really ridiculous and toxic! It’s best to just leave it! 

[Sphinx-Ara 3,569]

Two weeks and more without my PC thanks to my pos motherboard dying on me, and now I have to wait for my new one to arrive

[TBD 17,254]

Man I wish I could find another better paying job that’s good. I’m tried of my job. The company is so fixed on us to make sure we’re milking money for them, when they don’t even bother giving us a raise! And I have worked there for two years now. Like hell, why should I care about making the company rich when the company don’t even give two cents about us? Let alone they’re the one who laid us off during the COVID-19 last year!  I don’t know why the fuck I even come back to work there, but it’s the only job that’s flexible with my schedule... they expect me to sell but not many customers don’t even give a shit about what we’re selling to them. So what happen when not many people will stay and listen to you yapping about a product? You lose interest and grow to not give a shit about doing your job 100%. Especially since the company never cares about you in the first place!  

“no phone at work” don’t get me wrong, I’m a good worker when it comes to following the rules and shit. But at this point I don’t give a crap anymore so yeah I’m going to use my phone the hell I want because the company don’t deserve my 100% effort to work and fuck I’m not paying enough anyways.

so yeah, fuck you

[Pandora 38,015]

hate when you try to have a nice talk with someone on discord but all they do is force what they like on you and even if you try changing subject they still push it, like stapphhh ;~;

 

[Feather Spiral 1,892]

I wish I weren't scared to commit... new courses, creative projects, even relationships.

Yes, my conscious brain knows, the road to success is riddled with failures. But try explaining that to my motivation... it won't let me move on from past frustrations and disappointments.

[ZiggWheelsManning 10,090]

Aaron Rodgers is a great quarterback, but management of the Green Bay Packers is holding him back  And it's no surprise that said management last year drafted a quarterback to succeed him instead of aiding him with a wide receiver  

The Detroit Lions and Seattle Mariners have a lot in common of being the worst sports teams  If it involves a deep in the fog mystery, what does it take to remove it to make both these teams successful and win it all?  

[Northern Star 1,024]

I don't get the "state a universally hated opinion and get offended when people state they don't like it, then brand the community as "unwelcoming or bad" thing...

Or that some discussions on forums(have not seen it here yet) are fine, even have mods participating or being the bulk of the conversation, then a (different) mod that comes out of no where and locks it.

The more I'm on the internet the less I understand of it and its people. 

Oh and to top that off, my processor will apparently run at 8GHZ on stock voltage, as long as its below 30c. You can't run it anywhere between the stock 4 and that 8 though, but below 30 and 8 it will run stable, until it reaches 31 or sometimes 40 then it will crash, but how do you keep it that cool? More or less why does it do that? Every one else can run it at 4-6 without issue, but I can only run stock or 8.

[TBD 17,254]

I fucking swear, if my boss did not give me the supervisor position, there will be hell!  Like oh sure, she is willing to give it to me when she really needs help running the other store. BUT that store was way too far from my home, so I can't do it. So when there was an open in the store I work in, she fucking wants to consider some other workers for that position. Even through when she  already qualified me as one when she was trying to hire me to work in the other store?!?! That's BULLSHIT. I've been asking for TWO years for that position, if I don't get it, i'm gonna fucking quit and focus working on my other job instead! Or just doing 1/3 of the work and text all day because yeah, you deserve to get fucked over. 

[TBD 17,254]

some people should fucking understand when there's nothing you can do or there's no other fucking option, just forget and give what these cunts wants. I’m tried being viewed like I’m the enemy here

[Handsome Changeling 1,851]

Weirdly enough my rant is the same as TBDs, nearly 4 years in catering since I was 18, of which 2 years were more of a side thing, doing bar work and waiting on/serving food, even through the pandemic and while at Uni. I even came back home for summer to take my job again temporarily while they were severely understaffed and my uni was three cities away, I genuinely tried to be noticed, and yet not a single employee of the month (It gets worse since I was told by three managers I was opted for Employee of the month several times however the high ups overruled it thinking I was too young to deserve it at the time even though I was 19, pricks) or god forbid the promotion I have asked for several times now, well obviously something had to give and that was me. I start again on the 12th and if I don't get a payrise I will walk, furlough or not my pay isn't worth the 10 hour shifts and under staffed bullshit where I do more work than I even should like count cash at the end of service when management are supposed to do that, why do I even get paid what I do if I work the Supervisor/Manager jobs as a bottom ladder minion anyway? I basically work harder, for less pay, so people older than me on double my wage get paid for working less cus I do it. Blegh shoulda stayed at uni.

[Sonic Shimmer 4,132]

On 2020-12-14 at 3:30 PM, Sonic Shimmer said:

I’m turning 30 next month. I don’t want to say goodbye to my 20s 

Few months later I feel kinda dumb for posting this. Turns out being 30 is pretty much the same as being 29.

[Feather Spiral 1,892]

I'm at an age where everybody else has at least ten years of work experience (not necessarily the same...)
Yet I have maybe half a year's worth, and virtually no energy despite having taken a long break.

I did miserably as part-time teacher for eight weeks, got bronchitis from it and been coughing on and off ever since (it's been... four years oh god) and failed the exam for becoming a real teacher. Before that, I'd barely gotten my Master's degree, with the promise that I would abandon research (yeah, I should've taken the other option of repeating the traineeship)

Nowadays I don't even have the willpower to write the stories I'd been planning to write since my university years.

I feel like, aside from the last couple years with the quarantine, I've just been a dead weight while everyone around me has been moving forward with their lives.

[ZiggWheelsManning 10,090]

We may not get any Olympics in the near future, so how can we not get football in there because America is getting more football games?  

[PCutter 127]

I thought people would take the hint and realize their health is important, especially in crises like these.

But oh no. Was I dead wrong. 

NOBODY will wear masks. NOBODY wants or needs the vaccines.

Why?

All masks "intrude on freedom." All masks "are uncomfortable." All masks "are useless against the virus." 

All vaccines "are mind control devices." All vaccines "are evil." All vaccines "are bait for you to take so you will be in eternal servitude to your corporate overlords."

I'm infuriated about this. But I'm also not shocked about it.

If that's how 7 billion people on this planet are going to be, then fine. Let them have their freedoms while having the potential guarantee a virus is out and capable of killing you.

At least I know FOR A FACT I'm the ONLY PERSON out of 7 billion who gives a shit  about staying and being alive.

 

 

Edited April 21, 2021 by PCutter

[TBD 17,254]

I hate it when mom kept naggin over stupid things most of the time. I wake up, she nags. I got home from work, she nags, before I go to sleep, she nags.nag nag nag. I swear, if my future gf/wife is a nagger, expect a early break-up without hesitation. 

[PCutter 127]

My business could have been completely sunk because my own mom being so scatterbrained and so technologically inept sent an extremely sensitive email.

I cannot for the life of me understand why I even put up with her irritatingly enormous lack of know-how when today it doesn't matter what occupation or line of work you're in. YOU NEED TECHNOLOGY. YOU NEED TO BE PROFICIENT AT USING IT.

"But she's from the previous generation where it was just the beginning of phones and computers and they aren't as familiar." BULL.SHIT. I am sick of hearing this "defense." BULL.SHIT.

NOTHING ever excuses the fact that she could've destroyed our livelihood and we might have to find another way to sustain ourselves or have to go back to square one.

 

THIS IS ALL HER FAULT. IF SHE COMES TO ME FOR HELP, I'LL OUTRIGHT REFUSE IT.

Edited April 28, 2021 by PCutter