mega thread How are you feeling?

[Here No Longer 5,276]

I think I'm a little manic right now... 

Edited November 20, 2018 by ~Dusky~

[JonasDarkmane 19,785]

I feel like.... bursting out laughing 

[Midnight Solace 5,132]

I feel ignored, hopeless and judged. They do not understand me, yet they judged me.

[Cash In 22,313]

For once I actually feel decent. I should probably enjoy it while I can, before everything crashes and burns...

[Midnight Solace 5,132]

2 minutes ago, Midnight Solace said:

I feel ignored, hopeless and judged. They do not understand me, yet they judged me.

You know what? You guys don't understand me. You don't care about me. I'm just another pony posting my complaints, and what you guys do is just give me the goddamn Kirin reactions. All my life I've been judged, bullied and rejected. What more do you want?

[JonasDarkmane 19,785]

3 minutes ago, Midnight Solace said:

You know what? You guys don't understand me. You don't care about me. I'm just another pony posting my complaints, and what you guys do is just give me the goddamn Kirin reactions. All my life I've been judged, bullied and rejected. What more do you want?

I think you might be passing a rather broad judgment upon the entire forums. I would suggest that you keep on trying engaging on the forums. Sometimes it takes time to click with someone. Participate in status updates, in discussions, in blog posts. And pay no heed at all to the reaction system, at all. It is really the discussion itself you should put value into~

[Midnight Solace 5,132]

11 minutes ago, JonasDarkmane said:

I would suggest that you keep on trying engaging on the forums. Sometimes it takes time to click with someone. Participate in status updates, in discussions, in blog posts.

Tell that to the Kirin lovers. They know nothing about me and yet, judge me.

Are you asking me to explain myself?

Edited November 20, 2018 by Midnight Solace

[JonasDarkmane 19,785]

5 minutes ago, Midnight Solace said:

Tell that to the Kirin lovers. They know nothing about me and yet, judge me.

Again, I think it would do you wonders not to pass too much judgment on the reaction system here on this forums. People have different kinds of views and sometimes we do not get what we want or ask for. It does not mean that our thoughts or wishes are not ever taken into consideration though (I am assuming that most of this stem from the thread you made about kirin reaction in Feedback). 

People will also constantly judge us. We are judgmental creatures. Does not mean that we can't meet people who will get to know us and who can learn not to pass any kind of harsh judgments upon us. 

[Midnight Solace 5,132]

Just now, JonasDarkmane said:

Again, I think it would do you wonders not to pass too much judgment on the reaction system here on this forums. People have different kinds of views and sometimes we do not get what we want or ask for.

I did expect some answers to be against what I say. Nopony is perfect. I just didn't expect them to start calling me a waste of time, dumb, and that I "don't understand." And when I try to explain, they say I am making mountains out of molehills.

[JonasDarkmane 19,785]

24 minutes ago, Midnight Solace said:

I did expect some answers to be against what I say. Nopony is perfect. I just didn't expect them to start calling me a waste of time, dumb, and that I "don't understand." And when I try to explain, they say I am making mountains out of molehills.

Discussions can get heated and even combative and strong opinions will fly about. People can behave like besserwissers, but we also have to realize we ourselves can easily become that. Our own stubbornness might make them feel something similar as if their own opinions or concerns are not being taken seriously. 

And I say "at least you made your explanation or at least attempted to explain". Nothing ever goes 100% swell. What your concerns are may not be other peoples concerns. 

That thread is now over and I suggest moving on from it. It won't do us any good to chain ourselves to the past. You can very well engage with these very same people in different topics on far more friendlier terms and possibly get into very interesting discussions. Don't burn yourself out due to one thread that may not have impacted you positively. Keep going. 

[Midnight Solace 5,132]

35 minutes ago, Midnight Solace said:

I did expect some answers to be against what I say. Nopony is perfect. I just didn't expect them to start calling me a waste of time, dumb, and that I "don't understand." And when I try to explain, they say I am making mountains out of molehills.

This is why I had left the forums in 2013. I had been judged and bullied every single time I try to express myself. It actually takes courage to explain why you're sad instead of just stating it. Any one could claim; "I'm so sad" but it takes confidence to explain why.

Now, everypony is certainly going to know me for being emotionally fragile and judge me for it. But you know what? I've been keeping certain things in my head for a long time now, and I think it should be heard. You may think that my opinions are stupid, but sometimes you need to just go out of your own way, to look in someone else's perspective. Then you will truly understand.

Go ahead, judge me for being wrong. Complain that I'm not making any sense. Bully me for having my own opinion. But guess what? You know nothing about me. You don't just make stupid assumptions about things you don't know. You don't know how I have lived or what I have been through. But I don't give a shit. Cause deep down, you know I'm right. That's right, go ahead and call me dumb. Say I'm overreacting. Say I think too much. You think I haven't been through this before? You're a joke to judge someone else when you're ignorant, lazy, and have nothing else better to do than break another brony's heart. 

I treated all of you as my friends. Being betrayed is a horrible feeling. And yet, say I'm exaggerating for having my own opinion.

Edited November 20, 2018 by Midnight Solace

[JonasDarkmane 19,785]

@Midnight Solace

My only intention is to hopefully set you in a direction of where you won't be troubled by other peoples opinions. I suggest you try out the Life Advice section, creating your own thread and try to seek advice or any kind of help if you should need it. 

I hope you find your way on this website, I truly hope you do~

I am bowing out, it is 6 AM, I have already broken a promise I made on working on fixing my sleeping schedule. 

[Midnight Solace 5,132]

@JonasDarkmane

You're a nice guy. The forums might be better if there were more ponies like you.

I know there's something wrong with me, and that's why I hate myself so much. But even then, I know ponies are not supposed to behave like that. I have done nothing to be rude to them, just tried to justify and explain my opinion.

It feels horrible. I don't forget what they say.

Edited November 20, 2018 by Midnight Solace

[Prospekt 11,018]

I'm feeling... a bit melancholic, unfortunately. I went through a nasty breakup not too long ago, and I'm missing an old friend who dropped out of my university earlier in the year.

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3 hours ago, Venomous said:

I feel terrible... absolutely awful.

My heart aches knowing that you have not been feeling well... I love you so much and want you to know I’m here for you any time you feel lonely you can lean on me. *hugs you tightly*

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Miss you 

 

[TigerGeekGuy 4,662]

I feel sad. Going through old pony artwork and missing the artists that no longer do MLP art. Namely, Equestria-Prevails and Supermare, two artists whose artwork I loved.

On a similar note, I recently learned that Fluffle Puff's creator doesn't really want anything to do with the fandom anymore, (I don't follow anyone on anything outside DA, so forgive me for bringing up old news).

At least StormFX, Argodaemon and others are still there. I hope no others jump the ship when Gen 4 ends. 

[Here No Longer 5,276]

I feel very upset over how drama just keeps finding me. Can this f***ing stop, for my sanity's sake?

[Cynthia Mintwing 2,216]

I'm feeling pretty bored right now. I am having some tough discussions on Discord (the app, not the character) in regards of Pip's (or Nightmareglim's) behavior while at the same time trying to play some modded minecraft. Maybe I should quit that game.

[Guest]

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I really don’t know what to feel right now is it loneliness? Perhaps but I’ve been pondering a lot tonight I can’t help it my anxious mind tends to wander... thinking to myself am I too nice I know that I try to please people and looking at my past... it’s something about myself that bothers me at times. Or even wondering if you are good enough for someone. I know we all have something about ourselves that we don’t like and want to improve but I can’t help but feel like I’m repeating the same mistakes over and over again. One may ask why are you so anxious about that? Just go with the flow and be yourself don’t worry! 

But it is always so easy just to say that isn’t it? Fake it till you make it or eventually break... 

I’m not feeling so well very lonely and anxious to tell you the truth 

Edited November 21, 2018 by Gone Airbourne

[JonasDarkmane 19,785]

5 hours ago, Gone Airbourne said:

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I really don’t know what to feel right now is it loneliness? Perhaps but I’ve been pondering a lot tonight I can’t help it my anxious mind tends to wander... thinking to myself am I too nice I know that I try to please people and looking at my past... it’s something about myself that bothers me at times. Or even wondering if you are good enough for someone. I know we all have something about ourselves that we don’t like and want to improve but I can’t help but feel like I’m repeating the same mistakes over and over again. One may ask why are you so anxious about that? Just go with the flow and be yourself don’t worry! 

But it is always so easy just to say that isn’t it? Fake it till you make it or eventually break... 

I’m not feeling so well very lonely and anxious to tell you the truth 

 

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I feel something similar from time to time. 

Maybe we are too nice to people. Maybe we are too agreeable. Maybe our niceties are a turn off for some. 

Whether we are not good enough for some people, that is our own doubt that can sometimes come about into our minds, whether it be due to depression, objective fallacies we have managed to observe from our behavior or actions or be it due to patterns we see repeating in our lives. But the thing is, it does not do us any good when we start thinking on the terms of whether we are good enough for someone. Those are terms that we do not set for them. Those are terms they themselves set and act upon. We don't decide what others are to think about us but we can certainly influence it. So continue being the best you possibly can be for people, but just be aware enough that you are also thinking and taking care of yourself.

I would not advice "faking it till you make it", because faking ourselves is a sure way to get discovered and cause a rift. Be honest about yourself and to others. Sure, that could be a turnoff as well, but just be sure that you have at least someone you can talk to in the times you are feeling so down, anxious or doubtful of yourself. 

That is my advice at least. 

[Here No Longer 5,276]

I'm feeling a bit groggy, as I just woke up 10 or 15 minutes ago.

Aside from that I feel a bit anxious.... Don't really know what's going on right now... Supposed to be leaving at some point to go to grandma's house but I have no idea when...  

[TBD 17,254]

Tried, been working double shifts lately, this holiday week is killing me.. but i gonna makes some bucks for x-mas gifts so...

[Appley Hooves 136]

Pretty bummed out, the site I used all the time before doing surveys and other garbage to get game bundle leftovers, Tremor Games, is going the way of the Dodo come November 25th. Honestly the site's been going downhill since last Christmas, but I didn't think it'd end like this. Turns out more than a third of my steam library came from those folks, so ehh. Kinda bleh about the whole thing. Suppose I should get looking for other similar sites to take my mind off the loss.

[Kyoshi Frost Wolf 41,478]

Feeling plenty of extreme self hatred.

[Here No Longer 5,276]

I feel bad because of something that I accidentally did... But I also feel anticipation about possibly moving in with my brother in San Antonio! 

Edited November 22, 2018 by ~Dusky~