I'm getting this icky thought in my head. I haven't been drawing in weeks and weeks. I just..... Don't feel like the art type
at the beginning of this year I was devoted into drawing but now I don't feel it anymore, I don't feel like this is right. Maybe it isn't? For me it's obvious this isn't going to be my cutie mark of course, I love computers, and this drawing stuff turned from something to do when I'm bored, to I have to get better all the time, practice makes perfect right? Well it's driving me insane, I'm forcing myself to draw and it's uncomfortable, I can't draw circles any more, I can't read anatomy anymore (Like I could from the start) I don't know.
I've tried things from taking a break, drawing shapes and my name and various stuff but I feel like I'm doing this 100% wrong, like the way I'm doing it is long and frustrating when there is an easier way to do it in front of my face. I have ideas, I want them on paper, I don't want to beg for art and people to draw my stuff for me, I want to do it myself. When I get an idea I try to apply it on paper but in never even starts the way I want to look and I just end up dropping it. My pencil must be broken or something.....
I don't feel the art type, but this is something I want to achieve. I'm tired of seeing everyone in my school draw with no hassle while I'm here trying my facking hardest to even draw a circle.
I need help, I haven't been getting the help I need and I've posted here twice. Here's a stupid picture I made just now for this to be relevant. Merry Christmas