Thuja

I keep having these moments of, "Oh man, why didn't I say that to mum at that time? It was the perfect time!" In regards to being trans and stuff... :okiedokielokie: She still refers to me as female and it's getting rather annoying, to say the least.

I was rewatching all of the S.P.E.C.I.A.L. videos that Bethesda has released. I hate it how they are teasing us so, give me the game already. Though I must admit, I love the animation style of the videos.

Feeling pretty good. I finished a drawing of all my Fallout OCs that I started yesterday, I always thought I sucked at drawing but this one doesn't look too bad. I'm also trying to decide which Dr to go with in regards to starting T, I get quite excited thinking about it. I was talking about it with my Therapist recently and I didn't know I could go that route to get my T, so yeah...

I haven't been to the doctor's since... April, I think? I was supposed to go in June but I didn't set up a ride for going... Also, I keep meaning to reschedule the appointment but I never have.

I really like Warsman/Croe from the Kinnikuman series... That's pretty much it ...

Have you come out yet? If not... I came out to my mum over facebook while she was away on a trip. I was too nervous to talk to her about it to her face, I'm sure if I had come out to her face, there would have been yelling. The reason I came out to her was because I wanted to secure a ride to Toronto so I can meet the people that are needed to okay my transition(still haven't heard from them). While there is a medical transport system here, they don't go out as far a Toronto. That's just my experience on it though, it would really have to depend on how your parents view such things. Do you know for a fact that you would be in a safe situation if you were to tell your parents? Would you have friends or more open relatives that live close by that would take you in if things were to go sour? Try to test the waters a bit, see what their opinions are of LGBT related things are, it might be difficult to drag into a conversation with them but maybe make a story up about a friend that wants to come out to their parents and you want to give them(the fictional friend) a way to talk with their parents about coming out. If your situation might not be as good as you were hoping it would be, try to keep your important documents in one place where you can easily get them should you be kicked out(also, have a bag of clothes ready in your room or by the door though I hope your situation isn't that bad). If you're in a situation that might not be best to come out, consider coming out when you're older or when you're more financially independent. I might be making mountains out of mole-hills but I do want you to be prepared for anything. Coming out as trans is a different experience for everyone, what I still go through might be something that you never go through. I do hope that you have an easy time with coming out, sometimes you need to kick yourself in the pants to just get this type of thing out of the way so you can focus more on other things. You'll know when it's time to come out to them, I know you might want to get things moving(especially if you want to start dressing more feminine or start HRT asap) these things can take time and your parents may need some time to mull things over once you've come out to them. All I can really say beyond that is good luck with your parents. We're here, should you need us.

I was able to download Office 365 before the storm hit, a bout of rain often messes with my internet connection. It was pretty hot in here before but has since cooled down, so that's another good thing.

I've been considering getting a colour similar to my text colour. If I were to bring in hair dye to a salon, would they do it for me? I'm worried about doing a bad job of it... Maybe I'll get it dyed whenever I cut my hair(I hate my long hair sometimes).

Well when I was a teen and went with my mum to her university, people would mistake me for a student there. Nowadays, people tend to think I'm a teenager. What the...?

Had a brownie out of the freezer, it was tasty.

Feeling pretty bored right now. It's too hot in here, I don't want to do anything...

Feeling pretty mellow. I helped clear out our land a bit this afternoon(well all day, I guess), there are a bunch of cut up logs sitting at the back of where we're going to build. A week ago, we talked to someone about the plans for the house itself and I must say, it's pretty exciting talking about what kind of windows you want for your house to-be-built. Pretty exciting all-in-all.

I'd probably die... That's pretty much it.

Working on a rather large fictional world right now. I've been considering maybe leaving it alone for a while since I feel slightly burnt out over it and maybe try working on something smaller, but I'm not sure what to go for or in what direction. I keep trying to think of something else but I keep coming back to this one world and I feel as though it's yelling at me to finish it up before writing about it. I wanted to have plenty of lore to lean on before writing it...

I have my first appointment with my Gender Therapist tomorrow, can't wait! I kept telling myself to write down questions and such for her but I can't really think of any, my brain's all jumbled today!

Mostly watch youtube or browse other websites. I might play on my games on my other computer or play my DS(typically animal crossing or pokemon).

I was just finishing some fanfic about my Skyrim OC. I finally got around to it after ignoring it for a year :3...

Might as well do Gender and Sex too: Gender: Morrigan from the Dragon Age series Sex: I'd definitely want to be my OC Lavellan Inquisitor from Dragon Age Inquisition and romance the crap out of Dorian

I felt, at the time, that she was really the best person to start talking about the topic with. I don't really regret doing that. In either case, she was the person that urged me to talk about it with the proper people. She sort of helped get the ball rolling, as it were.

I tend to sleep in a lot, so I tend to wonder where my morning went as I drag myself out of bed.

I got to talk with the traditional healer that I originally started talking to on this subject yesterday. It was nice to give her an update on how that was going. She also told me what my spirit name and colours were, so that was pretty exciting.

When I was a little kid, I lived in two different houses. When I was in my teens, I moved around a lot so living in an apartment was a lot cheaper than buying a house everywhere we went. I currently live in an apartment with my mum and cat. We're working on getting a house built at some point.

Hasn't there already been a thread on this topic already? Anyways, I take around three meds. Mainly for depression/anxiety, it took me a while to find the right ones.