Discussion, and support on our sins/vices

[Reiki Knight 13 1,461]

I'm starting a thread for the discussion of and hopefully group support for our deadly sins or vices if you will.

Now to clarify when I say sin I am only specifically referring to discussion of our vices only.

You know:greed, lust, gluttony, wraith, envy, pride, and sloth.

In my own case my vices I am currently working on are wraith and gluttony.

I'm currently trying to diet to lose weight but have had mixed success.

 

So what sins/vices do you feel you could use support on or which to discuss?

[ZiggWheelsManning 7,371]

Mine is greed, it involves me playing Star Wars:  The Old Republic (2011).  I'm on it so much that I neglect all the other Star Wars games, even some Sonic games.  

[They call me Loyalty 1,941]

Coke, I've been doing coke most of my life. But I also like pepsi.

[Reiki Knight 13 1,461]

I meant for this to be a serious discussion 😒

[Trot Shuffle 3,597]

I'm not really a spiritual person but I quickly looked into it and I think I suffer the most from Sloth.

So obviously, laziness and procrastination habits are the bane of my existence. But from my understanding of Sloth, this counts too: there have been times where I passed on opportunities that I thought would not be beneficial when, in hindsight, would've been great even to just experience it.

And, admittedly (more-so in the past), I've felt a bit apathetic with others when they're going through a lot of bad emotions. For some reason that I can't explain, the most I can do is listen and tilt my head like a puppy (that alone does make me feel awful). But lately, I've tried to make it a habit to really put myself in their shoes and feel how they would feel in a situation which has helped me understand where others are at emotionally. It's seriously been an eye opener!

At least when I think about it, all of these sins/vices cross and follow each other. Though maybe that's what to be expected from it, I can only imagine with my limited knowledge about this! 

[Envy 6,000]

I'm very prone to gluttony as of late. I have an insatiable appetite and eat all of the time. This is getting ridiculous, as I'm trying to lose weight but I'm hungry constantly! =(

[Simcity11100 770]

If I didn't say I was guilty of slothfulness and envy, I'd be lying. It's pretty easy to get jealous of others in their appearance and their upbringing. I definitely don't want to put a whole lot of effort into things, just barely enough to get by and like it when others do my job for me 

[Reiki Knight 13 1,461]

1 hour ago, Envy said:

I'm very prone to gluttony as of late. I have an insatiable appetite and eat all of the time. This is getting ridiculous, as I'm trying to lose weight but I'm hungry constantly! =(

Well, I've learned a neat trick or two for dieting.

First do NOT do any "diet" foods or drinks they will be very weak and or possibly have harmful chemicals in them that cause greater harm to you in the long run. 

Just saying unless you read very specifically what they are replacing the missing fat, sugar etc with something you know to be a healthy substitute don't assume it is good. 

Two good examples of what I mean.

The first an example of the bad: there was a  a big brand name of chips (Frito-lay I believe) that was selling itself as deity food you know that jazz "All the flavor of regular but only 100 calories for this whole bag."  Thing is the ingredient used olestra had a few let's just say nasty side effects on your stomach. That one actually became so bad they pulled those chips off of the market.

Now, on the flip there is a sugar free brand of soda I enjoyed from time to time called Zevia. 

They replaced the sugar with the herb Stevia and if you look at their ingredient list there is no mystery Ingredient on there it's just flavoring, carbonated water, and stevia pretty much.  Granted it IS still a soda so it's still a far cry from what you call a healthy drink but it is at least something decent. 

Another thing quality not quantity matters do you CAN gorge yourself a little bit but you want to go for foods that you find help you burn fat like big salads with olive oil dressing or instead of ice cream maybe a huge fruit smoothie. 

And finally a good tip I got once that did seem to help was for breakfast meals eat like king/queen and have your big meals, for lunch eat eat like a prince with moderate sized meals and finally for dinner eat like a peasant and try to have your small meals then.

Anyways, I hope this helps. 

[Reiki Knight 13 1,461]

34 minutes ago, Simcity11100 said:

If I didn't say I was guilty of slothfulness and envy, I'd be lying. It's pretty easy to get jealous of others in their appearance and their upbringing. I definitely don't want to put a whole lot of effort into things, just barely enough to get by and like it when others do my job for me 

For envy, I've learned the secret is to turn inward and tell those voices of self doubt to shove it. Start using affirmations for yourself and try with small things if you need to. I feel blessed, I am loved, I have what I need, etc and go for self improvement goals.

Quietly feed the ego a little bit and when you do you will start to notice as you feel better about yourself you will stop worrying about others.

As far as sloth goes cram in some energy drinks, some hot as Celestia spicy food and play some good metal rock as needed to keep yourself motivated I guess.

Bassically get yourself so hyped up that you just want to do something. 

 

[They call me Loyalty 1,941]

I want to be honest here.
I have always lived with a genetic affliction that is the source of my addictive tendencies. And I tried to pretend I was normal all these years, but my mind changes from moment to moment, and the result is what you have seen here.
But my guilt comes from living a life that I have never deserved or earned. Still, I have never used my possesions to lure, manipulate, coherse or extort anyone. It was a means to an escape, in ultimate instance. Because I hate myself. I am self-repulsed, actually.

But I will not change the person I am, because I know the problem is genetic. Meaning that the cells in my body are replicating with a faulty configuration that causes these issues. And I have tried to explain this to my mother multiple times, and told her to get the me the means to leave, over the years. During moments of clarity and resignation, because it is always the same. Over and over again.

And even if I was offered what I "wanted", a part of me would still reject it, and viceversa. Like there are two different beings living inside of me.

Also, I am still an animal, so as long as they keep feeding me. I will remain, the choice is in your hands. The same way I tell my mother, if she chooses to let me go, I leave. I have no functional autonomy for proper decision making because of this problem. So, I have been like an old child all my life, and thus I have stuck to my family. I have very little autonomy. And I am kinda decrepit for real.

This is the source of my addictive behaviour. It has always been there, even from before the developmental problems started showing up, I have had schizoid and autistic symptoms. So, I have been sitting on this chair for almost my entire life. And logically I want to kill myself, but the animal does not agree with me. And things are not getting any clearer. And I am afraid for my mother. Because I don't have the capacity to take care of an older person, and I don't want to repeat what happend when my grandfather was dying and my mother went insane, because she thought he was recoding himself to use it against her in court. And then she made me record the intelligible sounds that he was making, in case it was an elaborate plan.

When in reality, he was delirious and the family went insane instead of helping him, including myself. So, I just dissociated as it happens during high stress. But there was never some great plan for some revenge from my part. I was trying to justify my impotence at the time with this made up narratives to give some sense of purpose to what happened. Because it was insanity. And I was lost in it. I actually believed her for a moment.

And I am not here because I am a creppy bastard who is interested in children, I am here because I am a creppy bastard who was raised like a kid, and it helped. Also, I have never checked child pornography. And I barely watch porn as it is. Most of it are fictional depictions for aid. I think you know my search history. Just really hardcore drawings. Because my mind is trying to connect the pieces all together, but it cannot.
And it repulses me in the end, so I want to kill the instinct, which makes my ideations abusive and violent, because of the suffering that results from this condition. But my body needs it to release stress. Even if it hurts me in the end.
But when I do it, it still it tears me apart because of this XYY chomosome abnormality. And my sexuality... I don't have a defined sexuality, I am more like an animal that will screw wathever, even when I don't want to do it. Still, you have seen what animals are capable of. And despite seeming submissive, there is a dominant personality inside of me. Not in a violent way most of the time, unless provoked. Despite that I can devolve into a feral animal, like any of us can.
Still, it is different with me, it is like a killer instinct that is very clean, methodical and almost surgical when it triggers. It is scary. Because I am very clumsy most of the time, but there are times I would pick an object with such finesse that I become scared, because I know it is there. It is that thing that happens, when I go from being paralized, to murder mode.

But if I become feral, then you put me down like a rabid dog and that is it. Because there is a part of me that does not want to be here, anymore. And I know what to do with this. And you know where I live, too. Or you cut down the supplies, and I die. Because this is not going anywhere. I am still tearing apart after thirty years.

Still, I am appreciative that I got to spend time with my mother and my uncle, and that by some miracle, she is a lot more stable, mentally. But I was never going to make it with this condition. That is the reality. That is the real problem, it is a genetic aberration. And it is not something you can understand, unless you have it. And then you will know insanity. It is insanity. And the prospect that I may have to fight the world some day, when there is a part of me that is fighting me all the time is tormenting.

But hopefully, people with this condition live less time, too. So, that is good. I only hope there is a place where we can sleep forever. I don't want to return. That is what I wonder.

Edited June 7, 2023 by They call me Loyalty