Ricebug

6/10 I always enjoy heavy metal. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r7WQZedDlsU

I usually only eat meat. I'll occasionally eat fruits and rarely to not at all with vegetables. As silly as it sounds I feel sick if I eat too much of them. I guess my body isn't used to having "the good stuff" inside of it.

I haven't slept with any plushies in a while, but I used to sleep with one when I was younger. It was handmade and given to me when I was a baby from my great grandmother. It was a rabbit. It's name was "bunny"...creativity right there. It's head has been sewn back on a dozen times. But, I still have it. It's sitting on my shelf. A little creepy though, since when I was younger I painted it's eyes with glow in the dark paint...So even if it isn't sleeping with me it still watches me sleep.

YouTube and listening to music are a few. Friends help, but not having many doesn't hehe.

When I sleep it's very restless. I get at least 8 I think. But, I toss and turn every night and wake up 20+ times. So I feel like I didn't sleep at all when I wake up.

I sleep very restlessly. So I am always tired and fall asleep quite a few times throughout the day. But, what I usually do to get ready is. I style my hair to keep it out of my eyes (I can't sleep with hair in my face.) Then I do the regular stuff. Brush my teeth, get into some pajamas, and watch YouTube until I get so bored/exhausted I fall asleep. I've been watching a lot of boss rushes lately when trying to sleep. I don't know why though. I guess it's just the theme for me as of late.

I sleep very restlessly. I wake up about 30 times every night. It can be between a few minutes or a few hours. It's probably why I am so tired all the time. I can either wake up early. Somewhere between 3-5. Or late. 12-2. I go to sleep around the same time every night. Ten. So it really depends on how many times I wake up...I think.

I have a lot of fears, but being in social situations has to be my biggest one.

I don't eat vegetables in the first place. If I do it's small amounts ground up and hidden with other flavors. I'm putting down every vegetable. I physically get ill from eating them. Mushrooms are, by far, the worst smelling and tasting. Tomatoes are horrible as well.

No not most of the time. It's hard to explain.

Without a doubt yes. I am depressed because of what and who I am.So if I could change I think it would be a dream come true.

I choose my profile pictures based on how I am feeling.

I've done stuff like this far too often in my life. I've searched for my glasses and realize later they are sitting on my face...I've looked for my headphones to realize there sitting in my shirt. I've eaten breakfast and put the milk in the cupboard and the cereal box in the fridge. I've went to put things back like, for example, the cereal and almost accidentally put a brand new box in the garbage can. I've went to adjust my glasses when I wasn't wearing them and looked foolish. I no longer have to worry about glasses related stuff though. I don't wear them that much anymore. My most recent moment was probably one of the most painful things I have done in a long time. I had finished cooking some mac and cheese for my brother and sister. I was stirring, but some of the noodles feel underneath the grate over the burner. I was trying to keep the kitchen clean so I removed the pot after it was done and turned off the burner. Without hesitation I grabbed the grate with my bare hand and tried to lift it up to clean...needless to say what happened. I had horrible blisters for a long time.

I'm...I don't know how I am with them. I never really interact with kids nowadays. My cousins and my brother comes over all the time with his. The only thing I did last time they were here was answer their questions and I told them to be careful near the stairs. Then I closed and locked my door. And tried my best to drown out their loud screams...

I try my best to distract myself. Usually by listening to really loud music. Or sometimes I listen to sad music to get myself more upset at the fact. Pushing me right through to the end where I accept that I am lonely. Then I wait until it hits again later on. Rinse and repeat. People online help by talking with me, but I never like to let people worry about me. It just doesn't feel right.

I have terrible anxiety. My social anxiety is so bad that I never talk. I literally use a small white board with markers to communicate. I'm not joking either.