What is wrong with you?

[LittleMac 3,085]

I refuse to open up to people

I'm socially awkward IRL and not much better online

I feel depressed all the time

I have little to no motivation for anything anymore

I'm lazy

I'm whiny

I can be pretty cruel at times

I'm an idiot, for lack of a better term

I have no self confidence whatsoever

I have contemplated doing horrible things to myself and others in the past

I'm a coward

I just don't like myself and don't think anyone could

[Violet_S 785]

I have OCD and I am highly sensitive...but im working on both xD

[FullMetalParagon 80]

The list is long and some of the words are hard to pronounce.

[Detritus 258]

I have a lot of things wrong with me, but my two major ones are social phobia and Crohn's disease. The latter can be particularly nasty.

[Snuggle Fiend 135]

• Clingy

Oversensitive

Anxious

Self-conscious

Emotionally reactive

No attention spa- is that a butterfly?

Nervous wreck (at times)

A little too fiercely protective of friends

Very timid and cowardly

And I use emojis too often... :3

[Raritas 6,820]

Lack of motivation, social anxiety to a certain degree.. Hopefully getting a job will fix these annoyances.

[AkiraLeeJounouchi 857]

I have both Depression and Anxiety and the only way I can calm myself from either being really depressed or having an anxiety attack is by cutting myself. I'm also allergic to Dust. And I have sinuses that block my nasel passageways everytime I have the flu. If I don't take atibiotics while I have the Flu, I could die from nasel blockage. And then I have psoriasis. 

[Lightwing 12,967]

The right question is "What is right with me?". But well, I have various problems:

• Broken sleep pattern that clashes with my life directly
• Inability to show my real feelings to the people near me
• Tremendous lazyness that, again, makes my life harder
• Weak body that makes me prone to illnesses and other things
• Inferiority complex
• Unability of putting my romantic thoughts together, and subsequent unability to express them
• Not being able to care about my physical and/or mental status on behalf of others
• Have I talked about how I detest being a male? Well, if I didn, there it goes
• Very avenging towards those people that deserve it (I am not talking about calm revenges here)

Average normal wrong me, guys.

[Overlord0909 479]

I used to want to kill half the world's population (with torture and laughter) and enslave the other half to do my will, and clean up the planet and ultimately save the world from poverty :3

 

I said it before, I was messed up...

[SquipyCheetah 449]

I let people say I have Selective Mutism when I'm really just not shy at all but hate to talk to people. Besides my cats, I can not bring myself to fully trust anybody and have the mindset that I will just be hurt by them in the long run. 

 

I'm also not very connected to emotions that well anymore.

[ManyANewDay_36 178]

I have severe ADD and I also tend to blow up at friends and family when I'm upset or tired. Also, I'm horribly jealous of everyone around me and I fail to see my own talents. These confidence issues have really made me depressed and angry. MLP:FiM is honestly one of the only things that keeps me happy, and these forums are the only place that I feel like I can just be myself. So, thanks everypony

[konakona 48]

I'm weird, sometimes I don't think before saying something, I'm shy, I'm nervous, I can be really stupid, I have difficulty to explain things, when I don't know something I just say random things sometimes, I'm lazy (not all the time), I laugh for no reason and I'm annoying sometimes.

Edited November 4, 2015 by konakona

[JonasDarkmane 19,785]

I have ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder) and ADHD (basically the same thing). 

[DeadAccount 4,603]

Medically? I have ADD and I need glasses

 

Hmm other flaws? This list could go on forever

I'm easily ticklish

I have my dad's feet

Masculine shoulders

Can't seem to speak up when I should..

Stumble on my words a lot

I seem to swim faster during practice than at swim meets

My hair is dull

I'm someone who loves to always be prepared but find myself unprepared in situations where I thought I wouldn't need to be

I can't seem to wake up whenever I want to. Whenever I try to sleep a later time but set my alarm so I'll have a longer sleep, I still wake up so dang early in the morning And then I can never get myself to get back to sleep >~<

[ponylaces 1,870]

- I overthink things a lot, yet sometimes also I'm careless and insensitive

- I have trouble controlling my anger

- Lazy

- Cocky

- Awkward/nervous

- Unoriginal

- I'm annoying, yet I'm easily annoyed

- I'm a horrible student

- I procrastinate :')

- I daydream instead of accomplishing the things I want to do

- Oh, and I beat myself up for lots of things. I don't know if you've noticed that.

[Lil Pip 775]

adhd

not very social

on the computer all day

dont always eat well

procrastinate a bit, like my room is a mess, but it never goes past a certian point lol.

i can be a bit ignorant of others' situations sometimes, usually out of habit

should exercise more often

should be comfortable with myself more

and my skin has little bumps over my legs like dry skin or something or in-grown-hairs i have no idea. 

and i wake up dehydrated too often and my nose is fractured and a little crooked.

and iw as legitimately insane before, dont tell me everyones crazy or that crazy is fun etc, because you dont know what you are talking about, my brain cells were dieing from sleep deprivation, it hink crazy doesnt feel good lol, and i have more experience to justify my position than ooo caffeine high! Im crazy! i was so random today! not hormones or brain development or nothin, just crazy! 

 

[DwhitetheGamer 867]

I have Autism Spectrum Disorder, so I can come around as a jerk sometimes.(I'm managing, though.)

 

I'm told I also have ADHD, which I don't believe it.

 

And I don't talk a lot.  That's about it.

[Sekr Gray 520]

Pretty sure I have some form of depression, and maybe a minor case of ADD. I can focus on stuff, but you can only really capture my attention if I'm wholly interested or involved. Even then, I tend to drift off.

 

Oh, and the wanting to be alone and murder anybody who walks into my little bubble of solitude is a bit of an issue 

Edited November 11, 2015 by Sekr Gray

[Chara 1,565]

I have aspegers aka autism spectrum disorder. I also have a lot of mood drops.

[Kiri 7,288]

I have several flaws that I'm currently working on:

 

-I get impatient easily.

-I tend to put up with a lot before finally speaking up. I'm non-confrontational.

-I'm incredibly stubborn. I think it's both a good and a bad quality, depending on the situation.

-I'm a perfectionist. If I don't think I can do something perfectly or right the first time, I don't want to do it at all. I also tend to take things to heart when I make a mistake, rather than accepting that I'm only human.

-I guess this one's a bit common, but I have struggled with anxiety greatly in the past. While it is much better now, I tend to lean more on the sensitive side, so it doesn't take too much to make me start worrying.

[kaleidoscope234 30]

I'm diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder. It pretty much means I worry endlessly over too many things and can't handle stressful situations very well as makes me extremely anxious. But I've made progress over the years with therapy and self-help.

[MLPFanatic34 3,234]

I have anxiety and Asperger's.

[Quiz Flight 277]

my faithful subjects,

 

I fear that something is wrong with me, I am.... just.... TOO AWESOME!!! 

 

your princess of slumber,

Princess Nidra

[Asriel 0]

Greetings from a visitor to Equestria that isn't actually a pony. I don't identify myself as a brony or as an anti-brony to be completely honest. So, if it makes it any easier for you, think of my fictional avatar as Asriel Dreemurr from the Undertale universe (by merit of our many similarities, which I'll be getting into). By the way, I'll be using several Undertale metaphors later on, so it would help to familiarize yourself with it.

Anyway, here's what is wrong with me, and why I think it runs the risk of disproving the philosophy of Equestia's citizens. I was born with Asperger's Syndrome and Attention Defect Disorder (more commonly known as ADD). My father was physically abusive to my mother, such that she divorced him after only a year. For the first 16 years of my life (out of the 20 that I have lived), I spent time with each of my parents in a cycle of visitation. One of my earliest memories is that, when I was very young (I don't remember a specific age, just that I hadn't started school yet), I told my mom that I "didn't think there was enough time for fun". I posed that point hesitantly, and believe I was simply wondering what she had to say. Due to the many ways in which her life had turned out for the worse thus far, my mother angrily began ranting about how much worse things would get. And recently I have discovered that that moment gave me atychiphobia (the phobia of failure). While I knew what I was afraid of ever since then, it took me until now to really define it. For all that time, I was just afraid of living as a self-reliant adult. As a result, I regarded the distant future with a crushing sense of dread. Put to words, these fears manifested as the despairing phrase "What am I going to do?"

For a while, I managed to forget. I made it through the hardships imposed by visitation with my paternally inept father. I moved between seven different schools, five different homes (including both my biological parents), and one more divorce before I finally graduated with a 3.2 GPA.

But, now that I am living as a dependent adult (I haven't moved out yet), things have been going down-hill. I have made very little progress in being my own boss. After three semesters of college, I have 5 Cs and a D to my name (the rest are Bs and a few As). I have a job at Arby's that is fairly easy and lets me work consistent hours. But that's about it. I have more or less stagnated in my life as I know it.

As for why this is something wrong with me and not just "differences" and "mistakes"... well...

As a child, I took an IQ test and got a perfect score (it measured up to 150). When I was relying on my mother for everything else, I excelled in school save for a single semester when I had too high of a dosage on a prescribed anti-anxiety medication (that was my first semester as a Freshman in high school). I am by all accounts an intelligent, insightful person.

And yet, a dark side equatable to my father lurks in me: lazy, arrogant, dismissive, disagreeable, bogited... my dark side is the epitome of how the Biblical book of Proverbs describes a fool. And the more I have been forced to reconcile these two parts of myself, the more my situation has deteriorated.

My hope is dead and buried. My ambitions are on life-support. And based on my track record thus far, things are only going to get worse from here.

 

For anyone who would argue the equivalent of "you are who you choose to be"

Oh yeah? Hope doesn't grow on trees. One does not simply defy the faults in their personality through DETERMINATION or the likes thereof. Imagine if you pulled that card on somebody contemplating suicide. Or telling that to a drug addict fighting the urge of relapse. The human psyche is not a ball of clay. There are just some things we can't change. I know it's possible for me to overcome these things, but there's nothing I can really do about it that I haven't already tried. If you think somebody chooses to let these things happen to them... you'd be right. But if you said they chose it willfully, then you'd be dead wrong. People like myself often feel they've been tricked by the future they picked. That their hopes and dreams have been betrayed.

Bottom line: I can choose to be anything I want. But I've reached the point that getting there myself is a fool's errand.

 

In dispute of the "friendship is magic" approach

Bull. Freaking. Crap. Bullcrap, bull and crap. Friendship is something that can look a lot like magic when it is given to someone who doesn't have it (just like modern medicine). But I can honestly say that friendship is something that I've never been able to hold on to. With every school I've moved to, I've left behind friends. And my stunted social capacities as a result of my Asperger's have deterred me from keeping in touch (it's taken me years just to comfortably hold a phone conversation, even with my own mother). Besides, what could my friends have done about this?

Bottom line: Even if I believed that mantra was true, I've gone through enough partings and loneliness to make me actively avoid forming new friendships. Amicable conversations? Sure. Online conversations like this? Absolutely. Involved friendships? Uh... come back a few years ago and maybe I'll reconsider.

 

Overall

If I came to Equestria (as Asriel/Flowey, or somebody/something similar), I would view everything I saw with discomfort and restrained resentment. My dark side (i.e. my inner Flowey) would balk at it all, and I myself (the Asriel part of me) would remain even more withdrawn than Twilight. And if Pinky Pie tried singing her "Welcome Song" to me, oh geez... I'd probably snap and come close to letting my inner Flowey kill her (after all, Pinky has never shown she is immune to stabbing). It would take a great deal of care for me to try and branch out. Worse case scenario, I would lose it, acquire the SOULs of six ponies, and slaughter everyone. (By the way, that power would turn me into this)So, if anyone wishes to argue with me on this, go nuts. Otherwise, "Look on my works, ye mighty, and despair."

[Widdershins 9,959]

   Bwa-ha! So deliciously blunt of a question! Aah, but oh yes, to answer your question: So very, very many things! But after all, doesn't the more we suffer only serve to make us a deeper, more rich a character? Oh, but where to begin?

 

  I'm rather mad for one! No, not angry or insane. I've sort of just progressively convinced myself over the years that I am, and sort of lost contact with reality. But hey, loads of self-doubt tend to happen in depression so that's hardly news! Mine has been a family steeped in emotions, usually to an unhealthy degree. My Mother wasn't the... nicest or best example of humanity and like her, I fear I may inadvertently push people away. Through ignorance is one thing, but my fear tends to get the better of me. I've had people I played with attempt to show me how to do things, and I'm just so caught up in my worries or doubts that I kept coming up with ways to not involve myself. I've always seemed to take the route that doing nothing & just rotting in my sloth & refusual to grow is the safest path, but not the healthiest or happiest.

 

    But I do try to work on my Sloth. Not often though, it is Sloth after all!

 

 I tend to be obsessive. Like any good nerd is! I've not been one to go out often & explore, nor have I been of the expectation that what I have now is anything that would last. The realm of what isn't has been the only comfort for me often in my life. I'll tend to think of my possesions & items as my friends, even talk to them. Or even be too shy to dress in front of the button eyes of the toys I keep in my room or the face on the cover of a book I take to the bathroom. Let me put it this way...

   Were it somehow possible for me to punch a hole in realities, to get my videogame Waifu or unleash a tide of dragonkind or a chance at any of the things in my mind that I cherish so much, but doing so was destabilizing reality enough to end all the worlds, or even the fabric of reality... You'd have to kill me.

  Given a chance between the unpredictable results my emotions have given me in the real world & wish-fulfillment of a world I've only ever suspected would greet me more warmly... well... I'd go down like some Indiana Jones villian who'd rather die screaming & dissolving from magic rather then give up the golden idol.

     ...I don't value my own life. Everything else in life, I value greatly! Everyone else's lives, how much in this world there is yet to be seen, sure! But I'm rather deadset in believing my own life is worthless.

 

 

    ...But dwelling on this like I tend to will only serve to make me more depressed. Heh, better I stop then!