I know what you're going through, i've been there too. I hate seeing someone with these kind of problems, and how they go un-noticed. Trust me, you're not alone and not being ignored. If you're in this position and have suicidal thoughts, you should book a therapy session with a professional and see a qualified doctor to see if you need medication. It might sound unappealing, but it helps in the long run, and is worth it. Of course, don't take what im saying as "See a doctor and take the pills, see a therapist and let them hypnotize you." That's not how it works, and talking to them first helps them understand your problem better, and you only should do things when you're ready to, just please don't give up, i don't know if you have family or friends that care about you. If you do, that's great. But if you don't, I care about you, I came close myself, but I can say through experience that it gets better.