Carl Poppa

I'm feeling a bit sick to my stomach, and a bit annoyed by a few things.

Why does it keep saying I have a new notification when I don't?

I'm feeling confused and tired.

I'm an atheistic wiccan. Heavy emphasis on atheistic. What little wiccan spirituality/practices I have come frome my parents, and it's mostly about protecting people and honoring nature. Organized religion just isn't my thing at all; their doctrines are often much too quick to condemn innocents and contradict themselves.

There can be some problems with 10, so if you do switch, make sure not to get rid of your other OS's files so that you can revert if you need to. That said, Windows 10 has been AMAZING for me personally. Yeah some things don't make sense (like the 2 control panels), but I like that it doesn't have the "start screen," that there is a start menu, and I like Cortana, too. Sometimes when my computer is having an issue that's slowing it way down, using the voice command to get Cortana to open the control panel or something comes in very handy. Also I used to have trouble on Windows 8 and 8.1 with the charms bar constantly popping out when I'd be typing and just start opening random apps of its own accord, so I'm glad to not have that issue anymore. Microsoft Edge is nice too, helluva lot better than Internet Explorer, although, of course sometimes Firefox/Chrome/Opera/etc. is still preferable. In general, I like 10. To be honest, I sometimes forget how to even use 7/Vista/etc. since it's been so long and 10 is a LOT better than 8/8.1 imo. But, it's not for everyone, and some computers have serious issues because of the update... some have driver issues as a result, some just crash entirely, etc.; so it's a risk for sure, and you wanna be positive you can revert should anything go awry if you do decide to go for it. As for the concerns about spying; I read the clause in question and to be honest, many services these days do the same thing, and if you're using an outlook email address Microsoft already has access to your email anyway (I personally have 2 outlook email addresses). Considering you can opt out of the stuff, I really don't see an issue with it as it sounds like they're mostly doing that to protect themselves should you do anything illegal.

I don't believe in any of that stuff, but if I did, I'm condemned to hell from birth anyway, for a multitude of reasons (my grandmother was born out of wedlock, so for seven generations everyone's sentenced to hell, women aren't allowed into heaven, to hear some tell it neither are LGBTs; I could go on but I won't). So would I? Yes, if I could guarantee it would be true love on both our parts. People who haven't truly been in love never understand the difference, but there is one... my last partner loved me, but it wasn't the kind of true love, what she felt faded away and she left. Meanwhile I did feel the true kind, and the result is I'm interested in someone else now but I still miss that person every single day and I still have strong feelings for her months later when I really shouldn't and really don't want to. So if I could guarantee that the love would be lasting kind on both our parts, I'd do it, otherwise no. I want love more than anything else but I have no time or patience for any of this superficial stuff or things that are just going to end after a year or two. I don't want a partner for the sake of having one, I want the kind of companionship I only ever had when I was with someone I truly loved. If Satan could give that to me, sure I'd sell him my "soul." Your brain makes you who you are, and as far as I know not having a soul doesn't kill you (supposedly nonhuman animals don't have souls, anyway... and animals are much kinder and understanding than people), and I'm already going to hell, so... why shouldn't I?

I'm feeling about like this:

I did not make it at all. I still have under 2000 words. Depending how busy I am next year, I may shoot for 80,000 again. Hopefully life won't get in the way next time.

Everyone should just wear the clothes they want, regardless of gender. I think it's perfectly fine.

It's so hard to guarantee that a name isn't already taken, and designs are going to be similar sometimes just because of the size of the fandom. I don't see anything wrong with it as long as a character isn't damn near identical to another and obviously ripped off.