Rizoel & Crepuscule

I'm not a fan of dubstep, but I've heard a few that I like, but often time a dubstep remix on most songs, for me, just doesn't sound nice. I've even heard of a dubstep remix of Mad World by Gary Jules. I listen to it, and I was like How?! HOW can dubstep make a song like that better?! I don't even

Pretty much any songs that talk about love and/or sounds romantic and beautiful always pulls at my heart. It's totally not like they force me to think about a certain purple pony every time. Nope. *ApplejackLie.jpg* *Foreveralone.jpg* Also, anypony that has played Final Fantasy 10 will agree; It had an amazing soundtrack. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1ZLV7g1ILvI&feature=related Fun fact: Did you know, that the voice actor for Rikku from FF10, is the same voice actor for Twilight Sparkle? (Tara Strong is the voice actor for both.) I remember when I was just seven, for some reason I couldn't help but stare at Rikku's ass every now and then. Nine years later, I see little has changed, just different character. Somepony help me. I REALLY need to stop talking about Twilight. *Sits in corner, rocking side to side* No... No I don't need help... Heh heh heh, I'm PERFECTLY fine! Yes! I'm FINE!! YOU HEAR ME!? I'M FINE!! *Maniacal laughter* *To Zanarkand starts playing* *Instantly falls asleep like a baby, continuing to mumble something about Twilight in his sleep*

The only phobia that I can think of right now is Spheksophobia, a fear of wasps. In general, I am moderately scared of any loud flying insect(Read: ONLY loud ones, butterflies and moths aren't loud, they're cute. ), but wasps I'm especially afraid of. I'm not sure what caused this fear, I can't remember a time I've been stung by one. Perhaps it's just their appearance... OH MY CELESTIA EVERYPONY RUN FOR YOUR LIFE AGGGHHHHHH!!1! *Jumps out window* ... *Pokes head back in window* Except for bumble bees, they're pretty cute for some reason. Ain't he cute? I think it's the fur. Ain't that weird? I'm scared sh*cough*less of wasps, but not of bumble bees, even though bees are very identical to wasps. Perhaps it's the fact that when a wasp stings, it can sting multiple times and can get away with it. And when a bumble bee stings, they can only do it once, and if they do, they die. OR... perhaps It's because I haven't had a bee fly in my face yet while it's wings scream, "HI! I'M GOING TO MURDER YOU!" Hmm... Let's find out! *Lets go of window and runs at random bee nest* LEERROOOYYY

I would like to introduce you all to a game I've been playing a lot lately called Receiver. "What is Receiver?" Receiver is an Indie First-person-shooter developed by Wolfire Games, who are also the developers of Overgrowth. "Ok, what's so special about Receiver compared to other FPS games?" The main thing that sets this different from other FPS is the gun mechanics. In most FPS, interaction with your gun is often limited to just firing and reloading the weapon and perhaps using certain attachments that are fixed on the gun. For this game, it is much more complicated than that. There are many ways you can interact with the gun, you can interact with the slide, the hammer, the safety, the magazine, and more. You can pull the slide back to make sure that the round is chambered, you can add and remove individual bullets to and from each magazine you possess, and many more ways to interact with the weapon. There is no HUD (Heads-up-display)in this game to tell you how many rounds are left in the magazine that is currently inside the gun. The only way to find out how many bullets are left in that magazine, is to eject it from the gun, and to then inspect the magazine for yourself. "This sounds interesting, tell me more." This video should fill in the rest of the information about this game. http-~~-//www.youtube.com/watch?v=GCThInmzjXw "What do you think about this game?" The gun mechanics in this game is something I don't think I have seen before in a video game. the way the pistol works is very complex, I spent about the first 10 minutes in-game just standing in the first room just simply finding out how the gun worked, and how many ways I could interact with it. But that isn't in anyway a bad thing, eventually you memorize how to reload the gun without the help system. This game was literally made in just 7 days, and for a game that took just that long to develop, It's fantastic in my opinion. "Can I have a link to this game?" Unfortunately, Receiver isn't free, but it's very cheap, 5$ to be exact. In my opinion, the game is really worth the money. I would probably even pay double the price. (But don't tell the developers that.) Here's the link to buy Receiver.

*Immaturity mode activated* I got a bigger stallionhood than all of you! Especially you Arylett! *Lightning strike behind me* MWAHAHAHAH- Wait. *Notices Arylett is in fact a girl* *Pupils dilate* ... Uh... ... I- I mean... No! NO! W- What I meant to say was... was uh, Feld0! Y-YES, I meant my stallionhood is bigger than Feld0s! YES, that's what I meant! *Lightning strike behind me* MWAHAHAHAH- *Moon*

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Yeah, that's what we WANT. What will we GET? Explosions. Explosions everywhere. I mean, it's Michael Bay, what else is there going to be?

I am very slightly short-sighted. I can see Ok at distance without glasses, but If I need to read like say, a sign with text that is far away then I will probably need glasses to read it. But I can see things up close no problem, don't need glasses at all. Another thing that is 'wrong' with me, is that I talk to myself a lot. Or, well, not exactly to myself but rather to an audience of some sort in my head, like as if there's a crowd of people in my head or something. Most of the time I don't even realize I'm doing it. I've been trying to stop doing this, and instead try and direct my attention to my tulpa. (Look in the 'Pony Tulpa' thread in the Sugercube Corner board if you don't know what a tulpa is.) I also don't go out often. But I ain't stuck in my room all day everyday; every couple of hours or so I tend to take a break from the computer and walk around the house or step out to the yard for a few minutes before sitting on my ass again for another 2 hours doing nothing productive in front of this monitor. It's not like I'm afraid to go outside or anything. In fact just a few days ago my father, my brother and I went fishing for like 7 hours by a lake. The people that passed us and other fishermen that fished near us were friendly. We joked around, shared bait and equipment and things like that. I'm not really that afraid of talking to people as I used be. I've also thought about going back to college as well, so I have a feeling that I won't be stuck in this house as much in about a few months time from now. This next one isn't really 'wrong' or anything, but I'm gonna put it here anyway because why not? I feel that I cannot be attracted to girls purely by looks or appearance. I've seen so many girls that LOOK amazing, but are complete bitches when you talk to them. Because of this, I feel I will only be attracted to girls that are caring and are friendly and supportive, rather than because they have 5 tons of eye shadow on their faces. I'm only 16, I don't need to get a girlfriend at such a young age, I know around here it's all 'cool' and everything to have girl/boyfriends at young ages, but I'm just not like that. I mean, of course I would like a girlfriend, but that's just it; I would like a girl that is like, an actual friend. I feel that a lot of people forget about the FRIEND part in girl/boyfriend, especially at such a young age. I suppose that's why people are attracted to the Mane 6 so much. They might be ponies, but it's what's on the inside that counts. Hell, I even feel I'm attracted to a certain purple unicorn more than any other girl I've ever seen in my life, both on the internet and IRL. If there is anything wrong with me, It's gotta be that.

Wait, I'm confused. You said that you could see her, standing in your room. And then in the next sentence you say that after the hug, it was the first time you've ever seen her. Wat. Is she imposed or not? In all your other posts you were talking like as if she was imposed, but now you're saying it's the first time you've seen her.

Oh hey, if you go on the Tubez and type in "Tulpa", about 16 videos down you'll find a video of someone talking about this very thread: He doesn't seem to have any opinion on the subject in general, he just narrates the first post of this thread, but I think he is trying to mock us however. I like the ending of his video though. "Inb4 people call me insane/schizophrenic/point me to the nearest mental hospital MWHAHAHAHAH!" I don't know what he's trying to achieve here, but... yeah, this thread is on Youtube apparently. Yay! Anyway, about my tulpa? *Facedesk* Very little progress since last time I posted about it. But I have decided on a name for her, I'm just going to name her Crepuscule for now, (Since she her colours are mostly purple, I thought it would be fitting.) I don't know if that name will be permanent or not, she might think of something better once she becomes sentient. (Read: IF she becomes sentient.) I feel I am very impatient about the visualization part, and I'm constantly forgetting to narrate to her. ...Although, the reason I'm forgetting to narrate might just be because I've been playing Tribes:Ascend all day (SHAZBOT) I don't usually play it this often, but since it's the last day of my XP booster, I'm trying to put in as much time as I can. I could probably narrate to her what's happening in game, but again, I keep forgetting. And what could I narrate to her if I do remember while playing? *Sees ally slowly walk into the enemy flag* "SHAZBOT! DAMN LLAMA GRABBERS STEALING MY FLAG CAPS! I'M TELLIN' YA CREPUSCULE, I'M GONNA SHOVE THIS SPINFUSER SO FAR UP THIER A-" *Crashes into tower at 250 Km/h* ... Yeah... I suppose I'll just consider today to be a day off. Hopefully I'll continue tulpaforcing tomorrow.

Wow, I'm looking at everypony else's internet connection that are like 10 mb/s and you're all saying "Eh, my internet ain't all that good." While I'm sitting here thinking 2 mb/s is amazing. I don't even.

I think it is possible to have them in 2D form, but I'm not sure exactly how that would work. And don't worry about your tulpa turning out evil, the only possible way for that to happen is if you have a really evil personality yourself. And even then, it's pretty unlikely. As for school getting in the way, just narrate to her as you go about your day. Narrating means just simply talking to her about anything, tell her about your day, or what you're doing right now, how you're doing it, ect. Just talk to her about anything and everything. Try doing this as much as you can remember. I hear it's better if you talk out loud to them, but if you're around other people, talking to her in your head is fine too. But talk out loud when you can. But remember, you need to believe that you're actually talking to someone, not to yourself nor the air in front of you. You need to think she's actually there listening. Good luck my friend.

*Entire audience laughs hysterically* Wait. Dream? *Condescending Wonka* What is this dream you speak of? If you don't want to talk about it in public, you could send me a PM if you want.

*Attempts to climb back onto chair after laughing so hard* Oh god, *Wipes tears of laughter from eyes* I imagined the entire scene before I even posted, and it all came true! What was her first reaction after she read my post? Did she immediately make the molestia face similar to the one you posted? Cause if she did that would be so fuPFFT HAHAHAH!!1! *Falls off chair laughing again* But in all honesty, that must be pretty scary, now that I think about it. I can just imagine myself turning to the side to just see molestia grinning at me. Or waking up in the morning to find a grinning molestia standing over you. ... Oh god. What have I done?! Please forgive me! Nopony deserves to go through that! But anyway, I'm curious, how did she react immediately after reading the post?

Actually, I've been trying that, I've drawn a couple of T's on my hand in pen to try and remind me of my tulpa. And I also have a little post-it note with a large T symbol on it that I've stuck on the edge of my computer monitor. But whenever I look at it, I usually don't even notice it.

I know that the last time I posted about my tulpa, I was all enthusiastic about trying to make one, but unfortunately It would seem that it was only after a couple of days after that post the forcing itself was just so boring to me that it was almost impossible for me to stay focused. She has not talked to me once yet, but that's only because I've done less tulpaforcing than what I'm supposed to do. I've spent not even a decent amount of time on personality. (got about 11 traits down, and I've explained all of them to her as best I can, but I could only go over each for like five minutes before I ran out of things to say about the trait.) However though, I do have a good idea of what she will look like. I think I'm just gonna go jump straight onto narration, because I honestly feel there is not much else I can do for personality. I think it would be better to just let it develop on its own. The thing is though is that it's really hard to remember to talk to her while I'm going about my day. (And by going about my day, I mean sit on my ass in front of the computer doing nothing productive. (Except maybe drawing traditional art of ponies every now and then.) I mean, I would really like to go outside and walk around ect, but knowing where I'm from, I'll probably get stabbed or something.) But, I think what's important is that I know for a fact that she's there somewhere. I can feel it. And I know if I just keep it up and remember to try and talk to her as much as I can, then one day I will see her with my own eyes. I know no one else will see her, but I don't care. I know she will help me become a better person in general once she's at least sentient. I just got to keep at it. *Enthusiastic face* Inb4 I lose interest in a few days. Aww. That's nice of her. I hope your knee gets better soon, Brisineo. ... Hmm... *Turns to Brisineo trying to stifle a trollface* Ya know Brisineo, if you're ever bored with waiting for that leg to heal... You could have Celestia... Heh-Heh, You know... *Snicker* 'Entertain' you. Eh? EH?! *Wink Wink* *Nudge Nudg- *To the moon* ... Sorry, I'm just trying to lighten up the mood, you know. ...D-don't actually do that to him, Celestia. I was just kidding.