Dreambiscuit

I’ve had radical OCD since I was a teenager. I overcame it with logic, prayer and the help of my family. I also deal with depression, and I recently took steps to address the problem with doctors. I was given the wrong meds, which did more harm than good, and was assigned therapy, which I didn’t attend. In many cases, clinical treatments are useful, but I know me better than the docs I decided instead to manage the problem the same way I always have; by myself, using logic and self-analysis. So far my efforts have been fruitful. For me, a big problem was that my brain was all dressed up with nowhere to go. It was chewing itself up trying to be active and useful, but had nowhere to apply itself. So it turned inward and became self-destructive. Now I’ve given myself a goal to actively work toward, an array of activities to keep me on track, and a reward at the end. Now I feel better, I’m not on meds, and I have hope for the future. It’s not always easy. Mental issues are terrifying. But it’s not hopeless either, so never give up. I know that sounds like fortune cookie BS, but in this case it’s also true.

I'm working my way through a fistful of chocolate mint cookies and a diet cola. They'll hold me over till I can get something truly fattening down the hatch.

I’m obsessed with: Star Wars, Vintage Disney, Imagineering, Art, Japanese culture, Travel, My family.

Hard to pin down just one when there are so many vying for that dubious honor. So here’s the dishonor roll of notable sinkholes of habitation: Tijuana, Mexico: It’s filthy, plain and simple. Whatever the poverty level is, there’s no excuse for dumping garbage on your own doorstep; they make receptacles for that sort of thing. And the people I met there were uniformly rude. No thanks. San Francisco, CA: For a city that’s so well-known for its beauty, this place is a toilet and you wouldn’t want to see it up close. It’s ugly, run-down and everything about it makes me feel like I need to delouse after I leave. And every imaginable form of human degeneracy seems to congregate there. Little Rock, AR: Speaking of the great un-flushed! This place gets a special prize for filth, crime and the feeling that you can never get out of your locked car for fear of being accosted in one way or another. And there’s nothing scenic about it to justify this place. Hard pass.

I have one but I never use it. I always watch my movies on my regular home dvd player or on my iPod if I’m travelling and need something portable. But portable dvd players can be very cool because they give you a bigger screen than a phone, and you can still use dvds rather than having to download a movie or transfer something to a flash stick.

This is so cool. I love seeing familiar faces, especially at work when it’s so important to have something happy around. It’s like having family visit unexpectedly. I like the bling too; pony’s gotta shine!

I LOVE lucid dreams but I’ve only experienced them fleetingly. Usually, the moment I realize I’m lucid dreaming I get excited and wake right up. I’ve long tried to induce such dreams, like keeping a dream diary and trying to remember regular dreams I’ve had after I wake up, just to train the brain, but I haven’t had any notable luck. The few instances of lucid dreams I’ve had lasted just a moment each time and involved cartoon characters; Yakko, Wakko and Dot, and Plucky Duck. The former involved me riding a roller coaster cart past the three Warners, and touching their very soft and rubbery faces as I passed them by. The latter dream had me in a strange honeycomb-like setting with Plucky; not doing anything of note but just studying the strange consistency of the walls. I remember one other where I was just looking out a normal window and noting the realism of the windowsill and realizing it was a lucid dream before I promptly jolted awake. I love lucid dreams and would love to have them all the time if I could.

I have some flavored coffee creamers that I sometimes use, although most of the time I just have my coffee black with sugar cuz it’s quick and easy. As for tea, I usually buy flavored tea, so it doesn’t need much beyond sugar, but if I’m feeling under the weather I often add lemon, honey and a little rum.

I got a letter from the Society of the Little Flower but I haven’t opened it yet. My mail usually piles up for about three days before I get around to reading it.

I was watching an incredibly stupid movie with my mom today and it made me laugh. Sometimes it's the really low-brow stuff that scores.

I love crepes, Napoleons and any kind of cookie. I like chocolate but I tend more toward other flavors given the choice.

Ooh! I LOVE random crap! Most of my apartment is inundated in the stuff. And sure, I’d love to buy more, like Star Wars stuff (as always), the novelizations of the entire Gun Gale Online universe, and lots and lots of those cool anime figurines they make for every imaginable series. They make such great sculpts of anime characters, I just want to load up; too bad they’re so expensive. The list goes on and on.

Two days ago for me. I was a tad distraught and hating myself for my failings, coupled with a few other annoyances and some confusions thrown in. Sounds like a nice little crap casserole. I'm better now though.

I am who I am and I don’t think I act differently based on where I am, either consciously or unconsciously. I’m the same pain in the backside in real life as I am here…but I wear different earrings.

I always stay up past three. Three A.M. is like everyone else’s three P.M. I’m a night owl so my schedule is on the flip side of everyone else’s, or at least the majority’s. Three in the morning is the middle of my day.

I watched a movie with my mom, took out the trash, opened up some packages that came in the mail, and now I'm here. Later on I'll jump on the treadmill and study (I have a nifty little study desk that fits right over the top of my treadmill, so I can multitask).

Feeling alright. I'm taking a night off from my various tasks and trying to relax. Turning my brain off is easy since it's rarely on to begin with. Nice to take a few minutes to hang out here on the forums.

What a beautiful post @Interstellar Sketch! You’ve certainly come a long way in just 14 years and I’m happy to be one of the many lives you’ve touched. You’re such a genuinely compassionate and good person and you’ve made a real impact here, as I’m sure you have in every aspect of your life. One life touches a lot of other lives and when someone can do so in a positive way, that’s a great gift. You’re a great gift and I’m glad and proud to be your friend. Happy birthday and many, many more to come!

I just added Sailor Moon Crystal to my Crunchyroll watchlist. The manga honestly sounds great to me because the darker edginess is something I like. But I’ll start with the show first and move on from there since I already have the streamers. Thanks for the suggestions @Tao!

Okay, I finally finished the last of Andor, season 2. Overall this season was hit and miss, but episodes 10 and 11 were stellar! Too much filler for the show's own good bogged things down this season and I suspect Disney was sticking too many meddling fingers in the pie, as opposed to last season when Andor seemed to fly under their radar. Now I'm going to re-watch Rogue One just to complete the picture.

I’m a night pony, 100% I only surface during the daytime if I have to work. I really don’t understand why more people aren’t night owls; it’s quieter, the temperature is more comfortable and it’s like having a personal day with few others around. Daytime, is too hot, noisy and crowded. No thanks.

Wearing: A white ‘Weathering With You’ t-shirt with black capris and a clueless smile. Hair: Long, down my back, bangs down and to my right, looking damp at the moment because I sprayed it while wet and didn’t brush it out yet. Eating: A burrito, and chasing it with a chocolate chip cookie. Drinking: Lime Cucumber Gatorade. Thinking: Crows really do have regional dialects. Feeling: Under my seat cushion for my missing keys but only finding dust bunnies and something squishy I’d rather not think about. Talking to: Myself, but I’m a boring conversationalist, so one-sided. Listening to: Myself, but I’m a boring conversationalist, so one-sided. Watching: Some dry documentary on TV. Loving: Toys. Who doesn’t love toys? Hating: Neighborhood dogs. Wanting: To travel to Japan. Waiting for: Enough shekels to facilitate the previous answer. Weather: Warm and sunny by day, warm and moony by night. Time: I don’t have any, sorry. Hoping: Hopping actually; up and down on one foot. I do weird things when I think nopony’s looking. Situation: Normal: all f***** up. Have a nice day!