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Palworld waiting for the sun to rise. :p

I would love to own a vinyl player so I could collect and play realllly good albums on it for that sweet audio quality :] I'm not concerned about huge pop artists like e.g. Taylor Swift who already are loaded but for smaller bands I do recommend people support the artists - playing an instrument is hard work, as is songwriting (a COMPLETELY different skill to playing an instrument), as is gathering a whole band together to make a whole album! It can take a while and people put tons of work to make it happen, and touring bands operate at a financial LOSS these days in order to bring live shows to their fans, because they love doing what they do. It's only fair they get something back for their huge efforts in enriching people's lives! Music doesn't just appear online magically, real people come together to make it all happen and I think the convenience of streaming, much like e.g. the food supply, has made people ignorant as to where it all comes from and what it takes to put it all together. I have strong feelings about this

(How do you guys add embedded videos in posts? lol D:) Gonna be stereotypical but I am truly in love with The Witcher 3 OST. I love love love dark folk soundtracks and the violin in this track for example was breathtaking when I first heard it - learning the same instrument and focusing on folk/non classical genres and I would love to be able to play like that spontaneously one day. The Fields of Ard Skellig Also deeply love all the combat music lol tense dramatic folk yes!!!!!

Also picked up poems due to a friend doing so but I stopped at some point a year ago due to emotional difficulties I think lol head is just full of cotton these days. I do want to pick it up again but... yeah I tend to have kneejerk reactions to stuff *I* make so after a few days pass I end up feeling too embarrassed to revisit them cos I end up hypercritical of them but honestly they're not bad. I just end up like the Aurora Borealis scene in the Simpsons except I do have an Aurora Borealis localised entirely within my notes but no you may absolutely NOT see it. I like poetry and lyricism but I tend to be really picky and particular with it. it's making paying attention to song lyrics an ever increasing problem. why can no one write for fuck sake

Define stylish. Idgaf about fashion or trends, but I do have a style. Whether other people consider it stylish or just intimidating is none of my business. :p

"Excuse me," voice lowered to a whisper "do you have toilets in here?" I love customers sometimes, what the hell is this HAHAHAHA. Don't worry ma'am, your secret of owning a bladder that is also over capacity is safe with me. Follow my lead.

That's very nice. I like my steak well done and that is non negotiable.

^ The D/P/Pt soundtrack is underrated in general. Maybe it's nostalgia but themes like Mt. Coronet, Cynthia, Dialga/Palkia fight (were they using the same theme?), Spear Pillar, Eternia City, and maaany more, were so iconic and still evoke feelings in me. Idk if the name FTL: Faster Than Light rings any bells but this part of the OST lives rent free in my head and makes my soul ache everytime. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lwJ8L0QL_qY I kinda hate it for that but besides generally sounding bittersweet in general it reminds me of playing it back in 2014/2015. It made me feel existentially lonely even back then but now it reminds me of home and of my old life that seems dreamlike more than anyone who existed as 'me' or anything that really happened in that life, and the 'sci-fi travel' feeling just makes me feel acutely aware of the vastness of the world and compounds this feeling of being catastrophical distances away from anything familiar. tl;dr screw you Ben Prunty you fucking asshole I hate listening to this. It's good. I could make a post for sooo many iconic soundtracks but I could be here all day lol.

These days I either buy stuff from Bandcamp or Discogs (depending whether I can get a physical disc shipped from Bandcamp or not). I like the .flac files Bandcamp gives you, I hate relying on having a connection in order to just play tracks I already own... I use YouTube otherwise, NewPipe is great for skipping ads entirely on mobile. I used to have a spicy version of Spotify I mysteriously found in a crater for finding new stuff, but the alien tech finally died on me recently and I have been resorting to these means since.

Thanks - love the avatar dude ;]

Terrible, I'm not a good instructor and would probably be overly critical rather than positive to someone's learning. I struggle with giving/wording praise even when the intent to is there and I probably come across as awkward or insincere bc I have no blueprint in my mind for what that looks like to imitate it... But that's why I don't put myself in those positions lol Plus... thanks to the rather interesting educational system in my country and some personal difficulties with studying I didn't learn very much at school at all - I love learning and read nonfiction a LOT, but at the time I had a lot of personal difficulties distracting me.

My dreams are either completely nonsensical, or extremely elaborate and vivid psychological horror-esque trauma nightmares. The trauma train has eased off more recently in my dreams but when it goes there again it's like my brain becomes some frigging horror director lol Or they're not horror per se but deeply personal and distressing - in the past I've had multiple occasions where a dream was so nice I became lucid because I realised the dream isn't real bc it sounded too good to be realistically feasible and have had sobbing breakdowns *within* the dreams. Funny how I used to want to train my brain to become lucid in dreams but apparently it does that on its own now with a strong enough emotional trigger sbgksbfkdnfnn

Cereal is too expensive these days for near nil nutritional value so I don't even bother anymore - total waste of time and money IMO. I'd rather eat something with more substance than sugar and milk lol I'm also tired of the generational war at this point. Boomerist claims about millennials are obnoxious as hell and propagandist but I'm not seeing millennials do fuckall about the problems they pin on the previous generations either, at some point you gotta actually do something about the things you point out rather than play the blame game forever but my fellow millennials are either disengaged from politics and unwilling to learn about the broader world around them, or are outright part of the problem. This isn't even mentioning the tendency of millennials to suddenly talk shit about Gen Z the way previous generations did to them. So I don't see the point anymore in these pointless 'spectacular' distractions whether it's culture wars or generational wars. None of it gets us anywhere except going in circles and this deliberately pits people against each other for the media to divide and conquer people through distractions because as long as we blame each other the real culprits are obscured.

I think a lot of people in general misunderstand procrastination as laziness, when in reality the procrastination is masqueraded anxiety, low self esteem and intense fear of failure or rejection. Extremely important text that I think everyone should read, especially if they harbour feelings of shame about their unproductivity or procrastination. Just a heads up to people mentioning Sloth as their 'deadly sin.' I dunno about deadly sin tbh. Mine would be a mix of Wrath or Pride, I think. "Pride isn't the opposite of shame, but its source."

The Well of Souls by Candlemass, put the Nightfall album on this morning. Normally I'm more of a death/doom kinda person but I was actually in the mood for traditional doom today - I do loooove the doom riffs in this album so maybe the vocalist will grow on me, I do like power metal so operatics shouldn't be hangup for me really... :p

Thanks everyone :] Yeah Digimon has stuck with me since forever even if I haven't watched it in years now lol - the Japanese soundtrack was glorious

Agreed. A lot of the customisation Discord tries to sell used to exist for *free* back in the day when IMs like MSN existed - you used to be able to have custom smileys as well as personalised text colour, message font, convo banner... now they are making people pay for far less control than that. I don't care to encourage them by ever buying Nitro. Besides, I will agree each update feels worse and worse bogged down with garbage nobody actually wants... all I want is good performance and less bugs so the IM doesn't feel frustrating to use lol? I also just dislike the 'culture' in Discord servers - I can't put my finger on it but too frequently it feels toxic at best, 4chan gamer edgelord culture at worst, and it feels insufferable... I'm in a handful of groups but post in none of them because something just feels 'off' about them... a lot of clearly stunted/troubled people who spend way too much time in toxic groups online... and I also dislike how Discord has replaced forums so a lot of stuff you'd be able to find on Google is now behind servers you don't even know the existence of. :\

Depends on my time availability. If I have 10-20 min on a commute I may just play individual songs but if I'm at home I'm more likely to play albums. I do prefer to own physical CDs or otherwise buy from Bandcamp - streaming services rip off musicians and the track quality on them is subpar compared to Bandcamp files anyway. Spotify's audio quality is awfullll

lol. Wouldn't surprise me. The current iteration of the internet makes me wish they'd pull the plug already, it's become one big, increasingly homogenised advertising platform. My issue with a lot of conspiracy theories is that they imply intent, while to me this just looks like the inevitable consequence of market forces at play.

I *love* the concept of horror games - but I cannot stand cheap jumpscares and shock factor. I need at least decent writing and immersive atmosphere. Extreme gore and sexual violence for the sake of it are a 10 year old's idea of horror to me. I don't mind those things *inherently* but they need to serve a purpose besides just relying on my kneejerk response to the imagery. Which is why I adore Frictional Games' SOMA - the atmosphere of the game's setting and existential horror of the questions of human identity and continuity as well as ethics in extreme situations are interesting and stand up well even if the writing isn't perfect. At least they're not trying too hard :] they learnt a LOT from Amnesia which was my favourite game back in the day too. The Bunker was another step up for gameplay and truly might become the first Frictional game I'm interested in but may not finish from how scary it is. Oh yeah - Mikko Tarmia's work on the soundtracks nail the horror too and are a big reason I enjoy the games too. A+++!!! (I'd rather not talk about Rebirth.)

Lemon and oregano like God intended.

I think last full album I put on was Sovran by Draconian 🤔 I loooove the doomy moody vibes and Heike has a god tier voice for it, band probably holds the crown of gothic death/doom ATM. Sweden can make pretty good metal sometimes when it's not Gothenburg melocheese :p

First two questions, I honestly can't think of anything I would do differently tbh. I'd probably just go "ok then", I tend to freeze up in response to danger and don't handle it well. If my family were there, it would be a time to settle some unfinished business, and it wouldn't be pleasant for them.