Probably my mom and dad, even though I have a difficult relationship with them mainly due to them fighting with each other and launching another cold war. But in times when I feel like I can't handle things any longer, they're mainly the reason for me to keep going. I just don't want to upset them or make them disappoint them, since I'm their only child.
But I need to come out and grow up, and I just don't feel I can become independent or learn to take care of myself when I'm around them. They give me almost everything I want, and even though its nice, it's just not reality. And that's why the future and hope also keeps me going. Because I want to believe that I can change and grow into a more independent person that can stand her own battles instead of relying on others. Also I just can't sit and cry over the fact that my friends and family will all be gone one day and live alone for the rest of my life, isolating myself from the outer world because of loss and sadness. I just don't want to become that kind of a person.