The Historian

This is easily one of the worst parts about being an MtF transgender. Facial hair is stupid. Delete it. I'm getting laser hair removal, hopefully starting this summer so it will no longer be a blight upon my face.

If you pour the milk first, you are a Satanic heathen.

In a way, sort of. A friend at work put it best: a computer is a rock we shoot lightning through to trick it into thinking. And, honestly, that's not even all that out of scope.

It's not an either or situation here. It's a mixture of both. You have to be born with a certain aptitude and capacity to absorb and understand the things that you learn in your life. This comes easier for some but it is not impossible if the aptitude is slightly muted compared to another. Basically, it breaks down like this: intelligence the capacity to learn and understand, being smart is using intellect or knowledge in a practical manner and being wise is knowing when to apply that intellect and knowledge and when to not.

Right now, I am a web developer, (unofficial) manager of the ecommerce department, a database administrator (of sorts) and a tier 3 support engineer. Suffice to say, I wear a lot of hats where I work.

I'd pay off my loans, pay off my mom and dad's house, complete my gender transition, buy some super rare PC games then invest the remainder. Whoever gave me the loan? They can kick rocks, lmao.

I honestly don't even know. It was some plain DOS and Windows 3.1 box my dad got in the very early 90s. So... brand? I have no idea. The one after it was a Compaq then I started building my own.

Probably the time I got my hand crunched in a car door. The pain was bad. Then again, the unholy, unmerciful abdominal pain I sometimes get is probably worse.

Introverted then, introverted now. I have never been the most social person, nor do I really desire that.

Military time isn't the same as twenty-four hour time. They are distinct, albeit closely related. That said, I can read 24 hour time without any trouble. Most systems I work in use it so it's become second nature.

Mine was shite. I didn't get much done after getting stuck on a Mac JRE failure. Even development was like "fuck if I know." So I wrote a shell script to get around it. ugh.

Sleeping. My entire career is centered around using a computer. I spend all day on one then play video games when I get home. I really don't do much else.

In my experience, it's misunderstood at best. I am often derided for being an introvert and not really wanting to go out or be social. That has never been my thing, nor will it ever be. There is still a noticeable amount of negativity towards the introverted. I haven't seen it shown in a positive light very often and many of us are judged... and quite harshly.

When I'm in a severely depressive slump, I can barely get out bed, let alone exercise. When I do manage to get out of bed, the only thing that helps is writing while listening to my favorite music. Putting things down on paper... quite literally... helps me work through things. Usually. Other times, I just isolate and try to sleep until things get better. But... with a full time job, that never works out. Working through severe depression... not recommended.

I don't. At all. Unless, maybe, it's a metal version or something. Otherwise, I steer clear.

How about a double shot today? The second entry for today? Septerra Core: Legacy of the Creator. First released in 1999 for Windows, it made it to Mac in 2013 and Linux in 2017, both from GOG! No, this title never made it to consoles. It's one of the few titles in its genre that was PC only and has remained that way! Based on the cover art and name alone, it's quite possible to guess what genre this belongs to: the JRPG. However, it was not made in the East but here in the United States! However, it takes all of its design cues from turn-based JRPGs of the time like Final Fantasy, Dragon Quest and Chrono Trigger. As said, it's a turn-based RPG without random encounters! Anyway, the game follows the protagonist Maya (yep, female protag) and her party as they journey the different areas to find out the truth behind their planet, Septerra. There is a much greater emphasis on narrative development over combat, much like other JRPGs of the era. I haven't actually gotten to finish this one yet, but what I have played was definitely interesting and it gives a unique take on the genre from outside the core turn-based RPG world. Yes, the game is flawed and not perfect. But, if you look past the rough edges, there is a true gem to be found. If you're a fan of JRPGs or want a take on the formula from a Western developer, give this a try. I don't think you'll be disappointed.

Today's random game is Dune, originally released in 1992. Released first for DOS, it started life as a 5.25" floppy but also has 3.5" diskette and CD releases. Interestingly, this title wasn't actually ported to Windows based on my research but did, for some reason, get a Sega CD release. It was also released for the Amiga platform. My particular copy is an early release, being on 5.25" floppies. The game itself is a mix of real time strategy elements and adventure game elements. The game itself loosely follows the book and uses the 1984 film for visual inspiration. The player is put in the shoes of Paul Atreides and must gather spice for Emperor Shaddam IV. The strategy elements come in the form of gathering spice, protecting each sietch and assaulting Harkonnen locations. The adventure game is a bit like the dungeon-crawling type and there are side quests as well. It's quite a varied game, especially for its time. Ambitious but executes well! If you're a big fan of Dune, I recommend this one. It does a decent job of capturing the world of Dune. For what it is, it has a surprising amount of depth to it. Even if you're not a huge fan of Dune and like sci-fi adventure games, it's worth a look. The strategic elements make this title varied and enjoyable.

Windows ME is top level trash, but it turned out the factory OS was ME, not XP like we thought. Suffice to say, we never did another WinME machine again. And this from the dorks who bought new parts for a Windows 98SE PC in the late 2000s.

My plans are the following: work. That's it. I might try to squeeze some voice training in there but I'll mostly be working.

They do in the US. It's called the "gub'mint." Don't kid yourself, corporations run this shit.

For some things, yes. But I don't see her the same way as I do, say, my boyfriend. She and I tried that once and it didn't work out. Been really close friends ever since. That being said, I still have romantic partners because I have that need, which my friendships do not fulfill.

I was working on a Windows ME (red flag number one) box with my dad and we got a message that told us the "registry had been reset." Curious, but didn't think much of it and redid the work. Then it happened again. And again. And again. Any time we did anything with that godforsaken pile of garbage, it reset. We just gave up on that endeavor.

Cracked out the recent MW again. New weapons and maps are pretty good. Startin' that Damascus grind tho.

SimCity 2000: priscilla. Grants a debug menu with lots of fun shit in it. SimCity 3000: i am weak. Makes most things free. Fun to use.

Celebrity worship is nauseating. They're talented at something... I guess? But am I supposed to give a shit? Because I don't. I think they're overpaid burdens to society, but, hey, that's just one woman's opinion.