Scarlet02

I'm wondering what I should do right now... Maybe I could message some friends on here.

Aw... well I hope things get better for you but I feel you there since I had a similar feeling when tests came up, though my problem was because most of the time I didn't know anything on my math tests. Math was never a strong suit of mine so while I did well in most other subjects, I usually struggles in math and most of teachers figured I was just not paying attention. I was but I couldn't understand much of it, though just take a deep breath and do the best that you can on your tests. I believe in you! Also the timers... I have timed tests. It's like a deadline for an essay that's due in twenty-four hours but try not to think about it since that was my method to get through them.

I don't make art yet though! Well... maybe I can convince myself to do blender modeling again or I could try out Source Film Maker. I'm more familiar with Blender where Source Film Maker would be a brand new thing for me which might intimidate me a little bit.

"Half Life 2 Soundtrack (Full)" by VGameOSTs

I feel you there Sven... I hate having the doors open in my room when the lights are off since it freaks me out but I usually have to have at least one light on since I have nyctophobia which an extreme fear of the dark. I'm not sure when I developed this fear really but it causes me to hate complete darkness, especially when I'm alone. I have gotten a little better about not locking my bedroom door constantly but it's a work in progress I guess you could say.

Yeah, I think the best way to develop better eating habits is to try something healthy once a week. My mom told me to try and eat a vegetable once a week though I don't know if I'll do that since I hate most vegetables. I do love strawberries though so I'll definitely eat more of them so that way I don't default to eating chips all the time like I normally do. My boyfriend Jacob also told me to avoid eating when your not actually hungry so I'm taking that tip to heart as well. A little fun fact about strawberries: They boost heart, brain, and digestive health which is nice though I'm sure most fruits and vegetables have those qualities. Huh... That definitely is strange if I'm being honest but points are points I suppose. That is also fair since if you have a question or two during in person school, you can just walk up to the teacher and ask them yourself instead of contacting them via phone or email or whatever other way you can contact them online. I would be scared at first but I would adjust eventually, just it would take some time to get used to being in school and around people again.

I'm currently not content with my weight since I'm currently 270 to 280 pounds which is not healthy for someone of my height. For those curious, I'm "5'8 or 172.72 centimeters for those of you with a measurement system that makes more since than ours. I'm currently hooked on strawberries and looking for more fruit that I can snack on so I eat less chips throughout the day since relying on chips for nourishment is not the best idea.

I get that since I have the same problem but since I use a keyboard and mouse quite often, I don't think I could deal with them being a centimeter from my fingers constantly. That's also fair since I have that problem sometimes but I'm trying to substitute my hunger with strawberries instead of chips since I need to lose some weight if I'm being honest. Also is it an appointment for a test or is it something else? I'm just a little curious since I've had online schooling before and I probably wouldn't go with it. I love having online friends but I feel like school would be easier in person for me... Though the more I think about it... I don't know if my social anxiety would like it too much so maybe online would be a better option for me as far as school goes.

I'm currently living on the eastern coast of the United States but I would like to visit other countries one day. It will require me to get over my fear of planes which won't happen immediately so I'll probably be shaking the entire time on my first flight out of the country, that is assuming it will ever happen but a lady can dream can't she?

Well first I was trying to get my computer to work which I finally did and was able to restore everything and then I hanged out on the forms for a few hours. Then when my mom woke up, I decided to cut up some strawberries since I was hungry because I didn't eat last night. After that, I decided I wanted to clean the top of our refrigerator since I was tired of it looking like a mess on the top since my mom normally stores all of our chips among other things up there. I think doing all of that made my Asthma act up though. Wow that bread loaf looks so good! I wish we had a pan specifically for making bread but I doubt I'd get the kneading right since I made pizza dough one time and I don't think I kneaded it long enough hehe. My downfall with making bread is I tend to like bread that has a bit of sweetness to it so sometimes I'm not sure how much sugar I should have. I guess the best way to find out is to experiment one day and see how much sugar I like in my bread.

I mean me and him text and call each other on Facebook everyday but I prefer seeing him in person obviously. I've never had a normal relationship before so when he visited me for the first time, it was a crazy feeling and it made me really happy since I had someone to hug or just lay against. There were obviously other things too but I think it would be too much to say in a publicly visible thread. I tend to bite my nails constantly over my nerves and just as a habit so I don't have to worry about long nails too often but when you said "witch nails", I kind of just imagined really long wolverine claws which would be interesting since I feel like nails that long would break off as soon as you touched anything. I'm also thinking about making some chopped up strawberries with whipped cream since I'm getting kind of hungry now and if I wait any longer, I feel like my stomach is going to turn into a monster from Silent Hill and eat me alive from the inside.

I'm thinking about going to my kitchen and making some chopped up strawberries alongside some whipped cream since I'm very hungry right now.

Okay I'm not normally a big fan of salad but that looks so good and that's coming from a person who normally hates salad, though I try to eat other healthy foods to make up for it like strawberries. Honestly, I'm having an addiction to strawberries so I'll probably have those for my breakfast/lunch since if I don't, I'll end up trying to eat chips or something since this hunger is really starting to get to me.

It's currently 48°F and sunny outside so it could be worse but it says it's going to rain on Friday which is a shame since my appointment is on that day. Jeez, I really hate the weather sometimes since it always has to rain on the most inconvenient of days. I'll just have to make sure to bring a jacket so I don't walk into Daymark, the place I get my therapy from among other things, soaking wet.

Right now I'm thinking about my boyfriend and how much I miss him now. I wish I could spend Valentine's Day with him but can't since he has work today and won't be visiting until the 25th of this month which is taking forever to get here and I'm not sure why. I feel like me waiting and wanting time to speed up is why it probably feels like it's taking forever since it technically is.

Hm... That's a good question and I would say the world is crazy for the most part. I was watching the news at my grandmothers and they're making it seem like we're about to go to war with Russia but I hope that isn't true since I don't want another war, though I'm sure none of us want that. Also with Covid still being around and gas prices sky rocketing, it kind of feels like the planet itself is exploding from the inside right now. If this made you sad, don't be! Here's Flutterbat to comfort you: https://www.deviantart.com/tsaoshin/art/Flutterbat-448031033

I love shades of blue, purple, pink, cyan, and aqua.

Oh lord... Looks like I'm the outcast here but I do agree, smoking is very bad for you despite the fact that I do smoke. My mom, dad, brother, boyfriend, and mom's boyfriend smokes so it's kind of hard not to be exposed to it. I know I shouldn't smoke at all since I have Asthma but I try to limit my smoking to two to three cigarettes' a day. Sometimes I'll skip a day or two without smoking so it's not every single day but that doesn't make it alright either. I have no intention to make it a life-long habit so I'll probably stop around twenty-five to thirty years old.

I would say I use emojis a modest amount since I feel like putting too many is weird to me but maybe that's just me. I usually put them on the end of a message or if it's a longer message or reply, at the end of the paragraph to convey a little bit of emotion hehe.