... It's like hitting my head against a wall
You're citing "imperfect-perfection" as a reason. You say perfection doesn't exist in nature, perfection requires the removal of desire and emotion, there is nothing to live for in a perfect world (really? did you not see the quote ). What if, just if, your concept of "perfect" is imperfect? If that that is the case, then might there be another version, another definition of perfection? "There are more things in heaven and earth, [shire Pony Malinter](and others), then are dreamt of in your philosophy" -Shakespeare
What if "perfection" included: freewill, desire, emotion, no overpopulation, plenty of reason to live, and easy maintenance? I have to say that a world without those things doesn't seem like it would qualify as perfect.