SONICchaos

So unfortunately I went through a good handful of fake confessions by online guys who just wanted to mess with me and IRL girls I never believed considering they were all overly mean and demanding of me for ever since I knew them and they never really had a healthy interest in me to begin with. One of the girls who confessed her love was literally in bed with her boyfriend when she texted me about how much she wanted to see me. I've never had one girl give me an interest that wasnt emotionally unstable unfortunately. Because of all of that i'm very jaded toward confessions and really dont want to be but have been messed with enough in my life to no longer assume anything positive would turn out for me.

I often did go out midnight and later in high school with what little pocket money I had to get burritos from Del Taco a few times a week when I could. However, since college i've almost always had ready to make food available at home so its easy enough to just make whatever I want at home that doesnt take extra ingredients or a long cooking time. If im really lazy i'll just buy a chex mix or cheez it or chips or something to eat while at the computer when im feeling hungry. Basically I try and manage my expenses by not eating out more than twice a week which in general is better for your health too.

Sonic the "Spin to win" hedgehog

Do tell

A bit anxious trying to figure out how to juggle posting on message boards, playing computer games and browsing youtube at the same time

That there are very few Spaghetti Westerns with happy endings

Tried that new Mountain Dew "Spiked" which goes out of its way to advertise being "Non Alcoholic" because having it at a fountain drink machine at taco bell wasnt enough of a clue. Its apparently a Prickly Pear Cactus Lemonade and its actually pretty good. I mean I like all kinds of fruit drinks and this was at least better than Baja Blast ever was.

I used to...or rather still do. Its hard to explain Since about 2 years ago I had a massive anxiety episode that is still going on but at the time I had to start back on an Anti Anxiety medication that caused me alot of heavy side effects and played alot with my mind making me alot more indifferent to alot of earlier behaviors I have particularly always staying productive and active. Because just a massive level of anxiety caused by horrible sleep, fatigue and OCD thoughts I havent been able to concentrate at work or anything else like I used to. I put alot of pride in my effort and always wanted to keep pushing myself but as of now I havent been able to stay focused at work for longer than 15 minutes without needing a sort of "break" and im afraid its causing alot of bad work habits. Since my anxiety is still going on its really hard trying to break these habits and push myself despite still wanting to be constantly busy

95 High 70 Low (at night) Not a happy camper Especially because I still until 12:30pm

Considering i've only been on this site since November I think its only been a 7 months so i dont consider myself too much of a goober back them. Not to mention i've only been engaged in message boards since 2013 and im 31, I like to think i've handled being mature online pretty well.

So currently I only have 1 cat (not personally as its living with my parents at my old house) but originally had 3. Unfortunately the two others died in only the last 2 years which was really coincidental. Especially of unexpected causes. Currently the cat living with my parents is a female black long hair named "Rudy". She's 13 years old but still surprisingly active and playful. I think its because she's only ever been an indoor cat that she sees people everyday and got really used to the constant business and interaction. This also kinda gave her a bad case of "separation anxiety" and gets really scared to the point of throwing up when my parents would leave for only a few days on vacations. She didnt NEED to interact with people, only that she just needed to know others were near by. We adopted her as a new born kitten so she shouldnt have ever developed an abandonment issue like that so not sure why. In any case she's a real sweetie and loves people but has a habit of constantly begging for attention with loud meows and nipping at elbows and noses when you're sitting or laying down. She will scratch at your door at 5 in the morning when its ready for you to feed her. My two others cats that passed away both lived with use since they were kittens so none were adopted after 4 months or so. The sister to Rudy was "Brody" a fatty long hair turtle shell. She didnt have much of a personality outside of being terrified and jumping on laps of specific people. She was the most attached to me from I think 1 year and on. She would beg at my door to come in and jump on my lap whenever I was home whether sitting down or laying in my bed. Im not sure why she got attached espeically after that long but it could be something about males since she suddenly developed the same habits with my father when I left for college. She was terrified of everything including her own farts and food. She was super passive and always avoided her sisters even when it was meal time insisting to wait for them to finish before she would do so alone. She liked any kinds of pets from me even stomach rubs which she mostly just tolerated. She sadly developed an enlarged liver a year and a half ago after taking her up for a dental problem and had x-rays done which eventually she passed away from. The last of the cats we had was adopted I think only 2 years after the first pair we had so she's not related to the others in any way but my family just calls them all sisters. She was going to be given to along with her mother and siblings to an animal shelter by my sister's friend but my sister wanted to keep one of them so bad she basically convinced my mom to allow her to adopt one of the kittens. We went through a bunch of names with her but my mom decided out of a joke to just call her "no name" and thats basically what she was called. From day one she was super feisty and not at all a timid or passive cat. She loved her claws and teeth and used them often on her sisters and us. She wasnt mean per say but more wanted attention on "her time". If you wanted to give her attention and she wasnt interested she immediately grabbed your hand and bit the crap outta it. She was the only cat not scared of new people or the door bell ringing while the other two would leg it to whatever closet they could find. She also had a weird habit of wanting to see what you were eating. When you went to the table with human food she would jump up and smell it. She never wanted any and would become disinterested in food given to her but just had to know what you were eating. She eventually developed a bloody lump on her stomach that become enlarged and when taken up they found she had fatty tumor so bad there wasnt any likelihood she would survive especially at her age of 11. She was a fighter and proved to be one but my mom never wanted to put another cat through surgery or chemo again after a previous cat suffered so she said as soon as no name became obviously in pain she would be put down.