I get really upset and bottle up all my emotions inside until I feel I'm going to die. When my dad had to work overseas and relocated me to live with relatives in another state, I left everything and everyone I cared about behind and it damn near killed me. I'm not an outgoing person and not many people wanted to know me, so when I actually had friends I was extremely loyal to them, so leaving them was devastating. Luckily I met someone new who genuinely cared and it saved me. I have a different life now but it was pretty bad for a little while. So yeah, I take it hard and let the pain burn holes in me, so to speak, when I have to let go.