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I like to follow the Status Updates, since I'm more interested in the people. But I need to be inspired in a way, otherwise I don't talk much. The General Discussion is good for this.

Right? I think my mistake was that I couldn't accept this about myself in the past. Which, in the end, led to some big depression and as a result I did hurt and disappoint people way more. I was biting off more than I could chew. But after I accepted my limitations as well, things improved immensely! I can only offer so much and now others have to decide for themselves if that's enough or not. Today I feel full of power! I'm more talkative. But tomorrow? The energy might only be enough for 10 minutes. It really varies a lot. You probably understand what I'm talking about. In general, I'm convinced, that variety is always important in life. I always hoped to find "that one big thing" for me, but it never worked for me. Like drawing, I only enjoy it in small doses. When I return to it after half a year, it's super fun. Always. But not when I force myself to it. The same is true when it comes to people and alone time. *hugs* This calls for something!

It's only one of a few fragments, but I always remembered drinking from my baby bottle. The taste of the milk and that gummy nipple thing. One of them had a hole in the middle and another was shakable, there was glitter inside the plastic! I loved that! That probably influenced me a lot, I still like glitter stuff! Woooah, same! I don't remember the crib though.

No, that's impossible. No one disappoints me ever.

Sagittarius. And no, I'm not a believer.

I wish it was possible for me to change my surname in real life.

Not that much actually, even though I'm pretty much always listening to music. I'm often shaking my head though, haha. Humming more like 5 - 20 minutes per day?

Not doing it anymore, but the biggest mistake I did was running away from all sorts of things all the time. At first it was because of anxiety (and pressure) and then it turned into self-doubt. At some point I realized I can never become the person people deserve and I thought everyone and the world would be better off without me. I mean...it's kinda true. If you want someone strong, talkative and fun, I would be the worst friend for you. But I learned that there are actually people who accept me anyway! And this really changed my outlook. I'm living as myself now, even if I would end up all alone, but I'm not running away anymore.

I try to take it as easy as possible. I'm normally always doing something, but in this case I would just watch FIM episodes or YouTube videos.

A black-white-black striped guinea pig.

A washcloth! For 28 years, I always had it. Until 1 or 2 years ago; it just fell apart! Just like that! It had 2 small, cute bears on it.

To be as positive and happy as I can.

"epic banana"? Well, I would like to know.

It's easier to hide when everyone else is standing while I keep sitting on my butt.

Both. I don't want to be without friends, but I need my solitary time as well to recharge my batteries. As long as people are positive and can accept my quiet nature, it's all good.

I'm 30, but I look more like 23/24.

In June 8th, 2020, it was this one by @TomDaBombMLP: https://mlpforums.com/profile/46378-tomdabombmlp/?status=990000&type=status I don't regret brohoofing it!

Most of my dreams were always nightmares. Or at least weird dreams. Humans or monsters or zombies trying to kill me. Normally I would always run away, but the worst dreams are when I'm traped in a dark, wet and rusty place, deep underground. In the harmless nightmares the humans I know in real life just hate me and look at me with disgust and judgmental.

Exactly, this.