Describe your dark side.

[Deathstroke 1,564]

My bad side on a nutshell: (skip to 1:20 to know what i mean)

 

 

NEVER GET ON MY BAD SIDE GOT IT!!!!? ....... Er I mean got it my friend?  

Edited July 19, 2014 by Desert guardian

[duidamasterXD 9,626]

Ever since I was young, I've had the very bad habit of withdrawing when I feel overwhelmed. Whether into hobbies, other work, spending time with friends, anything that helps me just get away for a little while and not have to worry about what life's throwing my way. Out of this habit comes passivity, unreliability and many other things I don't really like about myself. And when I think about how these tendencies are hurting me and the people I care about, I beat myself up for a while and eventually just move onto something else that'll distract me. And wouldn't you know it, nothing ever gets resolved this way . It's just a big fun cycle of addiction, avoidance and guilt that I'm trying to break myself out of.

 

Tied into all of this, I'm pretty self-centered. Which doesn't mean I'm not happy to help out others when an opportunity arises, but again, I'm usually very wrapped up in my own thoughts and problems--and how to avoid them--so I can seem distant and uncaring even to the people who are very important to me.

 

In contrast to this, I can also be very very clingy when it comes to others. When I trust and really care about somebody, I sometimes get mushy and silly to the point where I often worry if I'm bothering them. Depends on the person and mood I'm in, of course, but I'm very overly-attached and worrywarty when it comes to many of my friendships.

 

In a nutshell, I spend too much time looking for things and people to make me happy instead of confronting my problems, feeling a sense of accomplishment, and helping out others with their own problems. 

[Pinkamena-Pills 6,839]

@@Zygen,You made a very,very honest post. 

 

 

Here's a octavia clap.

 

[Admiral Regulus 2,769]

@,Ok. You're honesty inspired me to write this dark-side reveal:

 

 

 

I have buried by 'other half' very deep within my mind.

 

 

 

However...if i was given a button to press and it would wipe all all of humanity and leave only those i feel are 'worthy'(yes were going deep) you have no idea how difficult it would be to not press that button; i would struggle internally,and i fear i may go to press the button..

Until a pink pony puts her hoof on my right shoulder; looks me in the eyes and tells me "Give them Joy,not Death".

 

...and i just cried silently while writing this. ugh...

 

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Take this as you will,and im very very sorry if ive offended anyone.

This is honestly one of the best things I've read on here. That's pretty symbolic, actually--and it's heartwarming to read that Pinkie is capable of convincing you not to do it.

 

*That,* my friends, is what it means to be a brony.

[RainbowPastel 185]

But seriously and honestly, I flip if I don't get what I want, if someone doesn't stop doing things that annoy me when I tell them to, when no one listens to me and hears me out on my problems, when I look at everyone else's lives and they're having so much fun and experiencing so much and all I do is sit at home because apparently I'm not allowed to have fun in my family and then they rub their great lives in my face like....

 

 

 

 

 

The mildest could be is depression. I get quiet and complain.

The bad ones are what they call "tantrums" or "meltdowns." I hate it when they call it that. I yell, scream, throw things, and the worst is when I get physical or I threaten one with a weapon.

I have a list of the most memorable things I've broken out of anger:

• 4 doors
• A car windsheild
• The plastic hook that holds up the visor in the car
• The home phone
• Dented and stabbed(knife) walls
• A couple of brushes
• 2 remote controls

Oh And I slapped my dad across the face and called my grandma a bitch (well my dad deserved it and my grandma is a bitch)

 

Sometimes I act like I'm proud of these things I did (hey! I got guts!) but I really do regret them after while.

 

EDIT

anyway besides my anger issues, I have my terrible sense of humor! It's great til the extent where I offend someone. My jokes are often mostly perverted, racist, and sometimes sadist.

I like seeing others in pain. Idk why! I think it's because the gory ones I watch are effects for entertainment purposes. I watch shows like Untold Stories of the ER and see pple come in with crowbars sticking out of their heads or I watch torture-porn themed movies like Saw, Human Centipede, and A Darker Reality. A couple years back I used to watch REAL ones from gore websites.

Edited July 19, 2014 by RainbowPastel

[Ziggy + Angel + Rain 11,301]

@Zygen, here's something I took away from your post:

 

You're flawed.  You know / acknowledge that you're flawed.  You feel some manner or degree of regret / remorse.

 

^ There are seriously people in my family that act as though they can do no wrong.  As though they're either infallible or morality / moral responsibility doesn't apply to them in quite the same way it applies to others.  People that will deny and defend their faults rather than admit to them; assuming they even possess the self-awareness to identify said faults.

 

You aren't like that.  Therefore YOU > some stupid a**es in my OWN family.

[Zygen 6,066]

@Zygen, here's something I took away from your post:

 

You're flawed.  You know / acknowledge that you're flawed.  You feel some manner or degree of regret / remorse.

 

^ There are seriously people in my family that act as though they can do no wrong.  As though they're either infallible or morality / moral responsibility doesn't apply to them in quite the same way it applies to others.  People that will deny and defend their faults rather than admit to them; assuming they even possess the self-awareness to identify said faults.

 

You aren't like that.  Therefore YOU > some stupid a**es in my OWN family.

I suppose acknowledging your flaws is a good thing, the problem is the sheer volume of flaws that I have overshadows most of the good aspects. 

 

But true, people who cannot admit to their flaws can be quite annoying. And I don't have issues pointing out my flaws for sure. I'll admit to that.

 

Of course while people don't tend to like super narcissistic people, people tend not to like people who are low on self esteem and negative and stuff.

 

Regardless thanks for your kind words.

[iceestarz 5,760]

My anger, sometimes I want to pop people square in the nose. Fitting in is something I desire so much, even to the point of drinking until I want to puke my brains out just to look cool. Not to mention the way I dress. I used to wear whatever the hell I wanted to, but lately I've been so desperate to be accepted by somebody so I buy clothes that helps me blend in with the outgoing social privileged trashy preps. Funny though, I want to feel loved yet also just want to be left alone. I hate socializing, I would rather just everyone back the heck up and leave me alone most of the time. Not that they did anything wrong particularly, they just exist and find it necessary to exist next to me. If I could just be a lazy couch potato for the rest of my life I wouldn't even care. I would rather sit on my butt all day instead of actually do things for a living.

 

Also I daydream about slicing the heads off of annoying people in my class sometimes. Is that wrong?   

[Ziggy + Angel + Rain 11,301]

Oh And I slapped my dad across the face and called my grandma a bitch (well my dad deserved it and my grandma is a bitch)

The parts in bold are the main reasons I gave your post a brohoof lol.  I've also done the first thing, annnnd the second thing is also true of my grandmother.

 

And if anyone in this topic knew my grandmother, you would think so, too.  Really, though, I regret having called her that...  I ought to have said evil, manipulative, controlling, abusive, self-centered, spiteful, utterly lacking in self-awareness...  And did I mention evil??  But, alas, the B-word is all that came out.

[Pinkamena-Pills 6,839]

The parts in bold are the main reasons I gave your post a brohoof lol.  I've also done the first thing, annnnd the second thing is also true of my grandmother.

 

And if anyone in this topic knew my grandmother, you would think so, too.  Really, though, I regret having called her that...  I ought to have said evil, manipulative, controlling, abusive, self-centered, spiteful, utterly lacking in self-awareness...  And did I mention evil??  But, alas, the B-word is all that came out.

Jeez,was your grandmother Maleficent? XD

[Ziggy + Angel + Rain 11,301]

Jeez,was your grandmother Maleficent? XD

Please, do not compliment my grandmother lol.

[Invincible 2,091]

I don't like talking about it too much, but suffice to say i had huge anger issues. When i was little, i had a lot of anger pent up inside me. I was always in conflict with other people, almost on a daily basis. The last time i lashed out in anger i hurt someone very close to me.

 

Today i'm much more tolerant, and i always make an effort of will to be the calmest i can be. But on rare occasions, i get so frustrated and irked that my stoicism cracks and i snap to some degree. I don't let this happen often, so when people see me like that they know something's up. 

[RavenholmZombie 1,330]

My friends know not to make me angry because I will snap at them (I tend to have a rather short temper.)

 

When I'm angry, I'll start to raise my voice and inject a more malicious tone into my words. I'll also start to cuss... a lot
 

However, I maintain some control of my body when I'm blinded by anger. My friends know that they've successfully ticked me off when I storm out of the room. I was like that in school too. If someone made me angry, I'd eject myself from the situation and go somewhere quiet to blow off some steam.

 

However, on the bright side, I don't tend to hold grudges against people for long amounts of time. Unless they've done something to me that warrants me holding a very long grudge. When I'm not angry, I'm a very calm, nice, and understanding guy who is not afraid to stand up for both himself, his family, and his friends.

[TheDarkMysteryMan 670]

Looks like I might have to redo my dark side. I'll give it another go.

 

First off, I would say that most of the free time I use is me getting my major in computer science information and engineering/coding, doing my taxes, and when I'm at home with my little brother. I could say I have a life and say I go hangouts with my friends,or even say I was having those super best friend moments where they would go to the beach and throw around a frissbee, but then I would a fucking liar.

 

My life is not the highlights of entertainment. Infact, It's pretty time consuming because of school and work being my top priority...and it gets really lonely...

 

Because of this, I can't see my family that much. But as much as some other person would love to see thier family after being gone for soo long, that's not happenong here. I don't like my family members. I hate them. I despise them...I never wanted them around me. It was because of them IS why I'm such a dick to others who're only there to help me. They always looked down at me, saying in mean words like,"waste of space," or,"I fucking hate you." At first it only came from my uncle; I don't have parents because they're dead. But when it comes from your grandmother who's been taking care of you since your mother and father died, it hurts. Both mentally and physically.

 

All the times of hatred to me lead to something inside me to rot away, something I never had thought was possible; I hated my own family. It made me depressed and cause me to push away anyone who wanted to help me or even wanted to say hi to me up.

 

My darker side of full of sadness, anger, and hatred. It hurts...it really does. It hurts...I want it to go away. But it stays woth me, haunting me everyday, knowing that I could just SNAP any moment..

Why do I feel like crying. Wait, I am crying...

[SparklingSquirrels 21,298]

I wouldn't call it a "dark side", since that makes me sound a lot more violent then I am. I would just call it my flaws.

 

I can become really impatient, so that's one thing, and I also tend to get upset over small things that aren't worth getting upset over. :/

 

I sometimes get jealous as well, but not to the point where I'd consider it a flaw of mine.

[Jennabun 1,579]

Despite all my self esteem issues, I can still get an ego from attention and compliments, where my ego soars in my head, usually it stays in my head atleast and I don't brag about it, but on occasions I do. I also might try to showoff or something in order to get attention or compliments.

Dude. I feel like I could have wrote this exact same thing about me.

 

 

I am a terrible person, why people associate with me on any level baffles my understanding.

Having negative traits doesn't make someone a horrible person. It just makes you a person! As you can see from this thread, we all have some awful shit going on inside of ourselves. And I can tell you that, despite the bad stuff, you kick ass.

[Naiya The Brony 481]

My dark side? Well.. To tell you the truth, I am afraid of myself. I might do something very crazy and dreadful to someone When i am out of control or got very pissed, like Hulk angry. I can't really control my anger, until when i was 14 but now I can control it and don't get angry easily. But still, even though i can control my anger I am still afraid on the things i can do when i get very angry, I will loose control, I don't care what will happen to the person who really gets on my nerves and i don't care if I hurt the person very hard just as long I know that person deserves it all and I'm afraid that, without my normal sense... I might end up threatening that person's life.

I remember when I was young, I think I was 10 or 9 back then. I was very insecure Jolly though also easily tempered. we were playing Basketball and this guy, a friend of my friend used to tease me, I forgot what it is but he teased me to the point where I can't held my anger back. Then I grabbed this 90 KG tricycle, I think and threw it on him. Lucky it missed and they were afraid of me from that point.There's also this story.... but i don't want to tell it because it will only make me remember how horrible i am as a kid.

Now I can easly control my anger, in fact I don't get angry at all but I am still afraid of myself because I might get out of control and end up hurting someone really bad

[Miles 2,512]

I have a list of the most memorable things I've broken out of anger:

• 4 doors
• A car windsheild
• The plastic hook that holds up the visor in the car
• The home phone
• Dented and stabbed(knife) walls
• A couple of brushes
• 2 remote controls

Oh And I slapped my dad across the face and called my grandma a bitch (well my dad deserved it and my grandma is a bitch)

 

Sometimes I act like I'm proud of these things I did (hey! I got guts!) but I really do regret them after while.

 

 

Okay, so, now you've got me making a list:

• 3 doors (speaking of only wooden doors)
• 2 windows in doors that had glass windows
• a car's side-mirror
• truck's shifter handle (automatic)
• a part of the ceiling that hangs too low now has a dent from a baseball bat (when walking down the stairs, I'd hit my head sometimes)
• some brushes
• a few tv switches (remotes)

Like I said before, got into an argument with my dad and he wouldn't speak to me for 3 days.  I've never hit anyone...  I take my anger out on inanimate objects.  

 

But honestly, I am rarely ever even in that crazy mood.  I think people would pay to have the amount of tolerance/patience that I have.  I always do my best to turn the other cheek.  And usually I can.

[GuardianFenix 63]

My dark side. It has only truly come out once in my life. It was during one of my millions of fights with my stepmom. She tried grabbing me, and I put a fist up at her as a "stay away from me or you're getting it" warning, but she didn't listen and swung at me, hitting me in the face. She was about to swing at me again, and I grabbed her by the wrist. After that, my vision went completely black, and I just started destroying everything in sight.

And when I came to, my stepmom was writhing on the floor, missing an arm, her car was completely torn to pieces, her collection of religious antiques were destroyed (I had nothing against Christianity, but she deserved it), the front door was in a thousand pieces, and there was about 6 giant dents in the stone walls of the living room. I don't know if I did that, but... yeah. I never saw her again after that. She's alive, but I'm glad that controlling bitch is out of my life...

[Lightning Bliss 1,674]

I guess if I were to really describe in detail of my 'evil' or 'dark' side, it would start in stages.

 

It starts as a festering linger of many small things that would annoy or anger most people of the population. You were treated bad at work, had to clean your room, make the bed, forgot to eat, couldn't take  shower cause your little sister used up all the hot water. Several factors and you just don't get a break... thats how it starts... They are many things that make me anger, and I hide them, where they sit and fester, like a zit waiting to be popped.

 

Meanwhile, while the anger festers, I'm very super quiet...thats the first sign something is wrong. I'm not smiling, I'm not talking, I'm not making eye contact, or any efforts of socalizing. That's the first of the dark side.... Then...out of no where, comes the trigger. Now the trigger can be big or small, but it is the needle, that eventually pops that festering zit. My anger erupts like a beast, I roar, I cuss, I get this horrible look in the eye. My  mother would describe it as the "eye of a predator, wanting to kill something". Someone usually gets hurt on an emotional level by my verbal assaults.

 

I would say the only reason I keep this in control, is that I'm able to talk out those angers that started the fester to begin with, or I hunker down, hide out in my room, and draw or watching some tunes, and work out the issues myself.

 

Rest assure citizens of the MLPFs, this alicorn is NO threat to you lol.

[yeet 2,026]

Just imagine an english frankie boyle. That is basically my dark side. And it mostly comes out when I'm ill.

[Zygen 6,066]

Dude. I feel like I could have wrote this exact same thing about me.

 

 

Having negative traits doesn't make someone a horrible person. It just makes you a person! As you can see from this thread, we all have some awful shit going on inside of ourselves. And I can tell you that, despite the bad stuff, you kick ass.

I guess, I just feel like I have a ton of negative traits, some of which are just ugh. 

 

But I guess maybe your right, maybe I'm just being hard on myself. And my low self esteem probably doesn't help the matter lol.

 

And thanks, , means alot to hear. 

 

Your pretty kick ass yourself .

[DragonKing235 198]

My dark side is well to hard for me to talk about lol

[Cosmonaut 76]

For me, I get really, REALLY depressed. I become cynical, not caring for anything in the world (except of course those around me) and I have no creativity what so ever. I critique EVERYTHING, and I'm not too good to be around. I hate that part of me.... -_-    

[KitsuneSoul108 102]

i can have somewhat of a short fuse if angered.

Something that can become a negative is sometimes im overprotective,and i might be a pessamist. Also,i tend to bring myself down, and being a perfectionist doesnt help with that problem,but thats enough about me.

i dont want to make myself look negative on the internet,i can be a very happy person,its just some things set me off....