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Cteno (Blue girl) is my background to my computer. Goat Girl (Red background with the headphones) is my lock screen to my phone (I tend to post some form of my artwork as my lock screen to keep me motivated) Bunny girl (sipping on the straw) Is my background to my phone after the lock screen. I just wanted something relatively calm and relaxing in the background.

Cool beans. I have actually never run a speed test at school.

Winslow by Rishloo. It is the full album, but the link should take you right to Winslow. https://youtu.be/Ubn06zXq8GA?t=2257

Might be fun. Try your best. Comet Cloudburster

Because apparently there are no youtube videos of this guy I'll have to link his bandcamp where you can listen to it. I guess it would be instrumental metal, but it is hard to place. Chaotrope is one of my favorite instrumental metal (chiptune, prog metal, whatever he wants to call it) bands.

I was thinking about writing my 3 lab reports and studying for an exam.

Other than that, practice makes better because you'll never get perfect. It's a process that took me quite some time to get the hang of and you just learn how things lay. Now this purely depends if you are shooting for your own original style ponies or if you are shooting for show style ponies.

That is a great improvement. My one point is the back legs. The joint area where the part of the leg comes out on the back side, the other side has this bump like a kneecap. The back legs, at least how I handle it is a circle for the entire hip. Then you draw a line down with a slight curve before picking a spot about that and extending out that other piece of leg. This point where that extra thickness is added to the outside of the leg is also where the inner leg gets the most narrow at that point and smoothly transitions to bend forward and end at more of a point than the other side. This would serve as the "toe" and front of the hoof. The front legs have a bit too much of a bend in it and could be a bit thicker, but it isn't that bad at all. This isn't the best example, but here is what i am seeing and what can be improved. I hope that helps =] Other than that, listen to SkyBound. That is basically the tutorial I used quite some time ago to draw show version of the ponies.

I'm good around people as well, but I do have this love/hate relationship with being around people physically. I need my breaks from them and actually my anxiety that I get from being around people got to the point that it was hard for me to mentally leave my dorm to hang out with friends. It didn't make me depressed, but it did hurt my social life a bit. That was pretty much the time when my girlfriend mentioned going to the doctor's to talk about my stress and my anxiety. I now have a bottle of pills and being around people is easier. It isn't the best still, but the medicine in no way impedes me, it just takes the edge off of being with people. That is one avenue you can take. As for depression, my one friend who always came off as a pretty happy guy was actually completely broken inside. One night, after he was drinking a bit and we were alone getting ready to play some games, he got serious and started asking me serious questions about things like if my parents have told me that they love me and how I viewed him as a friend and if my brother hates him. All the while tears breaking from his eyes. I told him that he should probably see a doctor or a psychiatrist to help him through his depression. The next day he arranged it all and in a few days he had visits with a psychiatrist and a bottle of anti-depressants and anti-anxiety medication. He is almost the same guy, but he looks calmer and happier. So basically the same option as listed above. The rough thing about depression isn't that you are sad or that you have no one. Depression is completely that you are sad when you have no reason to be sad and that you are lonely even when surrounded by friends. In a cold way, depression is a chemical imbalance in your brain and it will not go away unless something changes. You either change your environment, your perspective, or your brain chemistry with medication. When I was in high school, I pretty much had no friends. I was socially awkward. I was believed to be that kid that would go on a shooting rampage. I wasn't depressed early on, but eventually I began to notice how easily forgotten I was and it began my decline. I tried to actually talk to people and I only came off as creepy and awkward. That's when the depression hit me the hardest. I tried to get a girl to like me and that completely fell apart and back fired. It made me feel absolutely worthless and my solution to it was to lock myself in my bathroom in the basement with the lights turned off and sit in the pure darkness and silence of that room. It helped slightly, but I grew to hate the world because of my depression. Nothing felt fair. Everything felt like it was going wrong and that people didn't just know me, but they disliked my very being. And I made that all up in my head and it tore me down. One night, I just laid in bed staring at the ceiling in the darkness feeling absolutely empty inside when I went to the bathroom with a knife and just sat down and wondered if physical pain could stop the overwhelming sadness in my head. That was when I changed my perspective on the world. No self harm was committed that night and I actually smiled. It took some practice, but I stuck with staying social with people despite them generally thinking I'm creepy, but I stopped making it about me. I made it about them. Just asked general nonsense questions like asking about favorite music and I stopped caring about how I was coming off to people. I stopped worrying about if they hated me or not. I was not happy, but I knew other people were happy. I was depressed, but I knew other people were not as depressed or didn't show depression. I latched onto that and found my escape through the joy of other people. That was when I made it my general goal to make people smile and enjoy their happiness to fill the void of mine. I asked the girl I creeped out to prom and was denied, but I picked myself up from it and asked someone else. I realized that nothing is lasting and that if I mess up, then I mess up. Who cares? I did what every psychiatrist would tell you not to do. I completely buried my depression and just acted like everything was fine inside my head and just talked to people. Eventually I got better at it and slowly it helped ease my depression. I later learned that at least two other people had wanted to ask me to prom because they they I was interesting and attractive. Another huge boost to my goals. I still didn't get a girlfriend, but I was okay with that and I pressed forward with being moderately jolly. I made my presence known and let out hints about my interests and people began to talk to me and ask to talk to me when switching classes. I broke the hole I was in by just looking at my life differently and buried all the hate I had for it and of the planet So did I beat my depression? No. I only buried it behind layers of masks and emotional barriers. I led on an act to show myself that I was wrong about my views. Only in recent years have the concern of my resurfacing depression has come into question by my girlfriend, parents, and family. I would say my breakdowns are exceptionally volatile in the sense of they just happen and I just fall apart and sob, but do I feel as miserable and empty as before? Not at all. I broke the large portion of my depression by just acting like a regular person and by not caring about if people seen me in bad light. I am at the stage where I will tackle my deep seated depression once and for all and have been ready to contact a psychiatrist. There are resources out there that can really help you cope with the depression and all it does is remove the chemical imbalance in your brain that is causing it to happen. As for stress in generally, music is good. I actually crafted a world inside my head where all the negative thoughts were a tangible slime that was gripped to my skin and that I would enter a hot spring and watch it all float off my body. I realized these feelings were not the result of the environment, but my own brain. I figured that I would not be a slave to my mind so I fought back against it. My mind would say, "You are sad and lonely" and I would just ignore it and say. "I'm happy and moving forward in life". It helps to create a bit of an ego about yourself and to uphold all the good you are capable of doing. I ignored all the negative aspects I had about my life and tried to find a way to make them positives. I was quiet, which made me a good listener. I was brutally honest to the point of being creepy and insulting, but people trusted asking me important questions because they knew I would answer them truthfully. I didn't have a girlfriend, but I had more money for whatever I wanted. It helped me see that I was the one forming the bad thoughts. It was I who was maintaining my depression and keeping me buried in a pit of my own despair and sadness. I rationalized it and just removed it from my life (I buried it) and it helped me get my life together. The best way to break your depression is to first believe that you are completely and perfectly fine with how you are. Your responses and social interactions may have been awkward just because you were trying too hard or overthinking the question. Just answer them truthfully and segue it if they haven't answered the question they asked. Ease yourself into everything and the moment you get uncomfortable, just disappear again until you can calm down and try again. Don't force anything in terms of conversation. Just general questions and general information about them to learn. See the same person on the bus? Ask the cliche question about the weather. It will be awkward at first, but maybe find some common ground. Find someone who likes ponies and that will drive the conversation and give you someone that you canr relate to. Everything can help mask your depression, but it will never go away unless you take measures to remove such feelings. You'll do great. Music you love helps.

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After reading the lyrics, ME!ME!ME! feat. daoko by Teddyloid has been the most recent song that got some feels from me. Don't worry it's not the music video. The music video is NSFW. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6HQlO4pw8So

I think it is pretty well done. I tend to prefer .7 mechanical pencils whenever I do draw, but that's because I break the lead easily. Good work. Now draw the rest of the body. =p

There are a few things I guess that people do that annoy me. 1) Throw a ball against the wall separating my dorm from their dorm like I can't hear the ball colliding with the wall. Happened a few days ago and one time it was 1AM. 2) People talking over me when I am in the middle of a sentence for a completely unrelated topic to the person I'm talking to. Still pretty common despite me telling them that they do it. 3) People making unsubstantiated claims and just telling me that I am wrong, because I am wrong and they believe themselves to be right and when I back up all my claims with peer reviewed journals they say I wasted my time because they refuse to read any of it because they don't have time while they post blog posts and top 10 clickbait articles to prove their points. Used to be pretty common when I enjoyed debating. 4) People assuming things about myself because I classify myself as an atheist. Not too common, but has happened too much. 5) People who put the F-word into every single sentence and replaces every period with "You know what I mean?" (Really... I know such a person). College Freshmen. 6) Butthurt gamers/smack talking gamers. Who cares, it's a game. You beat me in a fictional world, doesn't improve your life in the slightest. League of Legends, must I say more? 7) People trying to convert me (sort of ties in to 4). Not overly too common, but it has happened far too often. 8) People assuming that because I enjoy furry art that I must like bestiality. I just find it fresh to see non-human, yet humanesque art. I find it creative. Facebook people and people who see me drawing not pony related materials. 9) People who write messages like how they talk. I'm talking about the barely legible stuff. Normally in comment sections of articles or facebook. 10) People who have no integrity. We were to give presentations to the class. Person was called up to present and the teacher told her to present to the class as he left for a bathroom break and she just stood in front of the class saying how dumb the class was and how she is just going to pretend that she presented. 50% of the grade is student grading. I know many people probably gave her a perfect score too, but I graded her fairly on what the grading criteria was and gave comments as per requested. She stated her purpose which was worth 5 points and then she stopped. I graded her visual aid, and she answered a question so she got full points there. Everything else, I failed her and wrote out what she did. You can call it snitching or whatever, but when you are in a class that is teaching you how to be a proper scientist and you don't take it seriously and have no integrity as a student or a scientist, I have zero respect for you as a person and I will grade you accordingly. Lack of integrity I see fairly common in college. And there is my top 10. Woo!

The Big Black by The Quick Brown Fox...

My friends and myself would agree that I am brutally honest. This is mostly because I lack a heavy dose of empathy and I just prefer being honest. Hence, I've had people come to me for advice because they know I won't sugar coat it in anyway. But then again, there are always situations where lying is okay and preferable to maintain peace.

Here is how I handle third and first person since I use them inter-changeably in my disjointed story of Comet and Creator (First part was a third person perspective of the entire events surrounding the characters. Third person is free to establish a setting as if you are looking down at the scene from some omnipresent position. You know what all characters are thinking and what they will all do. This allows for some nice scenery to be established and what not. The strength of first person is that you limit the scope of the story to just one person/pony. You can immerse your readers in their emotions, their doubts, and their joy. And despite first person being more limited than third person, there is one door that this opens up. You can be a deceptive narrator. You can make your character see things that aren't there, hear things that never made a sound and generate an air of paranoia. You can mislead the reader into thinking ill of other characters just because the character you are telling the story from distrusts them and has reasons for why they distrust them. If we were in third person, it would just generate an irony because we would know that the characters aren't thinking that way and their actions were not a part of some plan to go against the other character. Take for instance a surprise birthday party. In third person, you'd describe the scene and it would generally be difficult to get a good sense of the character that is to receive the party. Using some tropes, they see that everyone is avoiding them (because they are preparing this party). They begin thinking that they did something wrong and try to associate it with some event. In 3rd person, that is a bit difficult to really drive home while avoiding mentioning that it was for a surprise birthday. Now put yourself into their perspective. Now you can just breed distrust and loneliness as they think they've done something wrong or they found out about some secret that is damning to their perceived personality. The limited scope would be used more efficiently to generate some nice suspense. As others have said, put yourself into their shoes/hooves and be your character. Keep a general sense of where you want to go with your story, but have your character respond to events as per their created personality. I write with set events in mind, but with no clear build up to any of those events. I just craft my character's personalities and put them into the world with a slight driving force to push them into the story. Then it is all reactionary based events. If I feel that the character would not be able to make it to Story Arc A, then maybe I have some contingencies that would still move the story forward without removing the flow. If you wish to keep Story Arc A, you just pull in some outside force to drive them to that point of interest and you resume the reactionary steps. An equally important feature to remember is how other characters see your character. If you are constantly worried and they are a character that concerns themselves with others, then your character will impact them and therefore they should be included that is, if they see your distress, which you can hide physically as you write it out mentally. Other characters can see through the physical masks and will pry at your character. Again, the best course of action would be to place yourself in their shoes/hooves and answer it how your character would answer it. Would they avoid the question? And another important point when writing in first person, avoid overusing "I", "me", and "my". There are plenty of ways to just describe a scene without it being all related to the character. Including the character: "The sun hurt my eyes as it shone brilliantly over the golden fields of wheat that moved like the soft waves of the ocean." Without the character: "The sun brightly hung in the sky casting a golden glow on the fields of wheat that moved like the soft waves of the ocean." This avoids stagnating the generally the most important words in a first person perspective. You can still make general third person descriptions of the scenery that the character can see without invoking the character immediately. If you take my example, you can use the second version and then have the ability for the character to add some emotional qualifier to the scenery, like a memory or an emotion. Again, this is just to avoid stagnating the words by overusing them. That's all I got at the moment, but I can answer specific questions to the best of my ability.

I have finished my coloring and drawing of Creator. Enjoy. And of course the story that goes with the picture. This post has been updated into the original post since I already had a saved spot for his stuff in it. My next project will be Eyn Spyyr, my first ever crafted OC pony. I haven't decided if I want to capture him in his madness or in his prime.

I find the mathematical formulae used in idle games by collecting data at different points and then map it in excel. This is the one for swarm simulator. Honestly, I found it more enjoyable doing this than I thought it would be. https://www.dropbox.com/s/98cvxeeqff1k967/SwarnSimulatorMutation%20Predictor.xlsx?dl=0

My only statement in terms of the statistical probability argument is that if you start from now and work backwards, everything is so improbable that it can be classified as impossible. You are in 2nd grade sitting in homeroom, or your equivalent name. Every person has a specific birthdate and name associated to that birthdate. There are kids that have elevated to the 2nd grade and there are people who have been held back. The class is allowed to sit wherever they so decide to sit thereby placing them in a specific order within the class. What are the statistical probability for that school to have that class composition and class order? When we factor in everything for every individual students and their conception and their birth and where the parents moved and when they enrolled the child and so on, that classroom is wholly unique and will statically never exist anywhere else in the universe. Should we therefore declare that the classroom has been pre-determined by some higher being? What if because of this class set up you found the love of your life who happened to sit next to you? What are the chances? That is why for statistical analysis you have to start from the beginning end point and work your way forward. When you do that, the probability for anything happening is relatively high. Take for instance a bacterium. We see that it has the capacity to make small changes to its structures to accommodate the changing environments. We know that it has a 50% chance to mutate every generation. The mutations are random, but certain mutations are more beneficial than others. Single flagella bacteria in a food rich environment will be beaten out by two flagella bacteria because they are faster. At the same instance, in a low food environment, the single flagella bacteria would generally thrive as they would require roughly half the needed energy and can conserve what food they get. Keep progressing and adding/removing parts slowly over time and you eventually get an different organism. That organism was not the end goal for that bacteria. The end goal was just who survived more upon each step of environmental pressures. If the world was slightly different and the love of your life didn't go to that school, but was replaced with another individual, life would have gone on without a problem. You would have found someone else later down the line or maybe this person becomes your best friend, who knows? There is no set outcome for events there are just outcomes and we make of them what we will. If we push the timescale back and say humans never evolved, that mutation never happened. The only thing that would change would be another dominant species would have arose and would have had the same improbability of existing as us if we go backwards. But forwards, and applying the environmental pressures progressively through the entire existence, and we are probable with something unique as any other creature. We can't breathe underwater. We can't survive without our heads. We can't go great lengths without food or water. But there are animals out there that can do that. So a message that you can take from this, if we start from now and look back into time, it is next to impossible that you are sitting here reading this or even that I wrote this at this very second. The amount of events necessary to have led us to this point are staggeringly improbable. It gives a sense of feeling relatively special when you look at it that way. It makes mundane events that much more miraculous to have even happened when it did or to have met the people that you have met and will meet in your life. All of it, if we look from now and go backwards it is miraculous. But going the other direction... everything is more mundane and probable. It just depends on how you look at it and many people can derive their spirituality and/or their religion from this outlook. I enjoy the thought of both. One keeps me grounded while the other fills me with wonder and marvel. Take it how you will.

Geez... I looked at this thread and thought it would be easy and then I realized that I play games that don't have any win conditions. They are mostly just survive until you lose games with no end goals. This includes Don't Starve, Don't Starve Together, Project Zomboid, and Starbound. I haven't finished a number of games that I want to finish... so I actually have to reach back pretty far to find a game that has an end goal that I've beaten... I would have to say the last game that had an end to it that I beat was Super Hexagon... and that was a year ago.

If by Atheist you mean a strong atheist, then yes, I am not a strong atheist. I am a weak atheist, or an agnostic atheist. I don't know if a God or gods exist in this reality and if given sufficient evidence for the existence of a God I will believe, but thus far I have seen both no evidence or reason for their to be a God so I lean on the atheism side more often than not. I will stay there until sufficient evidence for the existence of God has been provided. This is similar to how you'd talk about fairies, Big Foot, and Nessie. I am skeptical of their existence and since no solid evidence has been given, I will assume the null hypothesis that they don't exist since it isn't a positive claim. Hence, I am an agnostic atheist, not a strong atheist, and I am very much open to changing my views if I get undeniable evidence for such an existence. Until then, God is placed in the category of fairies, Big Foot, and Nessie. ...now of course if you mean atheist as all shades of atheist including those who have a potential of converting, then I do not fit into this thread. I could say I used to hold some spiritual views of the world, but they too have fallen by the wayside, but that is irrelevant.

I've been torn between Sybreed, System of a Down, Periphery, and The Browning. Sybreed Why I am hooked on this band? It has an interesting combination of techno sound combined with some solid metal to it. Plus that cover art fits with my love of cyborgs and robotic augmentation. System of a Down Just a solid band with some nice sound with exceptional singing without being too heavy. They are most relaxing metal that I listen to. Periphery Djent? Metal? Some nice heavy sounds and drums that make me smile. The Browning You want more metal in your face than what Sybreed can give you, along with darker techno sounds? The Browning would be that blend. I normally listen to this when I write my Organic Chemistry Lab Reports. It is a wonderful stress reliever.

I don't have either of them, but my brother has a PS4 and if I had to pick, I'd also pick the PS4. I mostly just want it for Bloodborne and hopefully if they allow porting of my Rock Band 3 (300+ songs) DLC from XBox360 to PS4, Rock Band 4.