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Overtime, I feel more and more out of place. As if I was born from the ‘old era’ and being put (reborn) in this generation, not allowing me to rest. My body may be a 30 year old male born in the 90s, standing here alive in 2024, but my mind still stuck in the past written in a history book. I feel homesick sometime and my mind is often restless. I feel I have so much to share but do not have the obligation to do so due to never experiences it. It may be that I’m either just a dreamer or a nostalgist.
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I have wrote a research paper based on my research that I did. But sadly never got a chance to publish it. I never completed a full book..really. I’m more of a one-shot guy with writing short stories and films. I like my stories to deliver a massage and story telling. I’m not so good writing a long term effect story plot. It’s not that I don’t have the talent for it, it’s more devoting my time on it. However, my only writing a book attempt was related to WW2 take in a more fantastical world in a noir style. So it has bit of nonfiction and fiction aspects to it. The characters and event are nonfiction while the world I created is more fictional aspects. Inspired by a book “Discworld” and my dream when I dreamt about space Nazi. Where the German reich was taking place in space. I seriously need to get back to that. Since I had it on my mind here and there more often than I would like to admit it. Plus I’m always drawn to wars and it’s history.. just thinking about to write it out and completed it, may put my mind at ease.
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It’s makes me feel so happy to know that my writing was able to make a person feel related emotionally- that’s my inspiration as a writer and their comment hits me hard. I have nothing else to say but how emotional I’m feeling right now.
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For these past years, I worked in Santa’s workshop helping out with MCM secret Santa and ‘gifts’ ..so of course for a this year for a change, I will be happy to be part of it as a participant! -
I seriously need a larger space… but this one of my ‘anime’ space for One piece and JJK space with some few miscellaneous- and yes I’m a huge Namani’s fan. My wano Nami is here today, so I’m waiting on Vegapunk Nami and Lilith to complete it!
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@Rikifive at that point might as well sell all the furniture to make rooms
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Congratulations @Treeglow Flicker !!! I’m sure this event coordinators role is the best fit for you! I have seen and known you for some quite some time around here and you have shown nothing but kindness and of course a lot of sense humor here in mlpf! You’re truly a Kirin at heart! You will do a wonderful job as an event coordinator! I’m sure the other event coordinators are going to have a blast and are very blessed to have someone like yourself working with them! Your artistic skills will do such wonders for the badges! As from expedience, that’s the most fun and rewarding part as an event coordinator!!
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Playing with more filers effects and showing off my new glasses! Bonus my little puppy Willy!
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Germs is something we all know cannot avoid.. but what bothers me the most is poor hygienes.
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general Why are people proud of seemingly everything?
TBD replied to Keiyara's topic in General Discussion
I don’t usually go about bragging what I did or accomplished.. unless a person who comes out all uppity at me then i would remind them that they can’t treat me like shit after what I have done for them. I know that sounds like a bit of a gaslighting- but I don’t appreciate my work going unnoticed and being treated like shit at the same time. I don’t care for a compliment or praises- to me, words is cheap. I appreciate a person more if they would go the extra miles for me just like how I’d for them. -
I had plans on what I wanted to do but unfortunately having to go by what my parents wants was the biggest mistake and I regretted it. What my parents wants is not in my field of expertise nor my interests. I went ahead with it without knowing how fucked up my life has become. Partly it was my fault for fucking up my college but at the same, that’s what happens when you don’t have passion for something that isn’t for you to begin with, since you will end up not wanting to work hard towards it. Since then, I hated health care field with burning passion. I should have went towards criminology or business or maybe writing. Right now, I’m going forward in becoming real estate. This time, I’m not gonna let anyone tell me otherwise.
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Would you leave behind your current life for a new one
TBD replied to Sunshower Raindrops's topic in General Discussion
I believe in past life and karma resurrection.. I also believe that it’s possible that my dreams do share fragments of my old life memories. As much as I want to start a fresh new life, my new life may be just a repeat of my old past life and so forth. Until I complete my “mission life goal” whatever that is. I believe we each have a unique individual contract after being created and we must fulfill that contract. When we die and do not fulfill that- as “punishment” we have to relive again until we get it right. Earth is Hell for us to relive over and over… but it can also be a good thing depending if we learn how to live our life to the fullest here. For me personally I feel I have lived for quite a while now, I still feel I’m stuck in wondering what I should do or can do. Honestly despite of the goods I have - I overall think my life is a curse. -
Barbie: lots of cringy moments that just rubs me in a wrong way. To back up my reason, I had gone through gender identity crisis in my early years due to “stereotypes” and this movie just personally triggered me. Aside from that I do enjoy the fun aspect of “Barbie” by itself without all that genders identity bullshit. 6/10
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“The doctor’s girlfriend is pretty cute…” my sister invited me to a her work dinner party- and I’m sitting next to her- damn she’s so pretty. That doctor guy, who is my sister’s boss… what a lucky guy. …but the party overall is awkward nevertheless. :// too much medical “successful” career talk.. makes me feel like a outcast.
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Today’s work was so crappy and I cannot stand our lead new manager. Just overall feeling really crappy. But today.. I couldn’t believe what just happened… my crush that had for long while, that never acknowledged me because it was really hard for me to get to talk her- FINALLY noticed me. I know that sounds like a anime cliche- but while I was walking to clock out, I hear someone behind say “I like your Groot backpack.” I was too tried and little grumpy to try to start a conversation with anyone. But as I turned around to say “thank you”- it felt like my heart just jumped right out of my chest! It was my crush. She was starting her night shift, so we just talked a little before we departed. But at least now since we introduced to each other and talked, because now it’s easier for me to approach to talk to her more and get to know her now! I couldn’t stop myself from smiling as I walked out. It felt like it was the best day ever for me!
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I wish @Le Trotteur Sauvage to come back. He canceled his discord and it was my only way to keep in touch with him. He left so sudden. He was my first ever friend on this forum. Even though I never say it but it’s not like we both needed to- since we both know how a close our friendship is. I missed his jokes, tease and our silly “bromance” moments on the game forum- and I do wish we had more time to chat. I only wish him the best but yes I do miss him a lot. I guess my only regret is not able to give more time to have a good conversation with him as I should have and letting him know how much our friendship means to me- I have made few other friends here, but he hit me differently. But I do enjoy the time we have together even when it’s mostly on game forum.
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I’m feeling quite emotional yet satisfied with my writing. I wrote a short sad romantic noir story about a one-sided love relationship between two men. Kinda inspired by the original “The little mermaid” but without the mermaid part.
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My love for writing actually grew and developed positively. As days have gone by, it has become harder for me to express and understanding myself. So for me to find some sort of comfort or healings, I turned over to writing. I feel my feelings and emotions are often shut off so I converted it into storytelling. I enjoyed writing short fiction story, movie scripts and song lyrics. My favorite part of writing is crafting my storytelling and turning it into a beautifully well-written story. I want my reader know there’s an art and craftsmanship in my writing. Where people could actually feel it when reading my work. I believe if people were to feel what my story is conveying- that means the emotions (my emotions) I put in my writing will be acknowledged. And that to me is like a good medicine for self-healing.
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Twilight's Lab! What's your IQ, do you believe your smart?
TBD replied to camsterman101's topic in General Discussion
My IQ is probably low but I never care for such an academic stuff. But I’d like to think myself as quite resourceful and more tactical-“jack of all trades, master of none”. I prefer looking at the big picture. -
When I say “I don’t care” that means I don’t have the energy to deal with it vs when I say “I don’t mind” means it’s out of kindness to let you do whatever you want.
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So far in my good mood. Doing a self RP with C.AI app and never have I laughed so hard- like I can’t.
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I actually do. I have this old small radio which is quite statically and not the best sound quality but it’s my favorite kind of sound from a radio. Especially listening to old classical music from it. It brings this authentic sound. I listen to jazz station too but sadly my radio couldn’t pick up the signal. But listen to Xmas station there where there’s jazz, brings such a nostalgic vibe and I would get zone out just staring at my radio and being absorb by it.
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Do you like to wear tight cloths or baggy cloths?
TBD replied to Muffinnz's topic in General Discussion
I’m pretty satisfied with my current physique- I usually wear that fits or somewhat fits my physique- but not like spandex tights. Baggy isn’t really my style but I will only wear baggy if I want to feel more comfortable. -
No that would be impossible. I usually set one goal at a time for myself to avoid disappointment on high expectations. I have achieved good things as I hoped and worked hard for. There are time when I struggled with lack of motivation and wanted to just give up. However having a mindset of wanting to prove these people wrong is what drives me. My ambition and pride is the key to keep going. I may not know what the future may hold for me- but slow and steady wins the race.
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5/10 it has been… quiet a roller coaster fuck. But the other half, well I learned from it and moving onwards from that experience.
Are you sure you're not some kind of time traveling alien or something?
