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Gotta keep it clean, not just for the sake of looks, but I feel genuinelly terrible in every way with messy hair. It ruins my mood. So they NEED to stay neat.

Looks awesome man, keep it up!

Very close person made it for me, it's also very lovely even without that fact. I think it's stylish. Maud is also the best pony.

You are right indeed! You could pretty much label majority of my videos as some sort of "vents". Some videos in particular were made in matter of hours simply because I felt like I needed to get certain emotions out of my system. The best kind of happiness is the shared one! Over time one realizes that achieving both yourself and being happy is a very hard task, and usually it may even seem impossible, but I still aim to live by "make yourself and others" happy. Both things are sometimes hard for me though, but I'm learning (I think). Thank you a lot! The channel's subscriber count always sort of makes me happy, never would I ever think that I would get so much people to click on that button. Thank you for your kind words! I am opening up this forum quite often and commenting on stuff that relates or interests me and so far I am happy here!

Overwatch and bought myself Watch_Dogs, it was on sale on Steam. I mostly focus on Overwatch, I never had so much fun with a video game in ages.

I would try to ask help from a family member and perhaps ask if they'd be so kind if I could live in their house, I'd get some kind of a job to order myself a flat of some sort no matter how cheap it can be, I'd keep working until I'd be able to get something else. No idea what kind of job I'd get since even I am studying so no real "job" right now on my hands. Anything but being homeless, it is my biggest fear.

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Changes from week to week. Right now I'd tell you that I am happy to be alive and that everything is going well tomorrow or few weeks later I will be saying how sad and get a lot of suicidal thoughts. Sometimes even during happy times I suddenly freeze and stop; this is a thing that I do and I do not understand why, for example I amke someone happy by telling them a nice thing,suddenly right at that moment I imagine in my head the bad scenario of the good thing that just happened, or also how I could make the pereson sad in few moments and suddenly my happy mood goes away. Simply happy moments are attacked by depressing hopeless thoughts and I don't even know why. So to answer your question; as of now, in this hour: Yeah.

Equestria Daily, I used to be there quite a lot, now I only go there to see when new episode is starting and to get quick links to the streams. I mostly visited EQD to get my videos up there, but I think it was desperation and by the end I was spamming their inbox, so that was kind of bad of me and time went on I only go there for the new episode and that is it.

Isn't this one step close to the creation of tulpa?

Thank you a lot! I hope they will be somewhat entertaining!

Thank you very much, being in a group is a thing I tend to avoid, so I mostly stick to talking only to one person at a time. Hello! And I believe so! From what I've seen this website is very much so alive with plenty of interesting discussions ot keep me coming back. Also thank you a lot for checking out my YouTube channel, I am really glad you enjoyed what you saw!

In my cases, it tells me I prefer action and fast paced games with a focus on competition rather than team work. With a very low focus on strategy or story. It tells me this to be precise: Action-Oriented, Persistent, Ambitious, Social, and Grounded

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My best memories ever would have to finding a special person close to my hearth. Sucesfully losing weight as I was very overweight and I managed to lose it and people don't even bring up my weight anymore as I am slim and this makes me happy. Leaving school which left me scarred as there were terrible people there, ever since that day I am at least 15% less suicidal. When my dad shown me video editing and gave me a poor program for me to have fun with, I edit videos all the time and it's great fun. When dad's friend brought me a CD of Max Payne 1 "you think you know good games and you haven't played Max Payne? You are gonna go for a ride" I played the hell out of it, game had a great impact on me. Playing Mafia Lost Heaven for the first time and seeing its ending. Hearing David Bowie's "Space Oddity" and NiN's "Hurt" for the first time, very different songs but they both impacted me very much. I bet there is more, so expect this post to be edited in the future as I remember other stuff.

I always try to avoid conversations with strangers whenever I can. As Ihave no idea how I appear to other people, I am afraid of being awkward or falling into the cringe category. I love having conversations about things I love, so I try to force myself into it since I can't help myself to keep my mouth shut, terrible results usually ensue.

Ok! I hope you won't mind me suggesting my videos right here. I think this may (or may not be) an interesting video to react to of mine, potentionally. It is esentially one big PMV which follows a narative, a story of some sort purely told by the song choosen and visuals. I made a sequel to this that starts off from where this one ended. You can watch this one too if you would like if you will enjoy the first video above that is! I do wonder if you will enjoy at least the first video! I know it is quite something else and also kind of long so I would understand if you would give these a pass, I love seeing people react to stuff I make so that is honestly why I am asking though! And good luck on your channel to the future!

Right now I am doing ok, having fun with Overwatch as we speak, it's loading now. Oh look it loaded, time to play.

Thanks! I like fun, fun's the best.

If I could, I would just post this picture, but I have to add some text in this, so I can post this.

So, hello there. I was never quite good at introducing myself. But I can try and stuff. The reason why I decided to go to a forum was because I've decided to open up more to people. Something I am bad at. To tell yo uthe truth I always felt like I was doing by myself just fine, but recently I discovered that I wasn't really honest with myself, I do consider myself to be very introverted, but I hate being lonely. I do need some place to discuss certain things and I can't really do that much where I kept myself at. There was this feeling of void of not having a voice, of having various thoughts inside of my head and not being able to release them. So, perhaps opening up myself; my personality to a community could be a good idea, I am not quite sure if it is, since for a long while I was very much so embarassed of who I am, I always was and in a way I am still ashamed of what I am. I always make a big deal of saying anything, to the point where I end up saying nothing at all. Since I know that I am good at saying the wrong things at the wrong time. I've been in the fandom for 5-4 years or so, I know I was watching the live-streams of the season 2 opener. It was an amazing experience and honestly it still is. I have a great problem with socializing, I always have, it has slightly gone better over the years in some ways, in some ways I believe I've got worse. I am diagnosed with high functioning autism. So this means that I can end up saying very cringe incuding things or do cringe inducing things. The more I age the more I realize this, which made me develop some sort of anxiety where I am very careful as to what I am going to say or do. I hate using "autism" as an excuse for anything, it does not excuse certain awkward situations or things I can say when I do not think things properly through. I always loved the show and the community's creativity, whenever it would be songs or fan-made animations that got created through their passion for the things they love. In my spare time I usually play video games or make videos for my YouTube channel. I can talk about the things I like to great extent. Currently I have been enjoying to over-helming ammount of Nine Inch Nails, to all albums, they are great in variety. So that is the kind of music I like. My special interests always change over time, sometimes it can be few months or years while the main big interest stays in the front, that being ponies now. My videos I make on my YouTube channel are another way I tend to express my various of emotions I have. If you would be so nice you can go and check it out here. https://www.youtube.com/user/HeavyWeaponsBaby Making videos is a big thing in my life and a nice way to waste some time, I have been working with several editing softwares as a child when dad introduced me to one. Then I made various videos around games I played as a kid, luckilly we didn't have internet so I couldn't share my embarassing things to YouTube, after a while my passion for making videos died, since I had no inspiration. Ponies brought back that inspiration and I felt in love with it all over again and I have improved. They aren't the best videos in the world, but I think that child in me would be really happy. I usually make PMVs, those videos are the most important to me on my channel, since I connect strongly to certain songs I use, therefore majority of my PMVs are some sort of vents. My favorite pony of all time is acutally Maud Pie, I feel like I can relate to her the most, even if we know very little about her. You can fill in the blanks with whatever you want it to. Silly thing to do. My second favorite pony is Pinkie Pie, I look up to her way of living and always smilling for others. It is something I want to do in life; to live an happy life while making the ones I love happy as well. So that is how I would like to introduce myself. Hopefully great stuff is about to come, or maybe I just made a great mistake, we'll see.