Why Do You Keep Going?

[Splashee 28,564]

27 minutes ago, WWolf said:

I want to create

Create?

 

Create airplanes?

Procreate?

 

[DubWolf 17,264]

9 minutes ago, Splashee® said:

Create?

 

Create airplanes?

Procreate?

 

I guess I don’t create that much other than... create collections of stuff  . Ohh the joy of creation... I used to have a lot of Lego sets before  . Also I do create stuff in my flight simulator, and occasionally draw... I guess we all create  

[Pastel Heart 6,466]

As cliche as it is...

The friends I've made along the way. ♡

[ExplosionMare 18,064]

3 hours ago, WWolf said:

I guess I don’t create that much other than... create collections of stuff  . Ohh the joy of creation... I used to have a lot of Lego sets before  . Also I do create stuff in my flight simulator, and occasionally draw... I guess we all create  

The Joy of Creation, like the FNAF fan game? 

I don’t really care for the game I just like the title

[DubWolf 17,264]

22 minutes ago, ExplosionMare said:

The Joy of Creation, like the FNAF fan game? 

I don’t really care for the game I just like the title

I was hoping you’d read that  . And yes.

[Splashee 28,564]

It's a matter of just breathing, and letting the seconds hand move forward (sometimes backwards) 

[Evil Pink One 13,507]

The rral question is...why not?

[Brony Number 42 10,069]

Money and the things it buys.

[Meson Bolt 2,648]

Mostly because I have it pretty good right now. I've got a group of awesome friends, a really lovely significant other, and nothing but money and time. Sure I gotta work way more than I want to, but that's just part of life.

There was a time when I didn't have any of that though, and the only real reason I continued was because it's more of a pain to stop. Not to make light of suicide or anything, but when you think about the logistics of it all, it's really messy, isn't it? It's not even guaranteed to work, even if you use some of the more reliable methods. Regardless of whether or not it works, your family freaks out, your coworkers feel all guilty, and a whole ass investigation takes place. And if I go through with it and succeed, now I'm forcing taxpayers to pay for my life insurance, and everyone will remember me as that "kid who killed himself over some b**** who didn't want him."

Nah, I'm better alive than that. Even if I'm miserable while alive, that's the worst way to go. I'd rather jump on a grenade or something, at least then people will call me a hero.

Edited August 19, 2020 by Meson Bolt

[Deae Rising Shine~ 55,579]

Sometimes for reasons, sometimes because I don't know

[Mini 451]

my body doesnt seem to like the idea of me dying

[Will Guide 21,360]

For Disney and for making others happy

[Kyoshi Frost Wolf 41,571]

Wow, my old post was over 7 years ago. Time flies. Truly, what I've learned in that time is literally all that keeps me "going" is an extreme fear of death and nothing more. If I could I would immediately jump off the bridge here in town but I don't have the balls to take that action. So I continue existing, becoming more miserable the older I get. Depression and the flow of time itself go hand in hand for me. 

[Splashee 28,564]

Because if I stop now, I won't see where the whole Hazbin Hotel craze will head? And that must be witnessed! 

[TheRockARooster 51,487]

I keep going because of my extremely special friends including you.

 

Spoiler

She knows who she is.

 

Edited August 21, 2020 by TheRockARooster🐔

[Clawdeen 14,265]

On 1/5/2020 at 6:08 PM, Operetta said:

I dunno 

My views might be a bit depressing but

Im just here until I’m not. 

I wish I could say I have some big inspiring thing that keeps me going but I don’t really. I just get up do whatever go to sleep and do the same thing tomorrow. Passing the time until I die.

 

 

It’s still this really.

I don’t have any big special reasoning as to why I keep going. I just do.

[ExplosionMare 18,064]

I’m a completionist, therefore I feel obligated to complete many things in life. I’d say something more inspirational, but I did that on this thread already a long time ago.

[Sonic Shimmer 4,132]

Forwards is the only direction it’s possible to go in. There’s no going backwards unfortunately.

[Deae Rising Shine~ 55,579]

I guess that little, tiny hope that evrntually it has to go up again? And friends and family probably

[Sunny Fox 5,950]

Ultimately, because my libido is stronger than my destrudo. (Or my Eros stronger than my Thanatos, pick your poison) I have more reasons to continue to live than I have to not do so. Plus the fact that we choose to continue the struggle, in itself, confers a certain nobility.

[TBD 17,254]

I asked that question for myself all the time and never know why. Maybe as long I'm still breathing or whatnot. I don't care.

[Mitternacht 45]

A very deep and intricate topic to be sure. I appreciate your willingness to share such details about your life and I find it incredible that you picked up poetry and writing and that it helped you in the way that it did! I really enjoy writing poetry as well and am happy you found that for yourself.

As for what keeps me going in this life -

I used to worry about the passage of time, of this life falling through my fingers like sand on the beach. This was a paradoxical feeling. On one hand I enjoy life but in order to live I must age. So, how best to understand this? Is it not the case that only those capable of passing from this life know what it is to live? If the passing of time or the fear of dying burdens our minds then perhaps we are carrying such a burden in the wrong way. I keep going in knowing that each day that I wake I am born and I die both metaphorically and physically. As our cells age and die, new ones are born. Anatomically I am a different me today than I was two years ago and so on. This isn't to say I we should forget the past or ourselves and not value the moments we have been fortunate to experience but it is to say that when life weighs upon us and when we struggle to smile, we need only look within ourselves instead of around ourselves.

Sometimes I would find inspiration in others, in books or characters of fiction and people of the past. I would think that if I could be like this person or that person, then things will be easier. But when such things like pain and misery happen, I could never feel right about myself. I realized that in order to live well, even in times of chaos and uncertainty it does not take much but if I was imitating someone else it took a lot. Going forward with life I am sure that I am true to myself first and foremost.

Lastly, what keeps me going is less of a fixation on what is good and what is bad and more of an mindful approach to life. I do this by asking - who knows what is good and what is bad? When I am stuck in traffic, rather than becoming upset that I may be late to where I am going I think - well, what power do I have over this anyways, who knows what is good and what is bad? Naturally we may think of this past year. Certainly we can find some bad in all of that can we not? Acknowledging what has happened is not the same as if we dwelled on it. Beyond a basic understanding it is our nature to carry forwards but there have been moments in life where terrible things have happened, things that I cannot unsee or words that I cannot unhear. What to do? No matter what happens to us, we can either see it as a curse and suffer or we can see it as a blessing and make use of it.

[dead account 2,711]

As long as I'm alive, there is always the chance for good things to happen and to experience them.

[Deae Rising Shine~ 55,579]

At this point? Honestly, I have no bucking idea. Guess because I'm a wimp, lol

[They call me Loyalty 1,948]

Nothing. I've been contemplating suicide since I was a five years old. And I still do.
There are many dysfunctional elements to my personal reality, and the construction of the family environment that was supposed to be the support and foundation of my upbringing.
And that is only the tip of the iceberg. The greater problem resides in the nature of the "world". It is a "global" deception on and of itself.  And this "global stage" means crap to me.

So, I've meassured the rope to hang myself already. There are some days I open the drawer an watch it and the support beams of the vineyard in my garden. Just tall enough to do the trick. I am so sick and tired of having to pretend to care for something I don't give a sh*t about. And I am not a coward.

I am waiting for the end of this "year" to determine whether this charade will conclude, or I have to put an end to it myself. It is not even sad at this point. It is only logical. And my body has been in pain during most of my life. So, that's a plus. But more importantly, I want to know.

I want to see if there is something beyond the ice ring. You know, when you go to the "south" of the "world". You will find a tall glacial wall that encircles the waters of a plane-shaped earth that looks pretty much like a disk with the "north pole" being at the center of it. And when you go into the upper atmosphere, there is a barrier like a glass dome. And there is nothing outside. This is it? This is all? Me and many other individuals that can produce an out of the body experience with reliability have tested this very physical barrier, and it is impassable. You could launch a nuke against that thing and you won't make a dent on it. And they have tried during operation "fish bowl". So, there never was a moon landing to begin with. Because there is nothing to land on.
That means there is no universe with endless possibilities out there. The stars you see at night are like the tail end of plasma filaments hitting in a spinning motion against the dome of this "bowl" that contains the flat plane of a fixated earth. Pretty lights. And both the moon and the sun are pretty much locational luminaries as described in ancient scripture. Much, much smaller than you would believe and much closer. The moon is not even a physical object. When you are against the barrier you can actually see the supposed "stars" pass through the dark side of our "natural satellite". As if there is anything natural to this creation. Even astronomers have reported this "phenomenon" in the past. It is a luminary like the rest of the "planets". There is no planetary system. Just the illusion produced by the separation of the waters above from those bellow. I never wanted to give credit to the bible, because it is such a shitty book and a boring read at that, but it is correct. Meaning all the garbage we see happening in the world is scripted.

Anyway. Beyond the glacial wall of the antartic ring that surrounds the disk of the earth, where the united nations and all the countries of the world have agreed for once on something, but to only prohibit any kind of civillian activity, there are vast plains of perfectly flat ice that seem to go on forever.
I want to see what there is to it all. I want know truth for once in my life. And I have nothing in this crappy stage. Nothing. So, let's find out!

I am actually excited for the first time ever.